#imagine.

(trigger warning)

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blood

rushing down my arms

hitting the floor as it reaches the end

one hit

the start of it all

two hits

the blood is thicker

three hits

how did I end up this way?

four hits

I wasn't always like this

five hits

I'm down as well

six hits

it's too late too turn back now

twenty three hours and ten minutes earlier

never meant for them too hate me

i always thought i was likeable

i love him

he loves me

why doesn't his fans see?

hate

four letters

one syllable

can mean so much more than it looks

it can drive a person mad

and to a dark corner of their life

hate

it's everywhere

being his girlfriend

i never get a break

the comments

they tell me I'm ugly

they tell me I'm not good enough

they also

tell me too leave this world

they are right

im done

i quit

i can't take it anymore

it hurts too much to be here

twenty three hours and fourteen minutes later

blood

all around me

on the ground

my hair

my body

my blood

it's too late to turn back now

im done

I'm gone

there's no turning back

"i love you with all my heart.."

never got too finish that sentence before you blacked out

beep

what?

beep beep

no, I can't be alive.

beep beep beep

this isn't happening

beep beep beep beep

i was dead. what happened?

"it's going too be okay y/n"

"no, the hate was too much for me to take."

"how come you never told me?"

"because I'm scared."

"scared of what?"

"of you hating me for doing this to myself."

"oh I could never hate you y/f/n. you are the love of my life. I love you so much."

"i love you too."

"promise me you'll never hurt yourself again and come to me if you ever feel like the hate is getting too you."

"I promise."

hate

it can hurt you

it can break you

but it can also help you realize that you are loved and you have someone by your side.

it helped you.

it made you stronger

and the scars on your wrist are proof

that you are strong.

and loved in this world.

you're happy you were found when you did.

because you would feel guilty for leaving him behind.

"i love you so much, thank you for saving me."

"I love you as well, nothing will make me love you any less, not even your scars."

he says while holding me close and kissing each scar one by one.

he is my world

he is my life

he is my happiness

he is my saviour

and i love him.

hate

four letters

one syllable

can hurt the person.

don't hate on me just because i am dating a member of your favourite band.

don't hate on anyone just because you don't like them.

get to know them.

learn that they have feelings and they can break from your words.

they don't have to like you, but you are here because you love him and he loves you, think before you speak.

@/Y/T/N: 'i know some of you don't like me, and some wanted me to die. i tried to die but was saved by @/Luke5SOS because we love each other. learn to live with me being in his life, nothing will break us apart, not even you who hate me.'

love will make you stronger.

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this maybe a little dark or sad and I'm sorry i wrote this back in 2015 when all i wrote were triggering imagines. i added the last little bit in to make it seem a little better and i want to know your feedback on my writing, do you think i should go forward into journalism, or not? like i love writing but i don't know if I'm any good at it and i need all the feedback from my writing as i can so i can make the right choice.

take care, uploading a few more today to try and get all of them up on wattpad and out of my notes.

cassidy for the present just here to say that the point of view for this imagine is a little messed up and it goes from first pov to third. I tried to fix some but it's a lot to change so I'm keeping it the way it is.
⇥cassidy