in real life!

jake is comfortably laying on the couch. he sleeps with a smile. karl types on his phone as he sits on the side of his brad, criss crossed. shay is laying down o bc it. both in pajamas.

   shay; fuzzy pink hearts pants and a knit sweater, navy and gray. karl; fancy looking silk-like pj bottoms and a matching style sweater, black with tiny red stripes.

"sorry, i just tweeted i was going to stream tonight, i'm just gonna cancel." after he sends it. throws his phone over to a small pile of laundry, out of sight out of mind. he just smiles at her.

she bites her nails nervously her mind was literally shut off as it felt. staring into what seemed space but felt like a void. "you ok?" the boy says softly.

she blinks herself back into reality. "i'm sorry- i just- well i am sorry about just being really shit about opening up-"

he interrupts "no! it's fine i just didn't really know how much everything was impacting you. and opening up is hard sometimes."

"i mean-" shay sits up to mimic the criss cross apple sauce. "you were like my boyfriend- i wanted you to be-" karl looks at the girl with a slight smile. "i should be able to tell you everything- i felt like i could." the back of her throat became sore from holding back tears. "i was just fucking terrified of what they might think."

she's notices she's said this all to her own lap, so she glances upward to find karl crying calmly and with a smile. "sorry." he laughing wiping his face. "i totally understand now. i just wanted to know you were okay."

  fuck, now she's crying. "yeah all i wanted was an endless karl jacobs hug." karl's smiles widens as he stares a knowing look -shay consenting-. she felt the comfortability she's been longing from his warm arms. the two let out a laugh as it came across as a body slam. they were face each other closely with their tear stained smiles. "yup. this." she says softly.

   karl scoffs with a smile. "sooo" he sings, "you said you wanted me to be your boyfriend?!" he teases which causes shay to feel nothing but heat rushing all over her face.

   "i did- and then i pushed you away like i do with literally everyone in my life." she sighs trying keep a smile. "and i thought that's what was fort he best. what everyone wanted." she shakes her head quickly, "it all just got in my head became too overwhelming- i just need to shut down for a bit." her voice became a whisper.

karls hand rubs her back in comfort. "i texted jake basically daily."

she gives in and nuzzles her head into his chest feeling the warmth and softness of his sweater. "i know what i did was shit. to like run off like that." shays voice is muffled by her cheek being fully pressed onto him. "i just-i just missed you, a lot."

as much as she craved this feeling, so did he. to hold her, to comfort her, to feel her hands intertwined with his. "i missed you too." soft with a slightly scratchy voice. karl thinks for a second, "we don't have to post about each other, to be like... out there."

"yeah, i think that's what we really need."

karl pulls back for a second. shays a mess with tear drenched face, but with a smile because he was with her. so was he, his eyes burned red, warmth from blushing and the crying.

   "oh fuck." karl whispers as he takes his sleeves over his hands and cleans up her face.

   "damn, we're messes." she laughs. mirroring the action to clean up his tears. "can we watch something like-"

   interrupting her, "adventure time?" he suggest shyly.