Not really sure what's wrong with me

I haven't been

Able to draw cats very well
This has happened before in fact..before I posted an art book
I uh
Don't really remember but I just wasn't able to draw cats and I haven't updated in a while and I've also been spammed with votes and idk I've been like resenting and not looking forward to going onto wattpad cuz I feel guilty and just the votes are overwhelming and I do love them and appreciate them but when you spam me with them I can't see important posts and idk

Maybe I'm just going thru my depression again idk it's weird
Hopefully I'll be drawing lots for you guys soon I'm sorry *^*

Drew this today so here u go