#imagine.

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looking back to the summer it was one of the best. best time, best boyfriend, best life.

but it seemed to all changed once september started. you both knew it was going to be hard keeping a relationship when you were so far away from each other. you were headed to NYU your dream university since you could remember, and luke was headed off too tour the world with his band. nothing could change your minds about it, it's both what you wanted.

you just thought that maybe the relationship would have worked out better than it had. 
so there you were, sitting in your little tiny shoe box apartment in new york city looking at all the photos of you and luke, wondering what it would be like if you could go back to that time, and stay in it a little while longer. it's silly really, why you broke up. nothing was wrong with the relationship, it was perfect, you both were perfect, you just thought the distance would be too much and one of you would get hurt. 
you still text him, but it's only brief and short, nothing much and you wish it was more. 
summer of 2017 was one of the best times of your life, and you had a great boyfriend around you. 
maybe the distance was worth it, you both loved each other deeply. 
but it's history. 
the relationship is over. 
and there is nothing you could do to get him back. 
unless.

you thought.

that maybe, if you told him how you truly felt about it, maybe he felt the same way too?

—

dear diary,

january 25th, 2018

you messed up

you had a good thing going in your life and you let it go

over distance?

people have relationships ten times the distance.

you messed up.

fix it

call him,

text him,

tell him how you truly feel.

there is no harm in telling him.

just maybe he doesn't feel the same anymore.

but don't give up until you tried.

you will only regret the things you never did.

missing

you miss him.

you miss his hugs

his kisses

his laugh

his everything

you miss the way you were around him.

you miss being with him

you just miss him

wanting

you want him

you want his touch

his kiss

his laugh

his everything

you want to be close to him again

you want to be loved by him

going

you booked a flight to amsterdam

you booked it for the morning

you are going to see him

you will hell him how you feel

it feels right

to love

to touch

to hold

to tell him

you don't know why you broke up with him, but hopefully you can fix it all.

love

it makes you do stupid things.

but stupid things make you happy.

-Y/N

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okay, so this was a short imagine at first. 

but then i kinda just added in the diary part because i wanted to write a poem like thing for it. 

this probably doesn't make a whole lot of sense. 

but i hope you enjoy this imagine. 

i'm down to at least 3 imagines maybe from like 2014 time. 

and then ill be writing from scratch. 

okay 

bye again.