A few days passed I apologized to Curly he listened but hasn't been himself lately he doesn't talk to me he tries not to avoid me but I can see he's not happy with me.

I think this is why he avoids me to avoid making me feel like crap but I still feel bad knowing it's him I'm Inlove with.

I was at my unit and everyone asked about the conference so I showed them all the pictures and materials I got Kate gave me funny looks so I ignored her.

We only spoke when we had to it's sad what jealousy does when she had no reason to be.

I got a lot of work done things were easier since the conference because I applied some of the things I was taught.

When I was done I was looking for Xavier ...

I bumped into Oliver he didn't give me a choice he grabbed me and kissed me ...I felt nothing no sparks ...

I was smiling and he thought I was enjoying it but I was happy because I finally know, I guess I've always known ...

My smile turned into a frown when I saw Xavier looking at me and Oliver...

He ran out ...

"Oliver I'm inlove with Xavier not you"

"But the kiss? You were smiling "

"Only because it confirmed what I already knew, that I love Xavier, I need to go"

I didn't wait for him to respond I left more like ran and finally found him...

"I'm getting sick and tired of your games Lumi"

"I'm sorry Curly"

"Please don't call me that," he said

"Sorry"

"Look I know I've messed up more than twice, I've never had a boyfriend growing up I was bullied for being different and that made me hide from the world and avoid dating or any contact with humans"

"What"

"Yes you were my first kiss but how do I say the best when I haven't experienced anything, I had a crush on Oliver but when he grabbed me today and kissed me I smiled because I felt nothing, I don't know anything about relationships and love but I know I love you and want to be with you "

"I'm not interested anymore Lumi"

My heart broke the first time I put myself out there I get rejected?

"Okay I'm going back to work"

I was walking to the rooftop to calm down, I just needed a moment.

"I'm not interested anymore in sharing you with that jerk"

I turned around cause I heard his voice...

"I love you too buttercup," he said that smiling

I laughed and went to hug him...

"And I love you Curly" then played with his hair...

We just stood there with our foreheads touching savoring the moment.

Then we kissed I've been craving his lips ...

It was the best kiss ever full of love and maybe a bit of passion...

"Does this mean you're finally my girl?"

I nodded and he laughed.

"I'd like to invite you to our Thanksgiving dinner if you're not busy with your family "

"I'd love to," he said and I was happy to finally share my life with such an amazing guy.

He walked me to my unit and kissed me right in front of Kate the "ooohs" and "aahs" we heard ...

He laughed and left me with the crazy nurses...

I ignored them and got back to work, rumours were going around that I love and date Xavier for his money and status but I never really listen or entertain the the most important part is we understood our love...

After the long day I couldn't find Xavier to say goodbye and left with Maddy I'll call him.

We were stopped by Mr. Hernandez asking if he could have a word it didn't feel right.

We went to his office and I handed Maddie my car keys so she waits inside the car and left with him.

Did I mention how intimidating he is?

We went to his office and I felt so small I have a feeling he heard about the rumors and wants to put a stop to it

"Miss Williams I'll get straight to the point I heard bout you and my son"

"Oh okay," I was fidgeting with my nails...

"Relationships can be a bad distraction when you're focusing on your future, my son does not need this so please do something about this crush he has on you"

The door opened before I could answer, I was happy because what was I supposed to say.

"Dad I told you not to talk to her"

"I had to, I know you don't have the guts to break up with her"

"You're right I won't break up with her because I love her  and we are both good for each other she's a hard worker who got chosen for that conference because her patients come first, so no I won't break up with someone who makes me want to be a better man and better doctor"

He took my hand and said we should go so I stood up and we left him looking at us, I left with him but felt scared what if he fires me?

"I'm sorry about my dad okay"

"I don't have a father and soon will lose my mother I will not come between you guys"

"I know and I appreciate you for that but you're not doing anything that wasn't there before, we have a strange relationship he puts too much pressure on his children"

"I'm sorry Curly"

We stopped at the parking and he kissed me it was like we didn't want to let go but we both knew we had to, even if I'll see him the following day I couldn't help but feel bad because of his father.

After our kiss, he kissed my hands and went back to the hospital and we drove off Maddie made fun of us while I blushed.

I told her about Xavier's father and she told me how the same thing happened to her, but she didn't listen and now they are celebrating their 3rd year together.

After dropping her off I drove home and found my mom sleeping...

"Hello baby how are you "Aunty Drew asked

"Tired "

I told her about Xavier and his father and she had great advice for me she told me to get pregnant that was the end of our conversation.

"Don't forget to invite him to our Thanksgiving dinner"

"I did aunty,  how's momma"

She sighed " The same baby girl"

She hugged me and I went to check my mom and went to my room.

I showered and sent Xavier a message telling him I miss him.

I thought of the last Christmas we had all 4 of us.

..,.Flashback.........

"Dad why did you get me"

"You'll have to wait," he said that handing me a mug of hot chocolate filled with marshmallows.

"Hmmm just the way I love it"

"Babygirl I need to talk to you about something while your mom and aunt are cooking"

"What daddy"

" I'm sick and you're a smart nurse so you know the signs"

"'Okay"

"You'll soon be saving so many lives and making us proud"

He took out a box and handed it to me I opened it and there was my white and rose gold stethoscope with my Initials engraved perfectly on them.

"Daddy these are expensive"

I hugged him...

"I'll always love and will always be with you and when I'm not here I'll always be in your
the heart making that light shine brighter"

I cried happy tears even though the thought of losing both of them terrified me I had to carry on for them.

We had an amazing Christmas my parents fighting over their presents still I couldn't shake the feeling that things will never be the same again and I was right things did change.

    .....End of flashback...

I got ready for our thanksgiving dinner.

Xavier came wearing a white shirt, tie, and black jeans with white sneakers he looked amazing and I couldn't keep my eyes off him.

He brought Aunty Drew and my mom flowers and after greeting him she went to put them in water.

She asked us to set the table and we did it was fun because of the stolen moments we shared. If you told me I'd be where I am now a year ago I would have punched you In the face just kidding...

We finished making the table and I went to check on my mom and found her peacefully sleeping, she got lost earlier today but luckily she was seen by one of Aunty Drews's friends and they called her.

She was sitting on a bench in the park she and my dad met at and she didn't move but Aunty Drew managed to take her home and give her some medicine to rest.

She looked peaceful and it broke my heart that when she wakes up the nightmare starts again like she's desperately asking us to let her go be with her better half.

We had dinner and enjoyed ourselves, I was trying ta accept my new reality without the two people who taught me how to love...