“I Love You—”
“And I don't.”

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🔞WARNING🔞
EXPLICIT CONTENT AHEAD

Author's POV

"Jungkook!!" Jimin moaned his name loudly, huffed sweetly along the way as he breathed heavily, and pressed his head back against the hospital pillow before continuing to moan loudly when he felt the younger proceeded to thrust in approximately to his wet entrance that was already filled with Jungkook's pre-cum; not once caring if people would see them if they walked passed the room.

"Fuck- oh, I'm going to cum..." Jimin growled and tightened his walls around Jungkook's big length, grabbing onto the younger's tightly using his nails before dragging them down aggressively; leaving scratch marks against the younger's back once again, earning a deep pain growl from the other who obviously love the action.

"Ah... ah... cum....I want you to cum." Jungkook whispered in Jimin's ear, hearing him hitch his breath and press the side of his face against Jungkook's to keep his moans against his ear.

"I want to feel you against my skin... oh... oh Jimin... what.. ah- what have you done to me?" Jungkook groaned and thrust faster than earlier, loving how it feels to have Jimin's wall wrapped around his lower region; it's so tight yet so warm.

While Jimin on the other side was slowly losing himself as he closed his eyes tightly and threw his head back, pulling onto the younger's nape to keep Jungkook close against his sweating body earning a low growl that Jimin could never get enough of even though he didn't want to admit it. His body arched forward and instantly his hand over Jungkook's back, deepened on a scratch mark before he gasped loudly.

"O-oh Jungkook!! Ah-ah..." Jimin howled his moan in a slightly high-pitched way against Jungkook's ear before he jolted his hips and came against the young dominant's hips: leaving himself in a breathless mess while Jungkook only continued; longing to reach his limit now. He just didn't think he would last longer than Jimin at the moment.

"Hyung… Hyung… Ah~ Ah!" Jungkook moaned and kissed the bottom over his lips while their messy kisses carried their breathless pants. Jungkook felt the tension of his climax catching up to him, making him feel didn't want to stop for a second as now that he was going to reach it. He continued thrusting roughly, hearing Jimin gasp while he kept Jungkook against his neck; not wanting him to pull away even once.

The sweat on Jungkook's red face matched the older one at that very moment as he just couldn't slow down for a second. Just then, his final thrusts pushed deeply until he felt Jimin turn his face away so suddenly and groan. This was it for the dominant. With the way Jimin's entrance still clenched, his breathless body burning up and the way his hands still managed to gather strength to pull his nape and drag scratch marks down Jungkook's back in the overwhelming pleasure he had, Jungkook was now at his end.

He thrusted deeply and steadied his thrusts as he looked at Jimin, losing his mind at how much he loved this and wanted so much more. So Jungkook finally thrusted in and finally came inside of Jimin. Letting out a moan of relief after he got rid of the cum building up inside him and letting it all out inside Jimin's warm and tight hole.
"Oh- Oh hyung!!" Jungkook moaned and finally felt his cum filling Jimin up as he let out an exhale and dropped onto Jimin's body carefully. Hearing their breathing match and heartbeats do the same.

"Fuck... ah, Jimin... oh that was amazing.." He groaned and watched the older male say nothing but nod nevertheless before grabbing his nape and pulling Jungkook down to himself, crashing their lips together passionately. Jimin didn't take too much longer to take control as he slid his tongue inside Jungkook's mouth; finding himself couldn't get enough of the younger's saliva taste. Yeah, sounds disgusting but surely not for the both of them.

They both pulled away at the same time, trying to catch their breath as Jungkook glanced around and saw a box of tissues on top of the hospital tiny table which he quickly took and cleaned himself up, badly wanting to act as if he's alright with Jimin burning stare on him. He doesn't know why he suddenly feels so shy under the other's watch when he doesn't a few minutes ago when he slammed the older one to the wall but something about Jimin's gaze is just making him weak every time.

"So, I heard about you and Aíden." Jimin out of nowhere said, making Jungkook choke on his breath as he coughed multiple times; finally, remember why he was even standing in the room in the first place. He came here in the hope to ask the older one out but looked where they are now… Jungkook couldn't be more disappointed in himself for letting Jimin once again tempt him.

"Yes…?" Jungkook answered unsure, not knowing where this conversation went as he looked over the older; wondering what's Jimin thinking about but all the questions in his head already have been answered when the plump lips displayed the well-known smirk as the beautiful crescent eyes glowed in lust while a proud standing satan hid behind them, fooling everyone who judged him by first sight; proving to Jungkook how his imagination was right all along.

"And may I ask why…?"

"You." Jungkook bluntly answered and cupped his mouth when he realized what he had just said because he planned a whole two hours to say something else but ended up saying the truth at the end of the day whilst the smirk on Jimin lips wiped off. Well, not really, it's kinda in between, he didn't smirk yet he is.

A part of him feels touched knowing Jungkook did that for him, but a part of him feels guilty of making Jungkook break it off with Aíden while another part of him feels empty as usual. But despite all the complications and the mixed feelings he got, there's one thing that appeared along with three of them that he's sure…

Fearful.

Yes, you read it right. He's scared because he knows he shouldn't feel the touched feelings, it shouldn't even come from his inside. It's common for him to feel proud and powerful if he's with Jungkook but it's unusual for him to feel touched by what the younger ones have done. He has never felt it and now that he has, he must admit the feeling is nice. It's like there are thousands of butterflies wandering all-around your stomach. The emotion makes him want to know more about what's there feeling left inside him.

"Look, since I already said it by accident. I would just say it all…" Jungkook sighed, cutting Jimin's thoughts as he gazed over the younger; watching the male slowly walk over to him with already washed hands and a hesitant facial expression while Jimin just stayed in his place; participating in what the other wanted to say next.

"I… love you—"

"And I don't." Jimin cut him off harshly; didn't even give the younger one a chance to complete his words as he watched Jungkook close his eyes before opening them and smiling softly; trying hard to hide the pain that was displayed on his face, not knowing that action hit right in the older inside; as if someone just shoved a sharp knife at his chest; making him looked away, not wanting to look at the other any longer.

He's not stupid nor forgot anything. He knows Jungkook loves him. The young man drunkenly confessed to him a long time ago when they're still in college. But, Jimin wasn't sure if the younger one would still love him after knowing what he really is. Wait… that's wrong. Jimin is sure the others will leave him after. Everyone did.

"Look, I know you don't. But all I asked for was a chance..." Jungkook explained, trying so hard to not break down here despite the broken heart he felt inside after Jimin spat those words. He already expected this to happen and he was already physically ready to face it, but facing the situation for real just blew harder than he imagined as he looked at Jimin and bit his lower lips; holding himself from producing tears. It's ironic how our hearts can still get hurt by something we had seen coming.

"A chance of what?"

"A chance to love you. If you are willing, I will take you out." Jungkook calmly mumbled, looking at Jimin's troubled face. He couldn't tell whether the older wanted or didn't want to because seriously, Jimin was giving him mixed clues and that only made him more nervous; horrified if it ended up otherwise than he predicted. 

If there is a third person in the room, they would already think Jimin is cruel for rejecting the other like that but for the one who rejected Jungkook himself, you don't know how much of a storm he feels inside. He badly wanted to scream and hug Jungkook, saying he loves him too and wanted to go out with him. But God, the other part of him badly wanted to run away and never meet Jungkook again so that the barrier he built won't fall apart.

"What for though? It's just a waste of time. At the end of the day, I still don't love you." Jimin spat coldly, not even showing any empathy for the younger who was still smiling, despite his world crashing down inside. If you ask Jungkook, he would already cry right there but he remembers one thing; he loves Jimin. That's the beginning and the end of everything. It doesn't matter if Jimin didn't love him, people changed. All he wanted was a chance. He can't run away from this like he once did because Jungkook knows. He certainly knows that his heart belongs to Jimin.

So what is the use if he keeps running and ends up back at the older? Might take the chance right? So there he is, seeking it.

"I don't care. All I wanted was to take you out. So please, will you?" Jungkook said and Jimin bit his lower lips, already running out of words to make the other back away. No, he doesn't have the heart to reject the request, that's why he keeps giving excuses and stupid words so that will make Jungkook go back to where he was. He knows, the moment he agrees to it; there won't be turning back. It was just a matter of time before his secrets would be unveiled and lead for Jungkook to leave him.

Just like anybody else.

He acted like it was not a big deal, but oh, God knows it was breaking Jimin's heart.

He gazed at the other before hesitantly nodding, watching Jungkook immediately sigh in relief before displaying the bunny smile he found himself cooed at every time. Don't get him wrong, he didn't do this because he wanted to, but because of Jungkook. He's ready to give the young man a chance but the only difference is that Jimin would remain to lock his feelings.

It's for the best. He wouldn't get hurt later when Jungkook suddenly decided to leave him.

"Thank you, hyung!!" Jungkook said excitedly, slightly jumping around like a kid; showing how happy he is to hear the news; not knowing the other was battling with his inner selves as Jimin just watched the other sadly; feeling angry at himself for not denying the request from the very beginning. But hey, he just couldn't. There are many things he could do in this world but hurting Jungkook is not on the list yet again… the other side of him is capable of doing that.

"Oh sweet, god!! What the fuck guys?! Did you just have sex?!" SeokJin's voice filled the room, surprising the two as Jimin quickly moved his naked legs under the hospital blanket whilst Jungkook froze in embarrassment. "You bunny kid— why are you suddenly so happy?" SeokJin pointed his finger to Jungkook, earning the sheepish bunny smile from the younger one who jumped around and crashed him into a hug.

"Jimin is willing to date me!!" Jungkook said excitedly, hugging the older as his head tilted to the side; causing him to not notice the smile on SeokJin fell completely as his eyes traveled to Jimin who immediately looked down and fiddled his fingers.

They both know. It's not going to end well.

Jimin admits he was afraid to love. Not just love, but to love Jungkook. For him was a stunning mystery. The younger one carried things deep inside him that no one has yet to understand, and Jimin… He was afraid to fail, like the others. Jungkook was the ocean and he was just a male who loved the waves but was completely terrified to swim.

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