❝did you talk to him?❞

mark shrugged, not paying attention to jaemin who is bugging him since the moment he step foot inside the school campus. ❝i don't know anymore.❞

the younger male widened his eyes, taking a chair inside the classroom and sitting across mark with his arms crossed down on mark's desk. ❝what do you mean you don't know?❞

he didn't want to think about it. he wasn't in the mood and mark guessed it's because of him waking up at the wrong side of the sofa. his body ached and he blamed determined self for it. he was tired emotionally, he wanted to continued this but a small voice inside his head questioned him that got him thinking.

is this still worth it?

❝i love him.❞ mark said to himself before looking up at jaemin who's frowning at him. ❝i love him, right?❞

jaemin already had an idea why mark is acting like this but he didn't want to think about it. ❝mark, you love him.❞

❝exactly, i love him.❞ mark chuckled. people would find him crazy if ever they will see him acting like this but mark cared less. ❝but why..❞

❝mark don't—❞

❝why do i feel like giving up?❞ he mumbled but clear enough for jaemin to understand.

that was what jaemin didn't want to hear from him. he knew how much mark loved donghyuck so much, he was always right their beside the male from him fanboying about how perfect donghyuck is, what an amazing boyfriend he is, to how much he didn't want to lose him. jaemin witnessed how much mark loved the tanned male.

but even with mark being determined to get back to donghyuck, he gets tired too.

❝maybe you just need a break.❞ jaemin said, placing a hand behind mark and rubbing it in circles. ❝do you need to rest? you can sleep on my bed for the night, i can share a bed with renjun and jeno. i mean, we do that always anyways.❞

❝no.❞

jaemin opened his mouth to say something for mark to stop thinking about it but mark got ahead of him.

❝i want this to stop.❞

it wasn't even his problem but jaemin felt like crying, why is he so emotional? ❝you're just lacking sleep.❞

mark grabbed hold of jaemin's hands and stopped him from bringing him somewhere, probably to the clinic for him to sleep. ❝jaemin, if he doesn't like to get back with me then i shouldn't force him.❞

❝you're going to be hurt.❞

❝i am already hurt.❞ mark flashed the younger a small smile, reassuring him that everything is going to be alright. ❝hopefully, i will move on from this like how donghyuck moved on so quickly.❞

❝do you think donghyuck moved on?❞ because jaemin thinks that the beautiful tanned male is still deeply inlove with this seagull looking canadian.

can jaemin just hit their heads? this is just a simple problem to fix, why are they making this hard?

❝mark think about it.❞ jaemin ran both of his hands through the older's hair and settled them to cup mark's face, squishing it to at least bring his mood up. ❝don't jump to conclusions. think about it very deeply and if you finally had made a decision, may it be letting go of him or continue to fight for him, i'll support it.❞

❝i want to continue fighting for him but seems like nothing works.❞ the older male slouched down from his seat and let out one tiring long sigh.

❝so, you're giving up?❞

❝i don't know, jaemin.❞ mark then buried his head down to his arms. ❝i really, honestly don't know.❞

🎮

❝why the fuck is it so hot today?❞ mark complained, fanning himself as he tried to learn cooking inside the kitchen.

let's just hope he won't burn the kitchen.

getting the ingredients that's being said on the video he is watching on his phone, mark laid them down on the kitchen counter before getting right to the point on how to mix all of them.

he had no classes for the day, why not spend it in baking a cake?

unlike him, donghyuck had classes which is what mark is also thankful for. at least he gets to spend time alone inside his shared dorm with donghyuck without him. the problem is, he can't focus because of the hot temperature inside the room.

❝really,❞ mark groaned and removed the black shirt he is wearing. ❝i should complain to the principal.❞

he kept on complaining while continuing to bake a cake inside the kitchen. he was walking here and there with no shirt on and he didn't care. he was alone inside the dorm anyways, what could happen? he doesn't even know why he's making a cake when he can't even make edible fried eggs. maybe it's his way to forget about the problems that's circling inside his head.

❝what's a spatula again?❞ mark squinted his eyes, completely forgetting what a spatula is. ❝oh wait—❞

placing a hand down on the kitchen counter, mark didn't even notice the bag of frosting down there. while reaching for what looked like a spatula, he placed his hand down to the bag of frosting and gasped really loudly when it went straight to his chest and slid down to his toned stomach. right at this moment, he regretted taking his shirt off.

❝i'm supposed to be calm and feel the rainbows and butterflies around me.❞ mark grumbled as he made his way to the sink to wash the frosting on his body. ❝but why do i feel like i'm going to blow up in any second?❞

taking his shirt that's hanging by one of the chairs at the dinning area, mark was about to wipe the water that's dripping from his chest down to his stomach and even drenching his pajamas but was stopped when he heard footsteps inside the dorm.

raising his head up, mark saw donghyuck standing still with his beautiful sparkling eyes stuck on his built body. if mark would pay attention, he'd also see donghyuck drooling, but he was more on feeling insecure despite of knowing that he had a nice body.

❝y-you're already home?❞ mark gulped, gripping his shirt very tight.

he wanted to wear his shirt but he didn't want for his body to stick on the shirt he is wearing, he is still we after all. donghyuck didn't want to show that he was drooling over mark's body but that is what he was showing, he even licked his lower lip and bit it when he saw one drop from his chest traveling down to mark's toned bread, like a maze getting lost anywhere.

❝hyuck?❞

donghyuck blinked and got back to his senses, but still couldn't remember what mark's question was. ❝huh?❞

❝don't you have classes till seven?❞ mark said, checking the wall clock hanging inside the kitchen and donghyuck was an hour early.

❝the professor had somewhere to go.❞ donghyuck replied but his eyes were still on mark's exposed upper body.

fuck, he missed him so much.

donghyuck didn't want to admit it because he was scared that people might see him as someone easy to get, but after hearing mark's explanation three days ago he couldn't stop thinking about it. he was already this near to accepting mark back but he didn't want to do it because again, he didn't want to be easy to get. but why does mark have to make everything hard for him? why does he always make donghyuck miss everything about him?

he is supposed to be happy that mark isn't calling him by his favorite pet name. he is supposed to be relieved that mark isn't treating him like he is still his boyfriend. he should be happy that even with them breaking up, mark still talked to him like a friend. he should be happy because in that way, it'll be easy to move on.

but instead, he was missing him every second.

❝donghyuck?❞ mark widened his eyes when he noticed donghyuck walking towards him with those glossy eyes of him.

donghyuck missed him so much. he wants him back as much as mark also wanted him. but he didn't know how he should do it and how he should accept him back. is confessing to him enough?

❝mark.❞ honestly speaking, donghyuck was glad to hear that mark loved him and still loves him. he never stopped loving donghyuck.

these past days, donghyuck always would get distracted. moving on was his first priority but mark is really making it hard for him. he can't blame him though, mark could just stand there doing nothing and donghyuck's feelings for him will grow instead of disappearing.

❝donghyuck what are you—❞

mark was then cut off by donghyuck placing a hand behind his head to push him down and the next second, their lips were connected. it felt like it has been years since they last kissed when it has only been weeks or even days. it went on like that for seconds without anybody pushing anyone.

even mark missed kissing donghyuck.

pulling away after a good minute, donghyuck stared up at mark with tears flowing down from his eyes. ❝mark, i love you.❞

mark loves him too.

❝sunshine..❞ mark grabbed hold of donghyuck's shoulder and pulled him closer, not caring if he's going to be drenched because of his wet body and his clothes touching, and went to smash their lips once more.

was it weird to smile while crying? because that is what donghyuck is doing right now. he was smiling between the kiss while his tears kept on coming down.

but then mark realized, this wasn't it.

slowly pushing donghyuck away after breaking from the kiss, mark looked down while gripping to the younger's arms very tight.

❝mark i—❞

mark took his shirt with him before taking steps away from the younger. ❝i'm sorry.❞

donghyuck was then left there standing as mark quickly sprinted away, leaving him confused there.

he doesn't get it. mark loves him, right?

then why did he apologize and then ran away?

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