Alexa's Point of View

It was Saturday night still. I climbed out my window and over to Hamzah's. I banged the side of my fist on his window repeatedly.

"Jeez," He said pulling the window up. "What's so important you had to wake me up?"

"I can't sleep," I threw my arms in the air.

"Why?"

"What happened at the party?" I asked Hamzah.

"What do you mean?" Hamzah asked.

"Aaron isn't talking to me but won't tell me what I did. Said I am too drunk to remember. He also said he wouldn't tell Haley. What did I do?"

Hamzah sighed and rolled his eyes.

"What Hamzah?"

"You're not seriously that dumb are you?" Hamzah asked raising his eyebrows.

"I- maybe..?" I said.

"We nearly slept together," Hamzah said softly.

"We what?" I asked looking up from the floor. "Are you sure?"

"Yeah," Hamzah said. "We were both pretty drunk to be honest. Maybe you were a little bit more than me. But we seriously were not thinking straight."

"We had sex?" I asked dumbfounded.

"No," Hamzah shook his head. "We probably would've though if Aaron didn't walk in."

"Hamzah I'm so sorry.." I trailed off.

"You have nothing to be sorry about," Hamzah said. "At least not to me."

"No but, for everything," I sighed.

He shrugged his shoulders, "It is what it is."

"I guess but.. what about Haley?" I asked Hamzah.

"I don't even know what's going on between Haley and I. I like her, and I think she likes me. But she still talks to a ton of other guys. So I could care less if I kissed another girl. What about Aaron?"

"He seems really upset with me," I said shoving my hand in my pockets. "Which totally isn't fair. He fucked up once too and I didn't hold it against him."

"How bad?" Asked Hamzah.

"After Aaron and I.. slept together.. he was still hanging around this girl Ryleigh, he even let her go to the diner and harassed me while I worked," I said sighing. "But I still gave him a chance because I really like him."

Hamzah nodded his head, "Seems like a dick too."

"He's really not Hamzah," I said. "Sure he's.. been a dick. But he's not actually a dick. You know?"

"I guess," Hamzah said.

"I just want this all to be over," I said with my head in my hands.

"So you regret it?" Hamzah asked walking over to me. "The kiss."

"Oh," I said. "I-I don't know."

Hamzah walked closer and closer to me. I could feel the pace of my heart start to speed up.

"Hamzah I should go home," I said turning around before Hamzah could put his hands on me.

I climbed out of his window and went back into my room through my own window. I sat on my bed thinking.

Did I really almost sleep with Hamzah?

Surely, sober me would not have done that. But does sober me secretly want that?

I want Aaron. I know he's who I want. Sure we've had our rough patches, but I know he's the one for me.

I pulled out my phone, texting Aaron.

Me: i know it's late but i rly need to see u

I laid on my bed waiting for a response. He didn't respond so I decided to FaceTime him.

The phone rung and rung. And just as I thought the call wouldn't go through, he eventually picked up.

"Alexa?" He groaned, his voice was groggy, I must've woken him up.

"Hi," I softly said. "I miss you.."

"Alexa," He groaned, this time it wasn't a question.

"Aaron, I wanna see you," I said rolling over in my bed and pulling the phone close to my ear.

"Okay just.. I can't right now," He said.

"Why not?" I asked.

"I just.. I can't," He said, he seemed to have been getting upset.

"Aaron please. I will seriously walk to your house," I said.

"Don't bother," He said.

"Why not?" I asked getting worried.

"I'm not there Alexa," He sighed.

"Where are you..?"

"Out," He said getting annoyed.

"Out where?" I asked. "A sleepover..?"

"Don't worry about it," He said. "I'll talk to you later."

"But Aaron-"

The other side of the line went silent and I realized he hung up on me. Where was Aaron that he didn't want to leave to come see me? I started to text him.

Me: aaron that so wasn't cool. listen i know i fucked up but so did YOU. this doesn't mean you have some sort of hall pass .

Aaron: chill. last night u showed that u weren't my girl. right?

Me: aaron seriously? you can still see ryleigh after we hooked up and pretend to not know me when ur with ur friends (SOBER) and get upset that i kiss my friend (DRUNKLY) ??

Aaron: why are you just pointing fingers ?

Me: but i'm not. i admitted what i did was wrong but u can't fight fire with fire to try and get back at me. u did shit wrong and i forgave u for it time and time again and somehow i'm the bad guy cus i mess up ONCE.

Aaron stopped answering me which sent me spiraling out of control. Was he insane? Was I insane? Where was he? Who was he with?

I am realizing I'm so insanely obsessed with Aaron as time passes on. I like him so much everything just feels so.. weird.

I lied back in my bed. My phone began to ring. I groan and put my phone to me ear, "What now?"

"A-Alexa," She cried.

"Oh shit," I said realizing it was Kathy that called me. "Fuck, what's the matter Kathy?"

"It's Delilah. S-She.. I don't think she's gonna.."

"Oh my god. Kathy, where are you?" I asked getting up out of my bed.

"I'm at the hospital with Delilah. I-"

"Kathy, just relax, I'm on my way, text me if you need me to bring anything. I'll be on my way."