I do the thing I hate the most!

Most of the time

When I would rather do something else

It's all that I find

For I..

Do the thing i hate the most!

It's stuck in my mind..

And I'm trapped there with it

I'm the golden snitch... 

And..

It's the best at quidditch

I..

Do the thing I ha!!....

Do nothing but cry

..these.. puddles it ripples through..

Time! And again I'm bested

Face pressed down between my knees

Restless 

I'm addicted.. to the dark

That I play chess with

Hoping the next game will be different

And so I..

Do the thing I hate the most!

All alone...

And I know its reckless 

Feels like carrying around an elephant on your chest

And..

Getting it off would leave you messed up

More wrecked than.. when it was..

I..

Do the thing I hate the most!

All of the time!

Without having to actually do it

The tape's on rewind..

Rewind! Rewind! Rewind! 

Do nothing but lie..

Most of the time

"Better to keep it in the recesses of my mind"

So I thought..

As it slowly destroyed me from the inside

Guess what..

I was wrong