I forgot what it was XD

Anyways, I was looking in a mirror today and noticed that my hair was more brown than usual?

Normally it's more black, but then, it was brown??

And now looking at it, it looks black again XD

But it was weird, I think I was probably seeing things X3

A while ago I also saw some light brown hair, but I dun feel like trying to find it again cause I dun feel like it XD

Right now I'm just assuming it was cause I was looking at the mirror when I just woke up X3

Speaking of waking up, the Jesus Machine is helping out a lot, and I wake up not as dead X3

Now I wake up a bit dazed, cause mah brain is actually doing the rest things, but it's a good kind of dazed, and not the "oh snap I'm actually alive what year is it" kind of dazed XD

Well, I do still question the date cause mah face still fast-forward when I sleep - heck this morning I thought I was in the middle of my junior year in high school XD - but it aint as chaotic :3

I'm still having the anxiety thingers and the other thing, even when nothing's happening, and that's been going on for a long time, but I'm hoping it's gonna get better cause the sleep machine and I actually know that anxiety and depression are things X3

Before whenever I had those thingers before and when I didn't know that I was actually having those things, I always thought I was getting in trouble, even when I'm just sitting there XD

But I have hope for the future that things will get better X3

Also, I think I figured out how to put the thing I wanted to talk about into words, but after thinking it over, I feel like it would sound stupid and irrational if I tried by what I'm thinking right now, and by the time I find a better way to do the thing it wouldn't be a problem anymore XD

OH I REMEMBERED THAT I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT THANKSGIVING TOMORROW
HOW DID I FORGET THAT XD

ANYWAYS, normally my people stay home and do the food things, and other times we'd go to my uncle's place in New Jersey

My uncle never ate chicken nor turkey his whole life, and he refuses to do it, so they have some sort of pork or beef food thingy instead X3

This year we're staying home cause normally if we go over to their place my dad talks to them a few weeks ahead to let them know, and Thanksgiving's tomorrow X3

So when we stay home, Little Dude and I normally bake some sort of desert and mah older brother helps my dad or mom with food things

Whenever we're not busy with food things we decorate the christmas tree X3

Our tree is already up, and Little Dude "decorated" it, but he literally threw the ornaments and tinsel on it, and it doesn't look good XD

So we're redoing it tomorrow cause my older brother and I both agree it wasn't very good, and Little Dude's fine with it cause he didn't actually try X3

Tis fun :3

Boi, the average conversation with my brothers and I is normally us trying to burn each other and it's amusing XD

I noticed today that my grammar gets drastically worse when I'm talking to my mom, just me and her 030

Legit, I was thinking about it while we were looking at dresses for the school concert thingy, and I don't remember what I said, but it didn't sound like english grammar XD

It was english words, but boi, grammar tho XD

And I also realized that my grammar is better when talking to my dad, just me and him X3

When I talk to my mom, I feel like we're constantly talking, but with my dad we take more time to think before we speak cause he's rather patient when it comes to that jazz X3

My mom's not very patient, and neither am I most of the time XD

Boi, I like thinking about things I inherited from my mom and dad, cause it's amusing X3

Cause both my brothers and I got a lot of traits from both of them, but yet we're pretty different

I am very dedicated when it comes to certain things, like my grades or band or other things I find important, and my older brother likes to build on to the things he already has, like how he's pretty good at technology jazz, and right now Little Dude is in the "ooh lets see what I can do" phase so I dunno about him on this one XD

And then when I can't get something to work, I make myself get it to work, even if it takes several hours (unless I stop caring XD) but then when one of my brothers can't do something, they either find a completely different thing to do or just drop it all together X3

And then my older brother saves his money for what he wants, I just save money for whenever I need it, and Little Dude basically just blows his money whenever he gets the chance XD

And there's also a lot of other things X3

I dunno if it's just me or not, but I like thinking about that kind of stuff X3