"Sitting down by my window
Honey, looking out at the rain
Sitting down by my window, looking out at the rain. All around that I felt it. All I can see was the rain. Something grabbed a hold of me. Feel to me, oh, like a ball and chain. Hey, you know what I mean that's exactly what it felt like. But that's way too heavy for you, you can't hold them all. And I say, oh, whoa, whoa, oh, that cannot be. Just because I got oh, your love, please. Why does every. Oh, this can't be just because I got to need you, daddy. Please don't you knock it down now, please. Here you've gone today. What I wanted to love you and I wanted to hold you, yeah, till the day I die. Yes, I did, yes, I did, yeah, hey, hey, alright"

He was my ball and chain. I could not escape him. He was like no other. It's almost as if he wanted me to hurt in his favor. Like he wanted me to be nothing. He's nothing to me now though. I see him with her and I just know. He doesn't hold me down. It's like I'm free from his grips and we never even began. I know I left him hurt to but I just didn't deserve his deceit and dishonesty. I did not deserve waiting alone at night in a crime filled town to get let down. I did not deserve his new lover taunting me subconsciously for months.
And well him? He just didn't deserve me.