My Sunday ended well my mom was doing better and I'm happy she had time to joke honestly I love her strength, she calls me her light but I think she's my light because no matter how dark my life got her light was the brightest leading me and guiding me no wonder I never got lost.

Monday morning I woke up early and went to work the drive to work was painful because there was a bad accident which meant we had to wait I was worried for the people involved I sincerely hope they are okay.

After a few minutes, I managed to get to work on time, I hate being late.

"Good morning Kate"

"Morning sweety"

"We have a big day today "

"As usual"

I went to put my bags away and fix my ponytail and retouched my make up.

It got so busy I couldn't have lunch, a few patients came explaining how they thought it was a good idea their kids missed vaccinations, I'm glad we have the best doctors because they managed to help them.

After that hectic morning and afternoon, I thought maybe taking a nap would help, I took my phone with me so I set up my alarm to wake me up after 40 minutes.

We don't have to knock because those break rooms are for us right? No wrong...

I walked in to find a topless Kate sucking face with a guy I didn't recognize till he lifted his head and I saw him.

Oliver...

I froze ...

"I'm. I mean I am sorry"

Before they could respond I was out of that room I ran, I didn't stop I ran finally I got to the rooftop ...

Is this what heartache feels like? A part of it reminded me of the call I got about my dad dying.

I couldn't breathe I was trying so hard to calm down but tears blinded my vision...

"Beautiful are you crying"

"Curly please I don't want to be rude please not now"

"Do you want to talk about it?"

I shook my head and he handed me a napkin...

I laughed because the napkin had melted cheese on it and had a nice bbq smell... he was eating here...

"Thanks, Curly what are you doing here"

"Good hiding place ,my parents drive me crazy I needed a moment to eat"

"Sorry"

We stood there in silence the weather was amazing I loved the cold weather maybe because I was born in winter...

The dark clouds and windy weather made me want Netflix and tea.

"Why aren't you treating me differently"

"What do you mean are you an alien beautiful?"

I rolled my eyes...

"For once in your life Curly be serious"

"Because you're beautiful Lumi"

I kept quiet I felt like he's being sarcastic but realized he was serious he found me attractive for once someone sees the real me, not my skin but just me.

"Don't overthink babe"

"I'm not your babe and I'm not thinking"

"Want to taste my quesadilla"?

"As long as it's not poisoned"

He laughed and I admired his laugh I didn't even realize how beautiful his eyes were he's handsome, not Greek God-ish but handsome.

He sat next to me and me a bite.

"Oh my God who made them"

"My aunt owns a Mexican restaurant not too far from here I should take you"

I blushed and got shy was this meant to be my first date...

"Maybe"

"I need to go now before my parents send a search party for me"

"Okay thanks again Xavier"

"Anytime beautiful whoever made you cry is not worth it okay"

I nodded and he left ...

This is the moment I hate because I missed out on certain things I have to deal with them at a late stage and I have no idea how to do it, my mom thinks it easy but it's hard.

I should have dated in high school or college experienced my first heartbreak and heartache.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do the only thing I can tell myself to feel better is we are not dating so he can suck face with everyone.

How do I face Kate without thinking she's a man stealer to a man that was never mine, to begin with.

My phone's alarm went off telling me it's time to get back to work.

I stood up walked to the bathroom to fix my face, my eyes looked red I washed my face with cold water the cold sensation felt good.

Someone walked in one of the girls that called me a cow.

"I'm sorry about last time"

"Its okay people are good with judging what they don't understand it's not you, it's society"

I took the paper towel wiped my face and left.

I was not being mean but we do live in a messed up society just as I had a full conversation with my inner self I saw Xavier he was so busy he didn't notice I was looking.

His father was behind him he's a very intimidating man he lifted his head and saw me then smiled and winked I laughed and left.

Got to my unit and didn't see Kate thank God I got busy, she has been here by the look of things, so I packed the files neatly and went to check on my patients I was sad to see Mia was discharged when I was off but I'm happy he was better.

I wish I had said goodbye though...

I checked all the other kids and made sure they took their medicine, the worst part is seeing my cancer patients.

I continued with my work then walked back to the files, Kate saw me and came to me...

"Hey Lumi"

"Hey" I didn't want to look her in her eyes because they say eyes are the windows to your soul and she would see I'm hurt by a man that doesn't even belong to me...

"I'm sorry about what you saw"

"I have no idea what you're talking about" it took a few minutes before she realized what I was doing then she smiled and squeezed my hand.

I gave her an awkward smile then she left ...

Finally, I could breathe...

My day was okay I had lunch with Maddie and it was funny I told her about Greek God and she was shocked not because it wasn't me in the break room with him but because Kate is engaged.

After convincing her to mind her business she finally listened and managed to convince me to go shopping with her after my date with Xavier.

Am I finally going out on my first date?