It was Christmas eve and I was already three months pregnant. Finding out that I was pregnant with Jose's baby was a big shocker but I learned to accept it...I had too! Just because I'm not in love with him like he is with me doesn't mean I would get rid off our baby...he or she didn't ask to be conceived so I am keeping it...

It was hard telling Jose the truth about what happened between Colin and I...seeing the hurt and disappointment in his eyes broke my heart...I was a horrible person. I didn't deserve his trust or love and he didn't deserve for me to have done what I did. I know he would have never have done that to me.

I was confused and he understood...I opened up and revealed how I felt about things and he somehow understood. He didn't even really blame me for what happened which was strange...he even forgave me because he loves me...that made me feel worse.

So after talking for a few hours we made a decision, actually I did...for the baby's sake...and that's when I texted Colin...

"All I Want For Christmas is You"  by Mariah Carey and Justin Bieber Media Video

"How are you feeling?" Kee Kee asked sitting next to me on the couch handing me a cup of Hot Chocolate...my favorite.

Taking it carefully I thank her "Okay I suppose...!" giving her a weak smile.

She sighed "P, I know you feel bad for what happened with Jose, but the man loves you and forgave you...you are carrying his baby for goodness sake! He will get over it...if he hasn't already."

"Yeah...you're probably right...it's just...!" I trailed off.

"...Colin?"

"Yes...Colin...you should have seen his face when I told him...he was..." shaking my head I thought about the day in the hospital when I told him I was pregnant with Jose's baby.

"Hurt? Disappointed? Pissed off?" she asked.

"All of that...but he was fine with it. He told me he didn't care as long as we would be together. He would support me and help me with the baby when Jose wasn't around...not that Jose would be happy about it."

We stayed in silence for a while until Kee Kee spoke "Colin really does like you...doesn't he?"

Thinking about it I nodded my head "Yes...I know in the beginning he was a total ass, but, he really isn't once you get to know him. He's sweet, loving, caring, funny and...he wants to be with me regardless...!" I whispered putting my hand on my stomach.

"Are you regretting your decision?" she asks putting her head on my shoulder.

"No...I made the right decision. I can't go back. It wouldn't be fair to either of them. No matter how much they say they care for me and want to be with me...one will eventually hate me at the end. I couldn't live with myself...!" 

"I'm sorry you feel like that ma...I know you really care for both of them but one had to be let go off...if you are sure of your decision then I will support it...now Antonio?!" 

"Antonio has done enough...I know he wants the best for me and wants me to be happy, but..."

"But he loves to put his two cents...!" she adds.

"...and more!" I say standing up heading to the Christmas tree. "I wonder how he's doing?!"

"Probably miserable thinking of you...or getting wasted!?" Kee Kee chuckled.

I thought about what she said "He's with his family I know for sure...I just wish!"

"That you could speak to him?"

"Yes...I just want to make sure that he's alright...just because we weren't together that long doesn't mean I don't miss him...and..."

"...love him?" she adds making me nod.

"I do...a part of me can't help not too love him. It's just that we aren't meant to be...he'll get over me...I know in time he will." I tell her smiling but it hurt...no matter how many times I have told myself this past month that it shouldn't.

Kee Kee stared at me for a while "It's alright to miss him...I just want to make sure you made the right decision that's all P. We love you and want the best for you hon...and now that you are having my niece or nephew that I will spoil rotten by the way, I want to make sure you aren't stressed out and that you take care of yourself!" she tells me giving me a hug.

"Thanks Keeks...I love you guys too. Thanks...and I made the right decision even though it hurts a bit!"

"I know and it will for a while but hey, you have a guy who totally adores you and will fight to keep you! He has proven that!" 

I shake my head in agreement and look at my hand that's resting on my growing belly. I made the right decision and I'm with the right man...I know I am. I just Pray that things go well between us since there is a baby on the way.

"Hey, we're back!" I heard the guys come in which included Aesha. Antonio is away visiting his parents and won't be back until next week.

"Hey!" Kee Kee and I say in unison.

"Hey baby girl! How's the peanut doing?" he asks wrapping his arms around my waist placing his hands on my stomach.

"I'm fine and so is Peanut! I am hungry though." I tell him looking up at him.

Smiling down he turns me around and kisses me sweetly. Pulling away he smiles "I missed you and I brought you food so let's eat!"

"Alright..."I shake my head with a smile and follow him. 

As I follow him to the kitchen I can't help but smile. I know I was hesitant from the beginning to be with him and things were shaky. But I've learned so much about him and I know how much he truly wants to be with me no matter what has happened in the past few weeks. But I want to be happy and I know he will make it happen.

"Here you go baby!" he tells me handing me a plate of food.

"Thanks babe!" I tell him with a smile and head back to the living room.

After eating we hang around watching Christmas movies until the clock hit midnight.

"You don't know how happy I am right now P...Santa sure gave me the best present this year! I love you so much and I will show you we are meant to be together...no matter what other's say!" leaning down he puts his hand behind my head and brings me to his lips. "Merry Christmas Princess and thank you for staying with me...I love you and I can't wait to marry you and raise our baby together!"

"Me too Jose...our baby deserves to have two parents to raise him or her. Thank you for forgiving me and being here...I don't deserve it!"

"Shhh...it's in the past now. I love you and I will do everything to take care of you and our baby. No one will ever come in the way of us ever again...and once we are married, you will be mine forever!" he tells me crashing into my lips kissing me deeply.

Forever...that is his hope and it will have to be mine now...I chose Jose because I'm carrying his child and I know he will always be there for us. Colin said he would stick around for me and the baby but I know deep in my heart he wouldn't. He's walked away before turning to other women when he was upset so who's to say he wouldn't do it now. This baby isn't his and I know it will become a problem with Jose being the father. I do love Jose in my own way and I know in time that love will grow. He is an amazing man and I just have to give him a chance to be it...I can't be selfish and turn away from my child's father...even if he isn't the man that I want to be with right now.

Jose Fernandez "Did you Catch That?" Media Video

A/N: 02/01/2016

Hello my readers...hope you like the update though I know some of you might be upset...sorry, but it goes with what I have planned for the story! So please don't kill me!

So, P chose Jose for obvious reasons...First cause she thinks Colin will eventually end up leaving her and second because...she is carrying Jose's baby and though she might NOT be in love with Jose (yet!) she does love and care for him...she wants to do the right thing and in a way feels guilty.

What do you guys think Colin is feeling about her decision?

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