Catherine's POV

The past few days I've spent only in the dorm. I refused all offers to go out with the guys, because I don't want to cause them any issues. I had called Bridget the day after the article came out and got such an earful for not responding to her the day before. She was worried about me, and I don't blame her. I was worried about me too.

She did convince me to stay though. I thought it through and decided that I may have let my anxiety rule me, which I hate. I'm just really frustrated that everything good I have, turns to shit eventually. I pushed Hoseok away in a cruel way that night. I have been spending as much time as possible trying to make it up.

My phone rings and I see it's Jin. He never calls me. When I answer he asks what I would like for dinner. I tell him I'm wanting to make something. I haven't cooked since the first morning, and honestly I'm sick of take out food. I tell him I want to make pizza, and he gets really excited. I gave him a list of what I'd need, and now I'm excited.

I go in the kitchen to check the refrigerator for veggies to chop for toppings. I'm happy when I come across the pineapple. I know it's a controversial topping, but I love a little hawaiian pizza now and again. Since I plan to make more than one pizza to feed the hungry men, one with pineapple shouldn't be a big deal. Right?!?

Jungkook has been very aloof with me the past days. I think that he is tired of not having his room, and is looking forward to me leaving. I've definitely overstayed my welcome in his room. He says that he's not upset about me breaking his Kaws... But I don't believe him. I tried to find a replacement, but it was a limited edition one, and to get one now will cost over $2000. I can afford it... But I am hesitant to spend that much on anything.

I put on some music while chopping and getting things ready, and I'm currently jamming out to DNA while dancing around the kitchen. When the song ends I hear clapping and a cute giggle. I spin around to see a laughing Jimin... My face is hot, and I want to die.

"You good! So cute!"

"Stoooooppp... I want to die now..."

"You too cute... Do again!"

"Noone was supposed to see that Cricket... I'm so embarrassed..."

Grabbing my phone, he replays the song and grabs me and forces me to dance with him. I am laughing so hard I can't breathe, but he makes me continue. The song ends again and now there are many people clapping. Kill me!!

Jin comes in with the bags of groceries. I start looking for the ingredients to make the dough, and get to work. I'm serious about my pizza. Jin helps because he wants to learn my secret dough recipe. The dough needs to rise, so I send everyone out to shower and relax. I spend the time grating cheese, making the sauce, par-cooking some meats, and preparing pans.

3 hours later

The pizzas are all finished. I made one large ham and pineapple pizza, much to the disgust of Jungkook. Taehyung gives me a high five though. I let the guys choose their toppings for the smaller pizzas, and we all sit down to eat. I made 7 grown men groan from how good it was. Not gonna lie... I'm amazing at pizza.

After we stuff ourselves with the cheesy goodness, we settle in the living room to watch a movie. I was not paying much attention when the movie is chosen though. Big mistake. These idiots choose 'IT'... I never told them, but I have an unnatural fear of clowns. Pennywise is my absolute nightmare!! Sadly, my boyfriend is a big baby with scary movies too. I spend the next couple hours almost in tears because of how scared I am, and Hobi doesn't help at all.

Yoongi moves to sit behind me once he realizes that I'm super anxious. He really understands me, and someday I want to know how he recognizes the anxiety and panic I feel. and I want to know what HE went through to teach him what to do. I breathe a sigh of relief when the movie ends.

"Thank you for pizza! So good!" Jin says.

"You're welcome! I like making it."

Namjoon asks "Are you packed for your flight tomorrow?"

"Yeah... I just have to do a check around in the morning for stuff. Thank you guys so much for having me here. I had a really good time! ... Mostly..."

This gets a chuckle from the room.

"You will call and send text still?" Jimin wants to know.

"Of course I will... My cricket... "

When jimin smiles at me, I see the tear in the corner of his eye, and I give him a hug.

"I sorry... I will missing you."

"I will miss you all too. No tears! It's not allowed."

I spend the next few minutes talking to each member, and thanking them for different things. When I get to Yoongi, I can't say anything... I feel myself getting choked up, and he just pats my head.

"No tears. Not allowed!"

I smile and hug him tight. He returns my embrace, and I know I've got a friend for life. No matter what happens with anyone else, he's always going to be my friend, and I feel that.

Before I could speak to Jungkook, he gets up and leaves the room. I'm disappointed, but I know he's going to be relieved I'm gone. I'll keep looking to replace his figurine, and try to find it cheaper. If I can't, then I'll bite the bullet and order the expensive one. I thought to contact the artist also...

Hobi and I get up and head to the bedroom. I am sad that so many negative things have happened, but he makes me sure that he loves me no matter what. We're both a little freaked out from the movie still, so after getting changed we climb into the bed and cuddle.

"Cafferine?"

"hmmm?"

"I wish you stay."

"You know I can't. But I hope to see you again when you're free."

"You come to concerts?"

"I look forward to doing that. I can't wait."

"I love you."

*⚠️ MATURE CONTENT ⚠️*

I look into his eyes and place my lips on his. Our lips move together sensually and it feels amazing. I feel his hand go into my hair to pull me closer. His mouth moves down to my neck and I sigh at the feeling he's giving me. I find myself putting my hands on his toned torso and he groans when I go under his shirt.

I'm pushed onto my back and he hovers me. I feel his hands run under the hem of my shirt and he whispers my name. I meet his gaze, and nod allowing him to continue. He lifts my shirt off, and I watch as his pupils dilate with lust. He takes the hardened bud of my left breast between his lips and the other with his hand. I throw my head back and moan at the feeling.

He grinds his clothed member into my heat and I moan out his name. He comes back to join our lips and I lose myself a little. I want this man so much. I want to feel good, and not ashamed. He pulls back from the kiss so we can catch our breath and he stares into my eyes. He slowly moves his hand over my stomach to my shorts, keeping eye contact. Whispering to me how he loves  me, he palms my womanhood.

I groan and just say "more". He takes the cue, and pulls down my shorts leaving me fully naked in front of him. He kisses down my neck to my breasts, pausing to suck on each erected nipple. He continues to move down, leaving open mouth kisses and nips across my stomach. He lifts my leg over his shoulder and keeping eye contact begins kissing and sucking on my inner thigh. When I moan he moves to my mound and licks through my folds making me pant with need...

I watch as he sucks my clit and nibbles a little. I'm a moaning mess at this point, and I whine out "please". He inserts 2 fingers and starts moving them in and out while sucking and licking my clit. I'm losing my mind and he curls his long fingers inside me hitting my spot. I feel the knot in my stomach tighten and he keeps pumping his fingers... I groan and release on his tongue.

He comes back and kisses me passionately letting me taste myself on his tongue. I reach down and grab his sweats to push them down. He helps me and takes them off completely. I flip us and settle between his legs... I keep eye contact while taking his cock in my mouth. I immediately deep throat him and he moans. I love his deep moan because it turns me on.

I start bobbing my head faster and letting his dick hit my throat every time. He watches and I can see the ecstacy he's in. I take a second to slowly tease him as I lick his length before sucking his tip tonguing his slit. He moans so loud that I do it again. I suck him back deep into my mouth and he twitches. I know he's close so I don't stop. Deep throating him, I use my hand to massage his sac, and he groans and releases into my throat. I lick his length one more time. Sitting back on my knees I lick my lips and wipe the drool from my chin.

I climb over him and straddle him. I feel his cock getting hard again, and I take just a second to think before I palm him. I think I want this. I think I want to make love with him. I think about how he'll never hurt me, and I want to replace the bad memories with pleasurable ones.

Just as I'm about to lower myself onto his shaft, he grabs my hips and stops me.

"No. Cafferine... We wait..."

Confused and disappointed, I move away from him.

"I want you. But... Think next time."

He's smiling at me, and I know he's trying to make sure I'm alright. I think for a minute and realize that he's right. I may not have been afraid, but I am not really ready. How he knew, I don't understand. But I know it's not that he doesn't want me, judging by his second erection... I take him in my hand and bring him to release again.

*END MATURE CONTENT*

We cuddle under the blanket and he tells me over and over that he loves me. I drift into sleep feeling content for the first time in a while.

Jungkook's POV

I realize I was being a dick... Catherine was just trying to say goodbye to us, and I walked away. I couldn't deal with thinking about her leaving, so I left. Feeling guilty, I head to my bedroom to apologize and say a proper farewell. As I approach the door, I hear them. Her moans make me stop dead in my tracks. I feel my heart crack. I should walk away, but I don't at first. I stand and hope that I'm mistaken... I hear her whine sexily and then moan HIS name loudly... I feel sick. I want to run into the room and rip them apart, but I don't. Hanging my head, I walk away as the first tear falls...

Catherine's POV

4 AM

My phone alarm wakes me, and I wish for more sleep. I know that there is only 2 hours before I need to be at the airport though, so I get up from the bed. I go and shower and brush my teeth. Grabbing all my products, I head out of the bathroom, and get them packed away. I check around for anything I'm leaving behind. I don't see anything, so I move to wake Hobi.

Once he's awake, he gets up and take me into a tight hug telling me how much he'll miss me. I stop him and push him to go get ready, or I'll end up crying.

Once he's dressed, we take a walk through, and find a couple of my gel pens under the couch, and a pair of my shorts in the laundry room. I'm pretty sure I have everything, so we get ready to head out. He calls for a van, and then Yoongi shows up fully dressed. He says he's coming with us, so the 3 of us wait for the driver.

When we arrive at the airport, we go to check me in. We have 3 security guards following us, and I feel like it draws attention. We stop at the Starbucks for coffee and I grab a bagel for the plane. We make our way to the gate, and after their security speaks to the airline, they're allowed to come as far as the first class lounge with me.

We sit and talk together, planning a meeting during their next tour. When they call the 15 minute warning, Yoongi stands and gives me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. He tells me to call him or text him often. He moves away and leaves Hobi and me. Hobi brings me into a tight embrace, rubbing my back. He looks into my eyes and tells that he'll miss me and he loves me. He cups my face with his hands and places his lips on mine. It's like time stops. His lips moving against mine is the only thing I know. He licks my lips asking for permission and I grant it. He moves his tongue into my mouth and kisses me deeply. I hold back the moan that is threatening to escape, and pull him closer. When we can't breathe anymore, he pulls back and attaches our foreheads to look deep into my eyes. The spell is broken when they make the final boarding call.

I move away from him and we walk to the gate together hand in hand. He gives me one more quick kiss, and lets go of my hand. I walk away and pause before I head through the door to the ramp. I wave at him one more time and then walk away trying not to cry. I'll see him again. No need for tears.

15 hours later

I wake up from a long nap. The first half of the flight I wrote in my journal, and read some of my book. After a delicious lunch, I went to sleep. As the plane lands, I am excited to see my best friend and get back to my life.

Walking out into the concourse, I look around and finally see B running towards me. She's not smiling though. I don't give it much thought and brace for the impact. She leaps into my arms and we hug like it's been a year since we've seen each other.

I can tell something is bothering her, but I wait to question her until we have my luggage and we're in the car.

"Ok. Spill."

"huh?"

"Come on... I can tell something is bothering you."

"I just want to get home and then we'll talk."

This stresses me out but I don't push. We talk about the rest of my trip, and she tells me about the new clients we have meetings with in the next week. I bring my phone out and remember to turn off the airplane mode. I am about to text Hobi when my phone goes nuts. SNS notifications and text messages... Constant dings... What the hell??... I have text messages from numbers I don't recognize, and my Twitter DMs are insane... This is not good. I suddenly feel sick. I notice Bridget looking at me out of the corner of her eye.

"Tell me"

"There's a picture Cath."

"Of what?"

"You and Hoseok"

"......"

"Let's get home and talk there. Let's not panic."

"I have messages and DMs from people I don't know... How is this possible B?"

"The internet is a scary place Cath. You know that..."

"You're saying that from a picture of me, they found out my name, my Twitter, and my phone number?"

"I don't know. We'll get through it though. Don't open the stuff from those people Cath."

I open my text app to see if there are texts from Hobi, and have to scroll past hundreds to find one. As I do, I see words like slut, whore,ugly, die, kill... I start shaking and open Hobi's message.

<Let me know you arrive. You call me.]

I think about it, but decide not to right now. I have no idea what picture they have, but I'm afraid in this moment. The words people sent to me, running through my mind, I put my phone on silent and close my eyes.

When we get to her house, Bridget gets out first and looks around as if there could be people watching us. I feel frozen in my spot. Bridget had opened the door to the house and looks back at me just looking out the window. She waves me to come, and I jump out and practically run to the entrance. I leave my suitcase in the trunk, but I don't care right now. I'm suddenly paranoid knowing the power of their fans.

Once we're seated in the living room, B shows me the picture that's all over the internet. It's a picture of Hoseok kissing me at the airport before I boarded the plane. Who took this? There wasn't anyone around that I saw. Then again, I was literally lost in the moment. SHIT!! Now his fans will know they lied about our date. They'll know HE lied.

The next hours are spent in a blur. My phone doesn't stop notifying me of how much I'm despised for just breathing... Bridget ends up calling Ashley when I lock myself away in the bathroom to avoid everything. Ashley calls Joon to let him know I'm home, and safe for now. Hobi continues to try to reach me, but I don't think I'd be able to speak.

I take the Xanax Bridget brings me when I finally come out of the bathroom. I change my clothes and climb into my bed with Bridget laying next to me. She doesn't say anything because she knows I'm not hearing anything right now. She just runs her fingers through my hair in a soothing way while silent tears run down my cheeks.

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