Diana's POV
My eyes opened quickly at the sound of the fire alarm going off. What the hell?
I tossed the white duvet sheets off my body and opened the bedroom door. A puff of smoke blew across my face and legs.
A cough left my lips and I ran downstairs to see what was happening.
Once my feet reached the living room, loud crashes and cussing filled the kitchen.
Oh, Jay.
I walked to the kitchen and opened the door, my eyes widened at the sight of broken dishes and burnt eggs all over the floor.
Jay's eyes met mine and he gave me a goofy smile putting a hand on top of his head. I bit my lip and kept to myself watching him turn off the messy stove.
"Haha, er-good morning! I hope you slept well!"
His morning voice made me melt, it wanted me to give in and hold him close to me, never letting go.
"I uh, tried to make you breakfast. Sadly, it didn't turn out the way I wanted it too."
I walked past him and sat down on the wooden chair of the dining table. My eyes narrowed at the scratch marks that Luca had left.
It was the day my group was calling me crazy. My fingers rubbed the carved area.
Jay pulled a chair out in front of me causing an uncomfortable sound to arise.
My shoulders ate my ears trying to avoid the horrid noise. Jay took a seat before grabbing my left hand in his.
I tried to pull away but he didn't let me.
"Diana, please, hear me out." He begs. The Alpha King in front of me was begging!
I ran my tongue across my top teeth and nudged my head.
"Fine." I snapped.
He smiled softly and pushed his chair closer to mine.
"First of all, I'm sorry! I know what I did was wrong but I was scared, I was so scared about everything Diana. This is so new to me, and it's hard." Jay apologizes. He continues to speak.
"I think it's time for me to tell you everything. From the very beginning."
I kept quiet and swallowed a ball of my spit loudly. Geez, I didn't know I was going to feel this nervous.
He licked his plump lips and stared into my soul with the entirety of his black eyes.
"When I was born, everything was going great- or so I thought- I mean, I had a mom, dad, and older brother,"
My heartbeat sped up to a dangerous rate.
"I was bad news, Diana. Want to know who the first person was that I killed? It was my mother! And I-I loved watching her in pain,"
"Why? Why, did you kill her?" I whispered.
He breathed in deeply and continued,
"My mother wasn't the best person. She was quite abusive growing up, and she always hurt me more than Theo,"
"She would lock me up in a room for days while my father was out on long meetings, leaving me to starve and die. I only wish I could tell my father but he would never listen. I mean, it's was his Queen for God's sake,"
"This one night, Theo was done with all of it! He snuck into my room and told me that I would be 'free'. Theo told Luca to shift, and let me take control. It was the first time we had ever shifted, "
"The bad thing is when I'm in control, I can't and I don't think. I just do. Mother told us that we would meet you, but she told me I wasn't worth it. She told me that you would hate me,"
"Theo shifted with me and we both made our way into her bedroom. Without a thought, I jumped on the bed and dug all of my teeth into her neck, tossing her onto the floor like a rag doll."
Jay bit his lip hard, holding back threatening tears from dripping. I nodded softly waiting for him to finish.
"I remember it so vividly. Her screams for us to stop, but I-I was just so angry. I was broken. My claws ripped through her stomach and I ripped her apart..."
My mate stood up and he held his hand out for me. I grabbed it in a heartbeat, standing straight next to him.
"Come, I want to show you something." His voice was rough.
We rushed out of the kitchen and halted in the living room for a second. He turned to face me again, holding my cheeks in his rough hands.
"Okay, please don't be scared," He mumbled.
The shakiness in his voice gave me the chills and I didn't know how to feel. Jay grabbed my hand once again and pulled me toward the hallway where all the guest bedrooms were.
After a small walk, we made it to the end of the hallway, showing a scratched and damaged door. The paint was peeling off of it, and the doorknob was completely crushed.
"This is the room I was put into by my mother," said Jay.
He opened it, causing a loud creaking sound. My hands flew to my mouth and eyes flooded with water, seeing the horrid sight in front of me.
Chains were hanging from the ceiling, silver surrounding the area. There was a small dog bowl with dust in the corner. Scratch marks covered the entire floor, showing the desperate pleads Luca had tried to give.
Jay's hand went to my shoulder but I flinched harshly, having him drop it immediately.
"The morning after, my father came back and saw what I had done. I saw him lay down next to my mother's exposed body, sobbing. Want to know what Theo did? He walked into the room and acted just as sad, he blamed her death on me!"
"My father was so upset, so angry. Theo packed a bag and ran away, leaving me alone to deal with everything. It broke my father's heart even more. Again, I was the one to blame."
I sniffled loudly, slowly wrapping my self onto his torso.
"Apparently, my father knew what my mother was doing. He thought it would make me stronger, It would make Luca stronger. Believe me...it did, but not for better. It was for worse."
Jay pointed to the middle of the room, gulping loudly. His Adam's apple bobbed slightly.
"This-This is where I killed him. I chained him to where I once was. He was now in my position. It felt good to finally be in control and in power. I wasn't vulnerable anymore. Diana, y-your mate is a murderer, a killer."
"With both of my parents died and Theo went, I was left to take care of the pack. That's how I became Alpha King. For a good couple of years, all I did was kill anyone or anything that would get in my way, until one day, I started thinking about you again. I told Luca that what we were doing isn't right."
"I told him, we need to better ourselves for you, I told him that we aren't worthless and we need to think about you and make sure you won't...fear us."
"We changed our values a few months before we had met you and I am sure as hell glad I did."
Jay nuzzled his head by the side of my cheek, kissing it every few seconds.
"I'm a horrible man, who has done horrible things. I will continue doing these things, it is just who I am. I'm cursed."
I shook my head, wiping my eyes.
"No, no you are not a curse. You are the greatest thing that has happened to me and I am SO glad you told me," My voice sounded so stuffy, "I love you and Luca very much. I didn't mean whatever I said last night and I hope you know that."
Jay cleared his throat and nodded, pulling me closer to him.
"I-I have one more thing I need to tell you," Jay told me.
"Of course,"
"Darling, I am cursed. I'm not like any other werewolf you will meet. The reason why I am in control is that I shifted at a very young age. Diana, every six months, I will be in control for who knows how long. Some times are longer than others."
"I don't know why, God, or whoever ruined me. I won't ever be perfect."
My lips met his, feeling his canines bite my tongue a bit. I disconnected them and put my lips close to his ear.
"You are not ruined. God chose you to do his work, that's why you are more than perfect."
I saw him smile a bit and close his eyes in content. My heart did flips just looking at this beauty. Jay was so different to me now, Luca also! They seemed so honest and open and I liked it.
"Diana, darling look!" Jay yelled.
He picked me up and shuffled to the small window that gave a little bit of light. I gasped when small specks of snow falling into a small pile.
I hopped out of his grasp and ran to the front door, having Jay chase me across the hallway.
"Diana!"
The front door was now open and showed heavy snowfall. I laughed loudly, running outside and spinning around, staring at the light blue sky.
"It's so beautiful! Jay! Come outside!"
Jay ran back into the house, coming back with a blanket in his hands. He lugged it onto my shoulders, hugging me from behind.
"I can't believe it's winter already. This war is messing up everything." Jay sighed.
Winter. This means Christmas is around the corner and we wouldn't be able to celebrate it with our family, my group, anyone but each other. I frowned at the thought and felt saddened. What if we couldn't celebrate it at all?
"What's wrong my Queen?" Jay inhaled my scent and fluttered a kiss on my neck.
"We won't be able to celebrate Christmas."
He snorted and put the blanket over himself also, before speaking to me.
"Of course we will celebrate Christmas! You know what? Why don't we start right now? Let's go inside and make some hot cocoa, put on a movie, and just cuddle all day."
Oh, I loved the sound of that, but we couldn't avoid or ignore all our problems.
"Jay, that sound amazing but-"
"No buts, come."
Jay dragged me back into the house, closing the front door behind me. Before he could go any further I wanted to talk to him about all of it. About his past and my thoughts on it. About this war.
"Jay, hold on. I really want to celebrate it, trust me there is nothing else I want to do right now. But we can't just ignore everything. Christmas is great, but it isn't what is important at this moment. I also just want to say that, I love you."
"I love you too," He grinned.
"No, Jay, I love you so much it hurts. Nothing, not even your past can change that. I know that you don't want to keep talking about it, but it is what we should do. Today, I-I just want to get everything off my chest. If that's alright?"
He was quiet for a moment but agreed. We were about to walk to the couch when a phone began to ring. Wait a minute...a phone?
Jay became alert but soon realized what was happening. He jogged upstairs, leaving me all alone and confused.
"Wait, Jay. What is going on?"
I followed him upstairs into his office, watching him hold his cell phone to his ear. He ushered me to him and I quickly obliged.
I jumped onto his desk, allowing him to stand in between my legs. He ran his hands across my thigh, speaking onto the phone.
"Hello?" His voice sounded so intimidating.
His wide eyes met mine and his next words caused my heart to drop down to my stomach.
"Monica? I-is that you?"
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