We just dropped off Jin, everyone separated.

💠 Time Skip I'm Lazy💠

I'm left by myself. It's been 5 months already since Jin left, guess what I did? If you said a new Tattoo then your right, Jungkook still won't talk to me. I think I've lost him, he made me happy with all the little things he did. I think the Golden Maknae hates me, yeah yeah he loves everyone. He even got Yugyeom to not talk to me, slowly one by one they start to not talk to me.

Yeah, I'm depressed no I'm not going to harm myself. I went to go see a therapist, I just left therapy when the company calls me for another meeting. Let's rewind a bit to right after I made my way to the company, apparently the trainees I was training ratted me out and told on me that I could sing, not only that but that had proof of me singing in both English and Korean.

They gave me a proposal, that I would still be the choreographer but they also wanted me to be an idol. I told them no right, I only want to dance and nothing else. They had asked me why I told them every single detail from back home till this very minute, I also showed them my tattoo. They were very interested in my neck tattoo, I told them about my family only PD Bang knew.

In all honesty, I tell them I still feel alone. That I don't feel like I belong again, I tell them my theory about Jungkook. They all look away, I tell them to tell me or I quit. I stood up, getting ready to leave when the secretary stands up to tell me. Bella, Jungkook is getting married to IU. Oh, I quit! Why?

Because I don't wish to be a part of a company who lies to you. Don't tell anyone, I'll find another Job or I'll move somewhere else. Goodbye, I place my lanyard and studio keys down as tears start to roll down. I leave my car there, I grab my bag and just walk. I stop at a cafe by the beach, my head down as I drink my life away. I feel a tap on my shoulder, then I let out a hiss.

Sorry, I didn't know you had a new tattoo. Its been awhile Bella, I look up a Taeyang Oppa and Gdragon Oppa. Go away I don't want company right now. I don't know which one said it but they said it "Jungkook's Marrying IU!" I didn't care about alcohol poisoning, I downed the bottle in 30 seconds flat I put 1500 on the table then I flipped over them. I look over my shoulder, stay away before I fuck up your face.

I hand grabbed me, Fuck man I say why doesn't anyone listen. I grab the hand twist and toss them over my shoulder, leave me alone. I just want to be sad in my own rite, my whole family is ignoring and I just quit my job because they knew. I now have to find someplace else to live, now please I just want to alone. I like being alone, that way no one can hear me cry. He should have never saved me when I jumped, he should have just let me die. I would've been happy, I don't care anymore.

I see a hair salon, I walk up to the door. Can you dye my hair black with white highlights? I'll pay you triple if you do it now, I took some Advil and drank some water. I sighed when I looked to my right, it was Taeyang Oppa. I paid and left, I cracked my neck. What do you want? I have nothing left to take? All of a sudden I was hit with Deja Vu and I sank to my knees.

Come on Bella let me take you home, I look at him I don't have a home anymore, do me a favor drop me by the Starbucks up the street. I'm going to sleep in my car, I give him my # as he gives me his. I'll call you in the morning, it's not like I can go anywhere. I don't have my keys, I leave my car unlocked. No one will touch my car, because they know what will happen to them if they do.

Im already sober, I call IU unnie and I just sit there and I wait for her to say it. Bells, I'm so sorry. Unnie, don't worry just take care of him and the boys. If you love me like How I Love Jimin then you understand what I'm asking you. I can't be the strong one anymore, I won't be coming to your wedding, I won't be staying in the house either. I'm tired, Im going to bed.

Btw if your listening, thanks for ignoring me and turning the family against me I hope you're happy you lost two family members in one day. Even Jimin won't talk or touch me. Don't look for me, I hung up the phone. My heart broke and I just cried for hours, I silently. I tired myself out, I am mentally and physically tired. I looked at my phone and put on some music, I played Fake Love on repeat. I cried myself to sleep, I dreamt that they still loved me.

I woke up to my phone ringing, hello? Who is this? Oh, it's you, what do you want? You look at the time and gasp you asshole you woke me up at 7 am!

👈Taeyang👉
She was going to to be pissed, but oh well I asked my friend if he still needs a choreographer. How do I know? Easy Auntie from the tattoo parlor told me.
Wait! Don't hang up, I have a job opportunity for you. Meet me at the cafe that you were at yesterday, I buy you breakfast. I hung up the phone!

Damn when YG heard about her quitting the boss was on our ass to find her. SM wants her and JYP as well, I heard what happened with her, IU and SM trainees. It wasn't hard to find out what happened, but when Bella submitted the surveillance videos from aunties house. The trainees were booted, that's the reason SM wants her. But there is no way in hell that she would choose them. I see TOP and his dislocated shoulder, he wasn't there when I & Gdragon saw the news.

I told him just because he is a star, it doesn't give him the right to manhandled people. When I told YG what happened, he said that's what he gets. I showed YG what she looks like, a foreigner he said yes I showed the video of her dancing with the trainees form BigHit he was shocked as hell. I had respect for her, I look up to see her with shades on she look freshly showered and she wore this:

My jaw dropped because she was absolutely gorgeous, I did not know that this was hiding under her baggy clothes.

👈Back To Bella👉
I was curious about the job opportunity, PD Bang called me again and apologized. I told him I was sorry for acting like that, but I had stipulations if I was going to become a full-time idol. That my contract was separate and the only be who will know is if I tell them directly. I'll see you at the studio, that will be your temporary dorm.

I walked up to both Oppa's, let me say this so I can go back to my day and enjoy as a free woman. Because after tonight, you won't be seeing me. I won't except whatever company, sorry after bighit I was done. I'm leaving, I don't want to be here anymore. Bye, it was nice knowing you, I walked to my car, got in and left.

I drove to the house, I got out and took my house key off my keys. I unlocked the door, I walked past the living room. I do what I do all the time, I walked to my room I took out all the dirty dishes and walked to the kitchen. I saw them, all 6 of them were sitting there staring at me. I finished the dishes, I walked back to my room and I packed everything that belonged to me.
Everything they bought, I left in the room it belonged to Bells of Bangtan that's not me anymore.

I walked to the parlor, I looked at them. They looked away, let me ask you, why'd you save me if you were going to act like this to me. Im not even going to waste my breath, there's no use you can tell Jin what happened. I won't be coming back, you as I point to Jimin. I love you, yet you ignore me like I'm not worth it. Next time act like you don't know me, it makes my heart break a little easier. I smh, I place the let on the floor and walk away.

Why were you with Bigbang, 3 weeks ago? They showed me a picture of a girl that looks identical to me, but they left a few details out. Do you think this skank, is me? Wow, you guys are stupid? This bitch has brown eyes, she's 5'10 and she has no FUCKING tattoos.

Wow, this is a new low for all of you, make sure you lose my number. You made me feel this little like I didn't belong again. Instead of doing the shit again, I've been going to therapy. To find out if there was anything wrong with me, but I find out why I've been ignored again. Who showed you that picture Kookie, what did they say to you when it was given to you?

I bet you my life it was Unnie! His eyes widened when I said her name. I knew she had something to do with this. Kookie, was she out of breath when she met you last night? I showed him my videos from last night. Give the phone to Appa, he knows where I'm moving to.

Because you thought I was with them like Ewwww. I love you guys, but my words don't mean anything right? Enjoy being married to that SKANK. Oh, Kookie she's dating TOP Oppa. I kiss his cheek and Jimin's and Tae's when I walk out the door not looking back. I held back don't leave please forgive us. I had back my tears, I shake my head and say I can't stay, but how about you guys come with me?