After fixing Xander's grave up, I stood and observed my work.

Judging by the looks of it, I say I did a really good job.

Now that I took care of the Gallade footprint problem, there is one more thing that I needed to do.

I noticed a thornless rose bush nearby the woods, so I picked a few red roses and took them over before laying them down on Xander's and Sierra's grave.

"I hope you and Sierra like thornless red roses Xander, 'cuz they're for her and for you." I said after wiping the dirt off of my paw on the grass, in the woods nearby, before standing and picking our stuff back up.

"C'mon, Luka...Let's go before I lose it." I sighed before I began to walk away.

Luka hesitated for a moment as she looked at Xander's grave before running over to my side and grabbing my paw, holding hands as we left the cemetery.

After me and Luka resumed our mother and daughter outing, we headed back home once the evening rolled around.

-Lukari's Home-

Once me and Luka were back, I sighed as I plopped down on the couch in exhaustion after taking a shower and changing my clothes.

I noticed Luka walking over before I helped her get on the couch, as she sat next to me.

Then Luka rested her head on my arm as she looked at me.

"I'm so sorry that Xander died, mama...I'm sure he was like an elder brother to you, even if you hated him a lot." Luka says to me.

I shushed Luka gently before I started rubbing her back soothingly.

"It's okay, Luka....As long as I got to visit him then I'll be fine." I replied before kissing her on the forehead.

But, deep down....

I was not okay.

I felt like wanting to go berserk and losing myself.

My heart was hurting so bad from hiding my sorrows that it felt like my heart could break at any moment and shatter into a million pieces.

Like glass.

I was really, really upset about this.

First, Yachio didn't wake me to explain what's happened.

Then he decided to change the subject as an excuse.

And after several hours later, and bribing, Luka finally tells me what happened after it was too late and since the funeral was hours past and already over.

Eventually, I looked over and noticed Luka had fallen asleep before I got up and took her to her bedroom, laying her down on her bed and tucking her in.

I went downstairs and brought her belongings into her room, from our mother and daughter outing, then setted her bag down on the desk (she has in her bedroom) before leaving.

After doing that, I headed over to my bedroom and plopped down on the bed before pulling my legs close and hugging them.

I started to cry again as I buried my face into my knees.

I was really torn up on the inside.

Badly.

Even though I'm still trying to process what's happened, I could not let go over the fact that Xander's gone.

I just can't...

He just means so much to me even though all I did was show nothing but being a total jerk to him.

I didn't even show how much I actually cared about him.

I just wish I was sent back in time...

Back to when Xander was still alive...

So, I can apologize to him for how I acted and treated him.

And also tell him, how much he actually means to me.

After sitting on the bed for a few hours, it was time for dinner.

Lucky for me, Yachio was cooking tonight.

I'm too upset to even cook right now if it was my turn to cook dinner tonight.