ILL PROBABLY DELETE IN AN HOUR I JUST WANTED TO RANT NO H8 PLZ
I'm just posting on here cause I can't talk to my friend group about it and I kinda wanna to talk to someone but I don't wanna seem annoying & ik this is kinda darker then what I usually post so I'm sorry

I've always struggled with eating.Since before middle school I had always been a bit self conscious about my weight.This was mainly because being petite and very slim runs in my moms side.

Now as a kid I was always pretty slim and skinny up until around 2018 when I would go through massive drops of weight gain and weight loss that no one really noticed.

In middle school,around that time,is when I first began noticing my body wasn't the thinnest.my sister would always tease me about my weight and around this time she was a high school who weighed 98. Pounds and I weighed way more than that.

I won't go into detail about those years because it kind of just depresses me but let's just say summers were rough and eating was a challenge.

Now I work out a lot and I've been pretty healthy for the most part.Frequently I'll go into states where I hate my body and don't want to eat and quarantine is kinda making it worse.

Last night I got a memory from 2018 and it literally made me cry because of how big I looked and how small everyone else looked compared to me.

Ngl it kind of made me scared of eating today.

Anyways sorry for the rant

also just because I feel like this is a safe place I'm going to post the pic from 2018 and my body now because I'm trying to get better ig idk this is kinda stupid and I'll delete it