Ya know, sometimes I'm confused with how people do the life things.

Like, there are some people who can tell people that they are having problems with life, such as depression or anxiety or suicidal thoughts, and I'm just

How'd you do that?

I'm at a loss.

And by the time I decide to tell someone about something that's going on, I find an excuse to think that I was just being stupid and there was something that was clearly causing it, so I end up not saying anything anyways.

I can't even tell if the things that are happening are anxiety, depression, plain sadness, or if I'm just overthinking things.

I feel like one of the problems is that I tend to look for excuses and "reasons" why the stuff goes down. Lately I've been saying sleep apnea cause I believe that sleep is important and if you don't get enough of it, you go all wonky.

But is that the only thing going on?

I dunno, I've just been really confused lately.

And there's also a lot of stress on quizbowl, and a lot of other things that I got myself into this year, so maybe that's a thing.

But then I think again, how long has this "thing" actually been going on?

I know I've been feeling stuff like this last year, and perhaps longer, but why does it seem to be a bigger deal now?

I don't even know what's going down.

I guess I got triggered when I heard other people talk about their problems like they're used to talking about it when I don't even have a clue with what's wrong with me.

But hey, I got a doctor's appointment this Saturday, so hopefully getting the that thing fixed will make things easier.