I Am Freya of Fairy Tail

I looked up at the stars as I laid my arms on my cold window sill. I then laid my chin on top of my folded arms, my head titled up to the winking stars. I stayed there staring up at the stars for a long time.
Thinking.
Planning.
Regretting...
And saying goodbye.

The stars had always been there for me. They had acted as a guide for me as I walked down a futureless path. They had been my only company all of these lonely years. Always there, always watching, just for me.

My heart had picked up its tempo. It beat as if I were running. Running through a muddled and heavy path. Never seeing the end and never knowing what's on the other side.
If there were an other side. My eyes became glassy as I went back into the past of my memories.

After I had left the Guild I had come back to my old apartment. My land lady was kind enough to let me stay here until I could pay her the Jewels I owed her. I shuddered at that kind of amount. You won't have to worry.

Natsu had walked me home.
Smiling, joking, dark eyes on me.
I never thought he would look away.
I'm not going to vanish in a puff of smoke. I wanted to tell him, to reassure him, to ease his worries.
I'll vanish like a normal person.
I hummed at the memory.
I'll keep it locked and hidden.

My thoughts shifted as blue hair overtook them. I hadn't lied to Levy when I said that she would see me again. She would, perhaps,...only not tomorrow. Or a few days from now.
I don't know when I'll see you again, Levy.

I had gotten to see my family again.

If only for a short while.

But it would be enough.

I took a deep shuddering breath, touched my Guild Mark, and gripped the window. I had been so blessed and lucky to see their smiling faces again. To feel their arms around me as they embraced me. Safe. Secured. Loved.
I'll feel it again.

I pulled myself up on the window and crouched down. My fingers twisted and twirled around the locket that had replaced my Dagger Necklace. However, even though this necklace had no Magic to give, it was far more important and powerful to me.
I wonder what happened to my former necklace?
I reached up and put on my hood to shield my tear stained face.
I know you have it.
I shouldered my backpack and looked up at the stars again.
So keep it close to you.

I took a breath.

So you can keep me close.

Braced myself and-

"You're leaving me again," I whipped around, "aren't you?" My eyes flashed as they landed on the shadowed out form of a man. The silhouette shifted and a sandaled foot broke out into the light that the moon provided. Dark eyes turned lighter as the pale light reflected in them. Hair, softer then silk, and the color of fresh cherry blossoms, stood out against the inky darkness.
Natsu.
The Fire Mage was staring at me with hurt and sadness shining in his eyes.

My heart plummeted until it was no longer residing in my chest. My teeth clenched, my jaw ached from the pressure, but it stopped my lips from quivering. I let out breath but it got stuck in my throat. With my eyes still on him, I gripped the window and slowly got down. My legs and arms were stiff, unyielding, not wanting to leave my perch. My only escape.

My feet made no sound as they landed on the floor. I put my back to him. Shame filled me, making my nerves buzz and my skin crawl. I couldn't face him. So I faced the stars instead. Even they did not want to be looked upon by me. "Natsu..." I began softly but he cut me off with a sharp snap of teeth.

"No. Freya, no more of that. I don't want to hear your excuses for leaving." My eyes flashed, then narrowed, as I looked over my shoulder at him. "You don't get it." I bit out, my own words oozing with bitterness. Why can't you see it? Why am I the only one who can?

"If people, horrible people, catch wind that I'm still alive." I can't even fathom what they would do to you. "They would come after me." The words burned on their way out. "And they will come after all that have taken me in, cared for me." They scorched my throat. "They will try to hurt you and the Guild again." Determination made my voice harden, my words a promise, "I cannot allow that to happen again."

I whipped around to face him as my voice rose, "It would kill me to see you hurt again because of me!"

Because of me.
Because of me...
What a horrible person I am.

Natsu stood there for a moment, the shadows covering half of his face. Then he stalked toward me. I looked sideways, unwilling to meet his scorching gaze. He stopped inches away from me. Natsu's warmth radiated off his body and surrounded me. Letting me believe that I was in a safe place, my own personal shield.

Natsu brought up his hands and he placed them on my cheeks. His touch was so light, like a gentle caress of smoke. He then gently lifted my head up. Forcing my eyes to meet his. Fire was dancing in his eyes as he smiled sadly at me.
What a waste of a beautiful smile.
"I just got ya back." Natsu said, searching my own eyes.
"I just saw your smile." His calloused fingers brushed against my lips, making electricity zip through them.

"I heard your laugh." He brushed my hair aside. "I got to see your face again." His brushed his fingers across my cheeks, tracing my every curve and skin. Remembering.

"I got to hug you." His soft voice turned strained. "To hold you. To touch you again." He went back to cupping my pale cheeks. "Something that I thought I would never do again."

Natsu closed his eyes and let out a deep breath, letting go of the sadness that ate away at both of us. "Now you want to leave me again. Without even saying goodbye." A soft whoosh of air came from him, "Now, that just ain't nice." I closed my eyes, thinking that somehow if I did, then the words would go away.
But, I am not a nice person, darling.
I'm a bad one.
I swallowed thickly before I mumbled out, "I...have to protect you."
Don't you see?
Please...you are all I have."

All I have to keep this blackened heart beating.

I heard him give a humorless chuckle. "Fey, you don't just have me. You have the whole of Fairy Tail. You have Levy and all your friends." He tapped his fingers underneath my eyes, coaxing them into opening. "Freya, don't break our hearts all over again. Stay with us." A grin crossed onto Natsu's face, "Hell, stay with me."

I looked at the man before me. Really, looked. He was still there, my goofy, lighthearted, fired up boy. However, a wave of seriousness and anger had taken root in him as well. We had both changed. We both now knew what true heartbreak felt like.
For we had both experienced it.

"Natsu-" I tried again, but he opened up those gleaming eyes of his and looked straight into mine.
My words became non existent.

"Freya, please...Don't go."
Natsu Dragneel was known for his loudness and tendency to rush off into a battle with little thought. Never have I heard him speak so softly that the wind could carry it away. Never have I seen him pick and speak with so much care. Nor have I felt the gentleness of his touch. A touch that could snap and burn through bone.
I could see and hear it all in this moment. A moment, in which, he was giving only to me.

"I need you. When you were gone, a part of me went with you." He closed his eyes as if to hide the pain that I knew was shining in them. I would know, since my very eyes held the same. "And, Freya, these years when you weren't by my side were a living hell for me." He took in a breath as he searched for the right words. "But," a small smile graced his lips, "When I saw you again, I thought I was going crazy. I thought that I had finally lost it."

Natsu sighed and reopened those emerald eyes of his that out shined any ruby. "But, you were here. You were with me again." The Dragon Slayer leaned in closer to me and touched his forehead against mine.

"So, please, Fey, stay with me...and make me whole again."

I stared up at him.
You...want me to stay?
My heart was no longer there in my body. No longer beating.
Will that make you happy?
Make him whole again?
Will that give you joy?
How could I make him whole when I wasn't even whole myself?
Because, my darling, if it does...
But as I looked at the man that I loved...I was just done.
Then I will stay forever.

I was done running.
Running from my family.
I was done leaving.
Leaving him.
I was done living in fear.
Let happiness and love now enter.
I was done letting other people try and ruin the shaky life that I had built for myself.
This is my life after all.
But most of all I was done lying to myself.
Lying for no good reason.
So, as I stared up at Natsu, and as I looked into those beautiful green eyes...I let myself love.

The damn broke.
The chains snapped.
The fear disintegrated.
And love blossomed.

I smiled and brought up my hands that were just as battle scared as his. I buried my fingers into his hair and with the other hand, placed it on his chest, right above his rapidly beating heart. A soothing beat.
The beat of an awakened fire.

"I wasn't whole either. I'm still not." I told him in a breathy whisper. "But I believe we can both be whole once more...together."
As it was always meant to be.

Natsu started to smile, a blindingly, happy smile that I was sure I would begin to sob over. However, before he could say anything, I grabbed him, pulled his face closer to mine, and kissed him. If only I had been more prepared. Prepared for the onslaught of emotions that hit me.

It was like a fiery explosion.

His lips were warm and soft against mine. Completely opposite to what I had been expecting. From all the harsh and fire induced words he said and the Magic he used. I was quick to think that his lips would be like mine.
Dry and cracked. How wrong was I.
I buried my fingers into his hair while he wrapped his arm around my waist. Pulling me closer to him.
As if I'd ever wander far.

Natsu kissed me softly and slowly. Like he was committing my lips to memory. The air was on fire around us. Scorching and burning a path towards us, until it wrapped itself around me and him. Protecting this memory for as long as it could.
For as long as we could.
I felt like laughing, sobbing, and screaming to my hearts content, all at the same time.

Natsu does bring out the strangest parts of me.
I smiled into the kiss.
Also the best.
There was just too many emotions racing through me. I couldn't name them all, even if I tried. They were all mashed together. But, one, stuck out more than the rest. I knew the emotion well.

Love.

Unbreakable love.

I kissed him harder, sealing the unspoken words.

I love you.

I felt like screaming it at the top of my lungs. Oh, and scream it I shall, as soon as I got my breath back.

I love you, Natsu Dragneel...and, for some insane reason, you love me, too.

That alone made my heart burst.

Then we broke apart. But never leaving each other's grasps. We couldn't even if we tried. We were both breathing heavily. I was smiling so widely that I was sure that I looked absolutely mad. But, that was okay, because Natsu was smiling just as widely. His eyes were like looking into a pool of dancing flames.

Such a magnificent dance.

I wrapped my arms around him so tightly that I probably made his body ache. Then, I leaned up on my tippy toes, and whispered softly in his ear, "I breath for you, Natsu Dragneel."

The truest statement I've ever had to say.

He froze in my arms and for a second he didn't say anything. I worried that for a moment that the Fire Mage had been severed from reality. I looked into his eyes, searching for any sign of life, when he suddenly came alive. He laughed so happily that it made my heart soar. He smiled so widely at me that it showed off his sharpened, white canines.

Natsu picked me up, spun us around in a circle, and crushed me to his chest. Then he bent his head, looked straight into my eyes, and muttered so softly, that only I could hear the next words.

They were my salvation.

"I've loved you for so long, Freya...even when you weren't here, I never stopped loving you."

My key to my paradise.

My heart melted. Tears pricked at my eyes as I looked into his own eyes that were practically overflowing with his love for me. I smiled softly at him as my tears fell, I had been strong for too long.

If I break, will you be there to help me reform, Natsu?

Suddenly, his eyes lit up even more, as he remembered something. "Oh, I almost forgot." Natsu said as he laughed lightly, curling his hand around his scarf. He brought his hand to his neck, put his hand underneath his scarf that had saved my life, and started to pull something out. "I have something to give back to you."

I tilted my head as I saw him pull out a sparkling object attached to a sliver chain. I knew what it was before my eyes took it in. I can feel the Magic.
I let out a shaky breath.
So achingly familiar and so heartbrokenly missed. Natsu held my necklace that held my Twin Daggers in his hand.
I am finally reunited with you two.

Natsu unhooked the chain from around his neck and brought my necklace to me. I lifted my hair up so he could clasp the chain together. Once I heard the snap of the clasp, the familiar weight of my necklace was back. I closed my eyes as I brought my hand to my neck and gently touched my missing puzzle piece. The two necklaces that I now had clinked together rhythmically.

I knew he would keep you two safe.

I let out a small breath and reopened my eyes. "You...you wore this the whole time?" I asked Natsu, turning around just as he brought up his hand and rubbed the back of his head. He smiled down at me and shrugged his broad shoulders, "I was waiting to give that back to ya, when I saw you again." A cheeky grin came to his lips. "Whether it be in this world or another."

I stood there. Staring up at this amazing man.
What did I do?
How could I be so damned lucky?
What could I have done, to have someone like him?
Without a sound I jumped into his arms and hugged him to me.
I don't know how or what I did...
I closed my eyes and laid my head into the crook of his neck.
But, whatever it was...

Natsu buried his face into my hair and he held me like he was afraid that if he let go of me...that I would disappear again.

I am so thankful that I did it.

"Don't worry, Natsu...I promise I won't ever disappear and leave you again."

I'll always stay somewhere where you will be able to see me.

"Promise?"

To hold me.

I smiled and buried my fingers into his soft hair.

To love me.

"Promise," I whispered.

Just as I breath only for you.

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I am no longer Magnolia's Number One Assassin.

Instead, now I go by the name, Freya of Fairy Tail.

One amazing, caring, and loving boy made this all possible.

And that one man, (he still acted like a kid though which never failed to make me laugh), was right beside me, like he always would be.

I was in his warm, strong, secure embrace.

I was finally safe.

He was smiling at me.

I am happy.

His green eyes were still shining with his love for me.

I am loved.

I hoped my eyes were shining just as brightly with my love for him, as his were for me.

Somewhere along the way, the Dragon Slayer got me to fall in love with him.

And somewhere along that same path, I somehow got him to fall in love with me.

I was more then happy as to how this seemingly impossible thing could have happened to us.

To
me...

Now, as we both sat on this grassy hill, the very same hill that we had watched the fireworks together, all those years ago.

Now, six years later, we watched the sunset go down together.

I smiled as I watched the orange and golden light begin to fade over the horizon. Bathing us in its last fiery orange glow. The light bounced of the locket that Natsu now wore. It lay gently on his chest, a erratic design of a dagger encased in fire, was drawn into the gleaming metal. Inside the locket, was the picture that I had gone back for that night. The memory that I couldn't leave behind.
The picture of us at the beach with the sun shining behind us, and my smile that just couldn't hide the love that tore at my heart...

Now, I faced the sun head on and all it would bring with it when it rose again the next morning.

Bring on the next adventure.

Because as long as I had, Natsu Dragneel, by my side,
then I was ready for anything.

Bring it on, darling.

I'll be waiting...

Natsu Dragneel leaned in close to my ear and muttered, "I love you, Fey."

I reached up and cupped his scarred cheek as the sun washed its lovely glow onto us.

"Always & forever, Natsu..."

I am Freya of Fairy Tail!

🔥~The End~🔪
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Author's Note: I can't believe this story is over...its so bittersweet, and yet I feel so happy, and sorrowful! How did you all like Freya's story? Do you have any questions for me? I would love to answer them :D What was your favorite chapter or moment? I want to thank everyone who has taken their time to read, vote, and comment on my story.

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