We continued to look at each other with the same intensity and there was something more, lust probably. Well after this kiss, I will not deny it, I want Ethan Generes and I want him bad. His hands were still on my thighs sending jolts of electricity every time he would rub them.

"Let's take you to bed.'' He picked me up in his arms like a baby, his hand on my butt.

"But I can walk.'' I started struggling against him. I don't think he will be able to lift me without getting tired because I'm quite heavy.

"Desiree, considering your inexperience, I would suggest you to stop moving against if unless you want me to take you hard and fast on the kitchen island.'' He closed his eyes as if he was restraining himself from doing something he did not want to do. What the hell is he talking about?

"Wha—" Realisation crossed my face when I felt his hard bulge against my private part. I hid my scarlet face in the crook oh his neck and wrapped my legs around his waist and arms around his neck to gain some balance. I could not look at him straight in his eyes, not after we just did and definitely not after what I felt.

"You're too innocent for your own good, Desiree.'' He laughed melodiously. Ahh gosh, his laugh. That could make anyone melt.

I heard the door open and him dropping me slowly on the bed as if I was the most precious thing in his arms. I looked at my surroundings and realised that I was in my room.

"Yes, you're in your room right now. And no, nothing is going to happen.'' He said sensing my thoughts. I thank the Lords the lights were off because I did not want him to see my tomato and disappointed face. Honestly speaking, I wanted something to happen tonight. I don't know who's speaking right now, my crazy hormones, my need for him or myself. Shit, this is absurdly confusing.

''Goodnight, Desiree. Sleep well.'' He leaned forward to kiss my forehead. This simple action had my heart racing a million miles. The kiss lasted a bit longer than necessary. Not that I complain, of course not, but I would rather have his mouth somewhere else.

I don't know how and where I found this courage but I put both of my hands on his face and moved his lips from my forehead to my mouth and started to move my lips against his, both in perfect synchronization. Ethan did not hesitate one bit before kissing me sensuously. I felt him move such that he was now over me, with hands on either side of my face. Soon, I was out of breath but I did not stop there. I started to kiss his jawline, feeling the light stubble on my lips. I heard him groan at my actions. Sensing this as an encouragement, I moved my lips to his neck just like he did with me in the kitchen. I really hope I'm doing that well.

"Damn Desi'' Ethan grunted. He did not let me continue because he smashed his lips roughly to mine and I kissed him with everything I had, need, want, lust. I wrapped my legs around his waist bringing him closer to me, feeling him against my sweatpant, well technically his sweatpants. He started rubbing himself against me and I repeated his actions. I moaned in the kiss unable to take the friction he was giving me. I felt him grow inside his pants and I wished we didn't have anything on us right now.

Soon, we were out of breath and staring at each other, full of need.

"You need to stop doing this to me, Desi.'' He said breathless.

"Do what?'' I asked equally out of breath.

"Make me lose control so easily'', Ethan replied lustily. This confession had my eyes widened. I could make him lose control. The granny type Desiree? Holy shit! I'm so proud of myself. I continued to look at his face in the pale moonlight. Even at night he looks absolutely breath-taking, he looks like a dark angel, full of secrets and intimidation yet he has me falling for him... badly.

Suddenly, I felt him move his experienced fingers to my now swollen lips, caressing it oh so gently. I closed my eyes, just enjoying his touch on me. He now moved to my cheekbones, as if he was trying to memorize my face and all its features.

"You have such a soft skin.'' He murmured huskily. ''Almost, like a baby.'' I blushed when he said that. Nobody had ever said something so nice to me.

"You should really go to bed now, Desiree.'' Ethan ordered. Yet I could sense some struggle in his voice. Bed? Now?

"But I don't want to.'' I whined like a baby.

"I know.'' He kept on caressing my face. "But you must. You've had a really tiring day today.'' He replied, somewhat ashamed. This reminded me of the blisters on my skin. I had to put some soothing cream on them.

"Will you stay with me tonight?" I asked softly, not willing to look at him directly in his eyes.

"I want to, but I won't", I frowned at his response and leaned away from his touch. Stop being so childish Desiree! My inner voice scolded.

"Desiree, look at me.'' Ethan said in a commanding voice, yet I made no move to look at him. "Look at me, Desiree.'' He ordered imperiously. Ahh, the beast is back, here I thought he had softened up to me.

Slowly, I turned my face towards him and looked at him directly in the eyes. "I don't trust myself with you Desiree. I don't want to do something that perhaps you'll regret tomorrow morning and you beneath me, in such a position, is definitely not helping me right now.'' He answered with great effort. Oh! So, basically I am affecting him. Great job, Desiree, my inner voice tapped me on my shoulder.

"Perhaps I won't regret.'' I replied courageously. We both want the same thing. He wants me, I want him so badly so why are we talking about regrets! Damn it!

"I know you won't regret.'' He knows? ''But it's too early.'' He said softly. Too early? Too early for what? Does he have plans to do something in the near future? Now, his confessions have my stomach churning in anticipation. Damn him and his complicated confessions. Now because of this too early topic, I won't get some sleep tonight.

He gently lifted his body from me and got on his feet. I immediately missed his touch and his warmth, wanting him back to me. He walked towards the door. I also got up and followed him. He turned towards me before leaving and said

"You look good in my clothes by the way.'' He smirked. I blushed at what he said. I should most definitely thank Blondinette for doing this to me. Hadn't she done this today, Ethan would not be here in my room.

"Goodnight Desiree.'' Ethan moved closer to  me and kissed me softly before leaving. I closed the door behind him and leaned my back against the door touching my lips. They were still tingling. OK, I won't lie, I do like Ethan and his beastly and authoritative ways. And I want him. Really want him. Damn, this is the first time I'm liking someone and I'm already behaving like a love sick puppy. Good Lord, if someone had told me a week ago that I would be kissing my employer, I would have laughed in his face!

Smiling like an idiot, I dragged my body to the bed and went off to sleep with a huge grin on my face. The bed smelt of him. Even if he's not here, at least I have his scent to keep me company. Creepy much, I know! But one thing is sure, even Ethan wants me just as much as I want him. This made me even happier. I looked at the clock on the bedside table. Shit! It was already two in the morning. Ethan and I have been together for more than three hours yet it felt like it has been a few minutes since he's been here. I really need to sleep now. I tried to close my eyes but every time, his beautiful face would come in my head. Shit! I can say goodbye to my sleep...

*

I heard banging on my door and someone yelling loudly. Now, who the hell is that?! I groaned and took a peek from my lashes at the clock. Holy crow! It was already eight thirty. I'm late. I woke up with a jolt and sprinted towards the door to open it. Ryan was about to knock once again but when he saw me he stopped abruptly. He looked absolutely good looking in that blue v-neck shirt and ripped jeans just like the chocolate boy on magazines. But he's not as good looking as Ethan. At the thought of him, I took a look at his room, his door was opened meaning he had already woken up and gone off to work. Shit! I couldn't see him.

"Aww, sleeping beauty is awake.'' Ryan pinched my cheeks.

"Shut up, Ryan.'' I laughed. I opened the door wider for him to get in.

"How rude!" He exclaimed. ''Not even a good morning.'' He said dramatically. I swear that boy should have become an actor.

"Good morning Ryan. How are doing this morning?" I asked in a sweet voice.

"I'm doing just great, now that I've seen you, my day will be even better.'' He replied cheerfully. "Cordelia sent some clothes for you.'' Ryan said dropping the bag on my bed. The bag was an M&S one, meaning they have just bought some new clothes for me.

"Oh, there was no need for that.'' I said slightly embarrassed. I didn't want them to spend money on me.

"Well, the decision was not ours, it was Hulk's.'' Ryan whispered in a really low voice as if he was telling me a top secret. So, the beast asked to buy me some clean clothes. How considerate of him.

"Oh, well, I'll thank him once I'm ready.'' I smiled.

"See you in a few.'' Ryan said closing the door. Once he was out of sight, I opened the bag to see the contents. Holy crow! He bought everything that I would be needing, new t-shirt, new tight jeans, new undergarments. How did he know my size?

Why did he have to buy new clothes for me? These must have costed a lot. I could easily have managed with his clothes. Damn him and his wealth.

Losing no time, I brushed my teeth and got inside the shower. Once I was done, I wore the clothing he gave me. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. Oh boy! I looked totally different. The clothes completely fitted me and the jeans enhanced my curves, not that I have many curves but still I could see my body shape. These clothes somewhat made me feel beautiful. Quickly, I brushed the nest on my head and tied it into a neat ponytail and made my way downstairs.

I could see Ryan and Tyler arguing on a topic. I cleared my throat to make them aware of my presence. Both of them stopped talking and kept looking at me strangely. I frowned at their reaction.

"Is there something on my face?" I ran my hands through my face.

Ryan cleared his voice ''No, it's just that you look good. Really good.'' My face heated at his statement.

"Oh, thank you.'' I replied shyly. ''Should I make pancakes for you?" I asked awkwardly.

"No, Cordelia has already prepared some. Come and eat them, there're awesome.'' Ryan said, his mouth full of pancakes. I sat on the chair and started eating the pancakes. These were divinely delicious. I nearly had a pancake-gasm.

"This is so good.'' I said, eating like a pig.

"Told you so.'' Both of them replied simultaneously. I laughed at their synchronization. ''Now tell me D, who do you think is a better player Wayne Rooney or Marouane Fellaini?'' Ryan asked. So this was the debate all about. Boys!

"Hmm, Wayne Rooney I guess.'' I replied. Thank goodness I had some knowledge about football.

"See, I told you.'' Ryan pointed at Tyler and their discussion started all over again. Once I was done with the delicious breakfast, I took my plate along with theirs to the sink and started doing the dishes.

"Oh and Desi, you have to make Ethan's coffee.'' My heart skipped a beat when I heard Ryan say his name.

"Ethan is here?'' I asked, looking at Ryan.

"Yeah, he hasn't gone to the office today, says he will work from home.'' Ryan shrugged. I quickly stopped doing the dishes and started to make his coffee. My stomach were filled with butterflies once I made my way to his study. I knocked softly at his door and heard a faint ''come in.'' there he was, sitting gloriously on his throne working on his laptop. The last time I was here, we had a big argument.

I put the coffee on the table and cleared my throat. He lifted his head and looked at me hardly. I nearly cowered at that glare. Why is he looking at me like that?

"I-I wanted to thank you for the clothes.'' I said quietly. He simply nodded his head.

"Anything else?" he was still staring angrily at me. Why the hell is he behaving like that?

"Could you please tell me how much the clothes costed so that I can pay you back?" I tried to sound brave but failed miserably.

"No, I won't tell you. Now if you're done wasting my time, get out." He snapped. What?! Something snapped inside of me. How dare he talk to me like that?! Yesterday, he was acting all lovey-dovey and today I'm his worst enemy.

"I don't like to keep debts Mr Generes." I replied angrily. I guess he did not expect I would answer back because he seemed shocked but covered it quickly with his signature glare. I can't believe yesterday, I nearly begged him to have sex with me.

"You will not talk to me on that tone, get it, kid. Now get out."  He rose from his seat and his chair fell back. I flinched at the sound of the loud bang of the chair. Damn, I've just awakened the beast.

I nodded and quickly ran away from his study closing the door loudly. Shit! Shit! Shit! I can't believe this just happened. I can't believe yesterday I even thought of liking him. I can't believe yesterday I nearly begged him to have sex with me and I can't believe I gave that monster my first kiss. I was bawling my eyes out outside his office. If he had to treat me this way, why did he give me hopes yesterday? Why did he act like he cared for me and the most ridiculous thing is that part of me still likes him even if he is screaming at me!

No,this is enough now. I wiped my tears from my eyes. I won't let him do whateverhe want to do now. He wants to ignore me, fine. Even I'll ignore him now. To hell with him!

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