Let Him Go

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Author's POV

It's all about time...

Time is SLOW when you
WAIT,

Time is FAST when you are
LATE,

Time is DEADLY when you are
SAD,

Time is SHORT when you are
TIRED,

Time is ENDLESS when you are in PAIN,

Time is LONG when you are
BORED,

Time is BEAUTIFUL when you are IN LOVE,

Time is determined by your feelings, not by the clock, so that's why Jungkook feels as if he was standing for like a hundred years already while he just arrived at Jimin's house front porch; not even yet managed to touch the bell button. And even so, he didn't waste any more milliseconds to push the bell button, hearing a ding echoing on the inside as he stood still in front of the door.

"Jimin!! I know you're in there!! Open up!!" He yelled from outside while slamming his hands at the solid door with tears continually falling from his eyes; wetting his cheeks; blurring his views; and of course, breaking his heart.

You could see it with your eyes, the pain on his face, the hurt with what had happened… the disappointment in himself for not stopping this from happening earlier… the aghast feeling he displayed by the image of Jimin leaving him… You could see it in your eyes but what could you do? Nothing except sympathizing for him. Because certainly, you couldn't do anything…

Neither does Jeon Jungkook, himself.

All he could do right now was pray and hope Jimin would come back to his arms again. Yeah, he knows it's crazy because he's risking himself to persuade a murderer who killed their own mother back in his life. But did he care? No. When he said that he was willing to overcome this with the older, he meant it from the bottom of his heart.

"Yah!! Open this door!! We could work this together just please don't leave me!!" Jungkook yelled madly, as he heard a rush of footsteps running towards him from the inside before a click sound came from the doorknob which soon after the door pulled back open only to displayed SeokJin in his blue pajama while his eyes widened in shock when he looked at Jungkook's state.

"Where is Jimin? I know he's in here, I wanted to talk to him!" Jungkook spoke as SeokJin raised his eyebrows in confusion while he stared at the other. What does the younger mean? Where is Jimin? Didn't they go out together just now…? Did something happen? With all the questions in his mind, he opened his mouth to deny the statement but even before he could; his body already had been pushed aside by force; making him stumble back as Jungkook entered the living room uninvited.

"Jimin!! I know you're hiding in here, please we could talk this out!!!" Jungkook yelled loudly; letting his voice echo the whole house, which in return; received an eyes-roll from SeokJin who sighs at the strong-headed male. "He's not here, Jungkook…" He mumbled and watched the younger turn around with a glare before pointing his finger at him.

"You!" He trailed off.

"You're hiding him!!" Jungkook denounced as SeokJin rolled his eyes for the second time in reply, too sleepy and tired to even worry about Jimin's whereabouts. And even if he does, he still won't search for the male until the others come back home willingly. Living with the one Lucifer for over 7 years now, SeokJin knows well to leave the male alone when he's angry… or whatever the reason he ran away for. He knows if the problem isn't hefty, Jimin wouldn't run away… So if he does; surely it was hefty enough.

"Excuse me, monkey but I didn't hide him. He's not even home… " He mumbled lazily before bending his body and grabbing a bottle of wine which later on was poured in two glasses that were placed on the table beforehand.

"Here… I don't know what happened but if Jimin ran away, don't worry. He'll come back home. And I think it's better for him to do so, that way he won't hurt anybody else…" SeokJin said, handing out one of the glasses to Jungkook who slowly took it while his brain processed the older words.

“He won't hurt anybody else...”

Memories flashed inside Jungkook's mind, remembering what happened at the Han River earlier… Jimin did mention about he murdered his own mother and to be honest, it is still enough for him to shiver by the mention. But does this have anything related to what SeokJin said earlier? Jimin won't hurt anybody else? The older one killed only one person… wasn't he?

"Hyung… Jimin told me that he murdered his own mother–"

"What?!" SeokJin immediately coughed as the wine in his mouth burst out, scared to death by what he just heard. Though he already guessed it earlier, he did not see that coming honestly… so he cupped his mouth while his other hand caressed his chest area; calming himself down while Jungkook only stared at him; probably waiting for his justification.

And even after he had calmed down, he still caressed his chest like he hadn't; trying so hard to ignore Jungkook's presence that clearly screamed for an explanation as his eyes scattered everywhere around the house except for the younger one. And oh, even the plain marble floors he usually just stepped on suddenly turned so attractive to SeokJin's eyes until he didn't stop staring there.

"You can stop the acting, hyung… I'm not dumb, tell me everything." Jungkook dead-panned as he sighed in return; silently cursed at himself for not being able to fool the younger. How bad can his acting really be? But nevertheless, he unwillingly cleared his throat; preparing himself to tell all about Jimin. Since the younger man mentioned that the male himself told him, then there should be no problem for him to let it all out here…

"What do you want to know then? I don't know where to start, you need to tell me." SeokJin spoke and Jungkook nodded slowly before making his way to those couches to sit on it. Though his mind is crazy about Jimin's location at that time, he still needs to know what really happened, he still needs to know what he's facing right now…

"Tell me, how could he even…? I mean, normal people didn't kill their own mother matter of factly. Hell, I didn't even dare to imagine it!! Not to mention when you actually killed people!" Jungkook asserted, imagining being in Jimin's place only to seal his mouth after; feeling his stomach twirling in disgust. "Also, what happened to the body? Did the police catch him?" He asked in worry; finally acknowledged the real world as he glanced to his left only to see a sight of SeokJin biting his lower lips while playing with his fingers.

If he didn't know the older person well, he would think SeokJin is nervous and has something to say… But knowing him better, the male was processing his questions.

"Jimin is mentally ill." SeokJin trailed off and Jungkook immediately caught that. He remembered those moments where the other behavior changed in a blink of an eye, not to mention, the atmosphere that surrounded Jimin was also different. One blink you could only feel the calming and soft flash, but in the next second; the temperature somehow got high; there where the well known sexy atmosphere appeared while the last blink; the temperature somehow drop to the edge; there he'll meet those cold, emotionless gazes that you could found nothing but hollow every time. It was crazy honestly… but it is one of the reasons why Jungkook loves him more.

Believe it or not, he feels thrilled every time the change happens.

But speaking of behavior changes, does Jimin have multiple personality disorder? Jungkook has read somewhere about the issue and surely it matched Jimin well if he thinks about it back now.

"By the saying, do you mean–"

"What? MPD? No, no, no…" SeokJin chuckled as Jungkook leaned back with a raised eyebrow, if he's wrong then what's wrong with Jimin?

"I thought the same too at first Jungkook, but no. He's just positively mentally unstable… Sometimes he's shy, sometimes he's bold, sometimes he wants to choke people, sometimes he wants to hug them. That's it. He's just unstable and we couldn't do anything about it, none of the pills can cure it. They could only control it." He explained as he tightened his hold around the glass before taking a sip of it.

"I don't know if he ever tells you this but he usually imagined to have two doppelgangers which didn't include himself and they were based on his every personality. That happened because he couldn't accept the fact he was unstable… The same goes for if he suddenly screamed saying there's a pain in his chest or whatever. Truly, he feels nothing. He was hurt because he was trying to control his behavior, he actually didn't get hurt by the change." The older man finished, turning his face upwards to the ceiling lights when he noticed his gaze was already blurred; indicating his eyes had already drowned in tears.

It is always hard for him to talk about Jimin…

"But why? I mean, there are no people who are born with an unstable mind." Jungkook asked as SeokJin nodded slowly before looking down; feeling his heart breaking down even though he didn't start telling anything yet.

"His mom had a one-night stand and unexpectedly had him. I know what you're thinking, why didn't she abort the baby at first, right? Well because she was blinded to the promise Jimin's father made. Though it was only a one-time thing, they made it a long period relationship. Both of them love each other so much. Until the night when Jimin was born, the father had an accident and ended up dying there while heading to the hospital when he found out about the news…"

"That's when she started to abuse Jimin; leaving him starving, slapping him just because of tiny mistakes he made, forcing him to work hard on the restaurant to pay their house bills, beating him with an iron stick, or even ironing his body parts using the implement. Of course, every time she did that, Jimin would cry and begged her to stop. But she didn't, she accused Jimin of being the reason why his lover died. So he learned to live with it…"

"As the time went by, he no longer screamed, no longer protecting himself. He only sat still while his mother beat the shit out of him until he was all bloodied or bruised." SeokJin trailed off, already feeling his cheeks wet by the mention. He couldn't control it, he pitied the other so much… he couldn't bear how it would feel if he was in that place. Born without a father to guide, and living with an abusive mother– what worst could it be for Jimin?

"Until one day, he lost control and killed his own mother… and no, to answer your question, the police didn't even know about this. He hid the body well and didn't leave even one hint behind. I don't know, but I'm glad he did that even though it was wrong considering the fact he murdered someone. But hey, if Jimin didn't I surely would. She's no human but an animal!" SeokJin finished and glanced at Jungkook who was pale and was crying…?

Since the older sight was blurred too, he couldn't tell but Jungkook's face really displayed nothing other than guilt… worry… and empathy. You don't even need to listen to his next words to know that he was sad about the news.

Silent fell between them until the younger opened his mouth again.

"I…"

"I need to find him, quick–"

"I don't suggest you do that, Jungkook. I remembered you said he ran away? That means he wanted to protect you. How about you let him go hmm?" SeokJin suggests and he glared at the older; feeling rage grow inside him by the statement. Let Jimin go? After all, he had been through? The three words are so short– yet it struck Jungkook like nothing before.

"That would never happen!" He hissed under his breath before moving to the kitchen; heading his way towards the bathroom to wash his messy face, decided to continue to search for Jimin.

Meanwhile, in the living room... A loud ring suddenly echoed in the house, catching SeokJin's attention as he glanced at his phone on the table before seeing Jimin's name on it which he didn't waste any time to pick it up with care.

"Where are you?!" He asked quietly before hearing the background loud and clear; Jimin is in a public space where there are many people, he could tell.

"At the airport."

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