You Leave Me

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Author's POV

Jimin couldn't believe it.

Is this a dream? If it does then he doesn't want to continue this anymore, he will be extremely hurt if he woke up later to find he's still in the toilet and nothing like this had happened.

There, Jungkook stood in front of him after locking the door as he noticed the younger's messy face. And surprisingly, even after being in such a state; the CEO still looks more beautiful and handsome than ever from Jimin's eyes. Yeah, he is truly hell-bent on the male but seriously- is this a dream? Did Jungkook get here? Or is he imagining things?

Jimin stood there like a stone, unable to believe what he was seeing as he stared at the younger's chest; following the up and down movement.

"Jimin-" Jungkook trailed off as he took one step closer; bringing the other to reality as Jimin widened his eyes and backed away instantly; finally acknowledging the fact that the younger is there for real with him in the toilet. "No! Stop! Don't come close!" Jimin forced himself to yell as he felt his eyes start to feel hot; indicating they were about to produce tears for him to shred further.

"W-what are you doing here?" He asked and stuttered at the beginning as he breathlessly spat out those words while his sight started to get blurry; making him not be able to see Jungkook clearly. Sobs filled the bathroom coming from his mouth as he held out his hand to touch his chest area, he didn't say anything but the younger knew well what the older meant by the action. Jimin's heart is aching, it hurts him to look at the CEO, it hurts him more to hear his own name coming from the male.

"I need to talk to you about us-"

"There are no us, Jungkook!! Couldn't you understand that?!" Jimin cut off by shouting at him; expecting the other to get mad or gave up and at last leave him alone but to his surprise; none of what he thought had happened as he watched Jungkook literally do nothing but keeping his gaze on him calmly while he on the other hand; was struggles to hold himself back from hugging the younger. At times like this, Jimin couldn't help it- he was desperate for the other to leave so if yelling and denying Jungkook will render the younger one to give up, then BE IT.

"No I don't understand and even if I am, I don't care. If there's no us then make it me and you; together." Jungkook mumbled with tears still in his eyes as he hold out his hands slowly to Jimin; waiting for the older to take it but all he received is a few more distant steps from the other; making him nod slowly while smiling as he looked down before closing his eyes: letting his tears fall over his cheeks.

He knows Jimin wouldn't do that, so he's not going to give up until Jimin does that.

"That won't happen, Jungkook. We-" Jimin trailed off as he pointed at the younger before pointing at himself and repeated the action multiple times while opening his mouth again. "-can't. I repeat, can't be together. Don't you understand that?! SeokJin already tells you all of it, am I right? So what are you doing here? Aren't you afraid of me? I'm a murderer! I could kill you anytime!!" Jimin shouted loudly, but crying all the way; earning an unexplainable sadness sobs filled the room as he cupped his mouth and closed his eyes while looking down.

While Jungkook, on the other side, just stood still there like a robot. It's not that he didn't want to do anything but he's giving Jimin a space and a time to let it all out... He knows it's just a matter of time before Jimin finally breaks down and he was looking forward to that moment. Because only that way, he could give the older one the comfort that he deserves all along.

He understands... It must be hard for Jimin to decide all of this. But he also understands that Jimin said they can't be together; which means he's willing to be with him; just couldn't. So there he is, ready to prove and assure the older that yes; they can be together if they want... nor the Universe creator or fate can change that because it was in their hands.

"Now get out of my way, my plane is in half-hour." Jimin forced himself to stop crying while he spat those words bitterly; unknowingly this shows how hard it is to say that as he wiped his cheeks harshly before taking a hold of his bags. It hurts totally... He thought he could leave Korea but after seeing the younger one again; moreover, in front of him, his legs were still like a rock as if they got their own brain on whether they wanted to walk or not. Because really, Jimin tried so hard to walk but he couldn't...

'For fuck sake, walk Jimin!' He screamed inside his head as he forced his legs to walk away while his hands dragged those bags along with his eyes looking all over the floor; didn't have the audacity to look up knowing his only and the only weakness was standing handsomely in front of him; not even 2 meters away.

But that was until his eyes caught the sight of Jungkook's pair of shoes; literally, not even 1 meter away from him as Jimin looked down further before closing his eyes; trying to hold the urge to cry knowing the younger was so close to him that if he takes two tiny steps more; he certainly could bump onto the CEO's hard chest.

He waited for a minute to see if Jungkook would step aside to let him walk but then he noticed; the younger one didn't move and did not even make an effort to. Immediately, Jimin's eyes shot up in anger mixed with sadness and disappointment by the action; knowing well even though the younger didn't say anything; he's still stubborn on not wanting to let the older go. "Don't you understand when I said we can't be together?! Or are you too dumb to understand that?!" He yelled at Jungkook angrily; ignoring the fact he exactly heard how his heart was breaking inside by the view he was seeing.

Jungkook was crying, his shiny doe's eyes said it all... But that was not what made Jimin sadder than he already was; it was the knowledge when he looked into them; he could see the heartbreak, the pain, but however, he also could see the hopes in them and it was very high. It saddened him knowing after all that had happened, Jungkook is still rooting for him to come back, to accept him, to live with him like a normal couple BUT NO, it was sad that Jimin couldn't do that. He; himself is not even close to what we call normal.

So how could they live in normal ways?

"I'm unstable... Get that inside your head, understand that fully. One day I will wake up and decide to kill you, but on another day I will wake up and decide to cuddle you, while another day I will wake up and decide to beguile you. Will you manage to handle that? And on top of that; the first one would be the usual... So I asked you again, could you handle that? If you don't then please leave! I don't want to see you here!" Jimin pleaded; at his very edge of breaking down as he stared at Jungkook even though his sight was blurred by his tears.

It's not that he didn't want to be with the younger, even hell knows he wants to and Jungkook was willing to but that doesn't mean Jimin could just live with him and put aside their main difficulty. Where can he put his problem? It is not something to play with, it is unpredictable... Anything could happen. The same goes for them right now, anything could happen in the bathroom. The only thing you know after is his hands already wrapped around Jungkook's neck- that would be a big deal.

Silence filled the space as Jimin's question remained unanswered, none of them say anything but both eyes stared into each other souls... It didn't need to take a word for you to know, both of them love each other truly but the only thing that brings them to this situation is because of what fate brings.

Jimin, of course, was the first one to break the eye contact as he looked down and smiled a little bit before silently scoffing at himself. He's glad that Jungkook didn't reply anything cause we all know how this will end... But despite the fact that he's keen; there's a piece of him that hopes something- literally anything! Will comes out from Jungkook's mouth as a last saying before he really gets going.

But the unanswered question he spat earlier was immediately got the answer when he feels the familiar big hot hand placed on top of his small ones that was holding one of the bags while another one was cupping almost half of his face; making his eyes go wide in shock as he looked up front only to meet Jungkook's doe's eyes gazed into his crescent hazel ones with fondness in them.

"I love you, Jimin... That's the beginning and the ending of everything. Even after years, you left me back then, I still love you. Even after you hurt me, I still love you. Even after you make me leave Aíden, I still love you... So what makes you think with you being unstable would make me walk away and leave? If I could do that, I would have already done it from the very beginning. I would already move on but no... I couldn't. Because you're a piece of me, I wish I don't need you but yeah, I do need you. Yes, maybe I'll get hurt when you're with me but I'm sure, I'll be more hurt when you leave me." Jungkook confided tenderly as he caressed Jimin's cheeks softly using his thumb; spreading his affection just by the palm of his hands.

And of course, it was all for Jimin to break down and hug Jungkook tightly as he crashed his body against the younger while his hands unconsciously wrapped around Jungkook's waist with his head hidden in the hard chest.

Whimpers and cries filled the room as Jungkook took him time and caressed Jimin's hair. "Don't cry, I don't like it when you do. I wanted you to smile." Jungkook whispered lowly as his mind remembered what SeokJin said before... Jimin had been crying ever since he was born out of hunger, he had been crying every time when those sticks lashed out to his body, he had been crying while begging for his mother to stop, he had been crying for all the pain he feels all over his body after.

So Jungkook doesn't want that to happen anymore... he doesn't want to make Jimin cry.

His sad thoughts broke when he feels Jimin's body move as the older backed away from him a little which didn't take him too long to reached out for the model's beautiful face and wiped the tears away.

"I... l-love you too."

Euphoria... that's all Jungkook can describe when he heard what the older said. His hands were freezing as his mind went blank; his heart still unable to process the words as he looked at Jimin in wide eyes; making the other couldn't help but giggle by the reaction. Oh right... the changes... Jungkook surely goes crazy after this.

"What's with that reaction?!" Jimin asked as he cupped his mouth; trying so hard to not laugh at Jungkook's facial expressions but ended up failing and laughing while holding his stomach either way. Really- the younger looks just like he saw a ghost, it's truly funny in Jimin's eyes.

"Am I dreaming or do you actually say that...?" Jungkook asked dumbfounded, making Jimin giggle further; finding the younger look so cute that time he feels his heart about to burst out of cuteness. "No, you're not dreaming... I do say I love you too." He replied and hugged Jungkook again; smiling all the way as he did that but his cheeks got redden when he realized Jungkook wrapped his arms around his waist tightly before hugging him back.

"Thank you for giving us a chance, Jimin... We'll work on this together. I promise you..."

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[A/N: Don't be too happy🙂]

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