#imagine.

(triggering i guess. theses are the only ones i know how to write sorry)

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monophobia.

[mon-uh-foe-bee-uh]

noun;

    //an abnormal fear of being alone.

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that's a fear everyone has right? the fear of going through something alone without your loved one. how do people do it? you are trying you really are. you try not to think about luke lying on the kitchen floor surrounded by his own blood, but it's hard for you because everytime you look at your baby bump, luke comes to mind and wondering why he left. he didn't even get the chance to know he was a father. he was gone the night you was about to tell him.

trying not to think about it, you look back up at the photographer. today was the day you were getting your maturity photos done, without luke. the thought of luke once again made you bring your hand to your bump and gently rubbing it. being happy you are bringing a life to this world, but also have a hint of saddness knowing this baby won't grow up with a father around, sure the baby will have three uncles that will basically be like a father role, but nobody can replace luke, he is still the father of your baby.

you softly whispered to your stomach, "baby, i know your daddy isn't here but he is always with you and me, in our hearts. we love you little one." you smiled as you continued the photoshoot.

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she was right, luke was looking down on her everyday watching over her making sure nothing bad ever happened to her, and maybe just maybe he should have waited one more hour before deciding to leave. maybe the news would have made him stay? maybe he wasn't happy, we may never know the answer now.

-one year later-

it has been a year without luke around and honestly, its starting to get easier for you, but you know this was a big wound to heal. you look at your daughter and see every bit of luke in her that sometimes its hard to keep a smile on your face when you look into her blue eyes.

her name is Shane Autumn Hemmings.

she is almost a year old.

she has blonde curly hair, and blue eyes.

her first word was cookie.

i know luke would have been a great father to her, and i know one day i am going to have to tell her what happened to her father, but it will pain me a lot in side.

"just remember if this was another universe, luke will still be here with you helping you with raising your child. he left for a reason in his mind, and god and himself only one of that reason."