I stood there in shock, unable to process what my boss was saying to me.

"Busan? But that means I would have to move." I say, instantly thinking about Hoseok and the others. 

"You don't have to give me an answer right now. Just think about it, okay? You may go now."

I nodded as I turned around and made my way out of her office. As soon as I closed the door, I let out a breath.

Transfer to Busan...? I had just moved back to Seoul not that long ago... I couldn't just leave. Especially not when Hoseok and I had just gotten back together. I couldn't leave him, not again.

I felt conflicted. I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to leave the guys but at the same time, it was more money than I made now. It would be a good opportunity.

The only thing stopping me was knowing I couldn't leave Seoul. I couldn't leave the guys and I couldn't leave Hoseok.

I sighed as I made my way back over to my desk and sat down. My mind was everywhere, I couldn't even begin to think about working more.

I knew time would definitely go slow now. At least that gave me time to think about how I was going to bring this up to Hoseok.

I didn't want to upset him but at the same time he needed to know. I was just afraid of how he would take it...

The rest of my shift I sat there, lost in thought.
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When I finally got home, I sent Hoseok a text to come over when he could because I had something I needed to talk to him about.

I was dreading doing this. Of course, I still didn't even know if I was going to take the offer or not, but I didn't want to keep this from him. It was better that he knew about it now and not last minute.

As I waited for him to arrive, I sat there drowning in my nerves. I was scared to see how he would respond.

After what felt like forever, I heard a knock on my door before I opened, revealing Hoseok.

"Hey, what's wrong?" he asks instantly, his face covered in worry. "Come here." I say as I pat the spot beside me and let out a breath.

"What's going on?" He asks as he takes a seat, visibly on edge. I already felt so bad, and I hadn't said anything yet.

"Today at work my boss wanted to talk to me about something." I start, already feeling uneasy. "Yeah?" Hoseok asks, just as stressed as I felt.

"She offered me an extra assignment." "Isn't that a good thing? Why did you seem so anxious to tell me that?" Hoseok chuckled, seeming to relax.

"I'd have to transfer to Busan..." I say, unable to look at him. "What?" His voice was completely monotone. I lifted my head to see the smile completely gone from his face, his eyes wide as he stared at me.

Before I could even speak, he spoke again. "You're going to decline the offer, right? I mean you just moved here you can't leave." His words sounded sad, almost desperate.

"I haven't accepted or declined anything yet. I just wanted to tell you, just in case." I say but Hoseok's brows furrow.

"Just in case what? You can't just move all the way to Busan. You just came back. I just got you back..."

My heart broke at Hoseok's words and at the complete pain written all over Hoseok's face as he looked at me with sad eyes.

"I know. I get that Hoseok, but this could be an amazing opportunity for me. Don't you care about that at all?" I ask, a little taken back at how against it he was already.

"I don't care about it at all if it means I lose you again. If that makes me selfish, I don't care, I can't lose you again." Hoseok says as he stands up, his fists clenched.

"Hoseok..." I say, staring up at him with wide eyes. "Please, just don't. I'm sorry, I have to go." Hoseok says without even bothering to look at me as he headed for the front door.

I sat there, unable to say a word as he left, slamming the door shut behind him.
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"He really just stormed out after you told him?" Jin asks, eyebrows raised as he leaned back on my couch.

"Yeah, it's like he didn't even support me in the slightest. I get he's upset but I just figured he'd support whatever decision I made...I don't know." I say, feeling upset.

I hadn't expected Hoseok to react the way he did. I knew he would be upset but I didn't expect him to get that upset.

"I don't want to make excuses for him but I kind of understand..." Jin says then follows it with, "We just got you back, y/n. We don't want to lose you again..."

I felt awful. I had only been thinking about how the new job would affect me, not about how it would make those around me feel.

"I'm awful." I sigh, my head falling into my hands. "No, you're not. Trust me, I know it's a hard decision but at the end of the day it's yours and yours alone to make. We'll still support you either way." Jin says as he places his hand on my back.

"No matter what you decide, you'll always have me."

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A/n: Little life update! So, I ended up dying my blonde side of my hair bright red and I absolutely love it!! I've also been a lot happier lately and have been feeling good. I'm starting to get my independence and happiness back after my two plus years mentally and emotionally draining toxic relationship ended and I just feel...good. I'm so much happier now that I didn't realize just how miserable I was. The breakup was probably the best thing for us honestly. I'm a lot happier now on my own and I'm excited to grow stronger because of the experience and just learn to love myself. I'm getting there and all I know is that for the first time in a very long time, I'm finally happy. (: