"A broken heart loves better than one that has never been hurt"

Semmy Carson

Today was another day of hell called school. Another day full of my selfish, mean and total insane bullies.

River had been waiting outside in his car for me. I told him I wasn't ready yet, but I was actually just preparing myself mentally in front of my mirror.

I watched my lifeless green eyes whilst I raked a hand through my dark brown curls. Sometimes my nerves and anxiety kicked in just like right now.

"Okay Semmy, you can do this.." I whispered to try and encourage myself, before grabbing my bag and leaving the house.

I walked towards River's black Mustang and took a seat beside him.

My eyes instantly met his beautiful grey ones and like every day other day those two orbs were shining bright. The only difference today was his brown hair that was not in its usual messy way, it was styled back, making him look even hotter than he already was. He wore a simple dark t-shirt and a blue jeans along with white Adidas shoes.

"I swear you are such a girl Semmy, it always takes you half an hour to get ready!" He rolled his eyes before starting the car and driving away.

"Yet you always wait for me" I grinned and looked outside, not wanting to get caught for staring at him like a lovesick high school girl.

Luckily it was a nice day outside. The birds chirped happily, the blue clouds danced in the sky and the sun showed itself by shining bright.

"Good idea, maybe I should just leave without you next time" He smirked wide while driving.

"You wouldn't dare!" I protested and looked at him with squinted eyes.

"Oh really? The last time you said that it also didn't end very well" He grinned, probably thinking back to yesterday.

The freaking bastard!

"Shut up.." I muttered, not giving him a come back anymore.

I just felt sorry for him, I swear I didn't run out of my awesome come backs!

"So Semmy.." He started in a more serious way which made me look up at him with wide eyes.

Oh no, that was the 'Semmy I want something' tone and sadly that was not in a sexual way. Sigh.

Normally when he wanted something from me, it wasn't something good at all! Last time that he needed something, it ended up with me on a double date with a freaking girl!

I don't even like girls! Boobs just scare the shit out of me.

"The answer is no River" I said immediately while I shivered at my last thought.

"But you haven't even listened to what I was about say!" He argued with me.

"Because I know it'll be something incredibly stupid!" I argued back.

"No it's not!" He said confident.

"Then what is it?" I asked him while raising my eyebrow.

"Lucy Ryan gives a party-"

"No, hell to the no. I won't go. Nah-ah" I protested already.

Parties are nothing but just a total waste of time. The loud music, sweaty bodies against each other, nasty kissing and the smell of some dying animal was horrible!

Always something bad had to happen at those parties. It never ended well.

Plus it was from Lucy Ryan. She's a mean potato and I honestly don't understand how River can date someone like her. He deserved way better than her. I bet she's cheating on him, but every time I say that River won't listen to me.

"Oh come on Semmy! I don't understand how you two can't get along" He sighed disappointed.

"I don't like her and she doesn't like me. Et voila: no getting along" I sarcastically deadpanned like he was stupid.

It struck my heart that it made him sad, but the potato is really up to no good. I want the best for him and that's not Lucy Ryan.

"You know what I mean! You are my best friend and she is my girlfriend. Is it so weird that I want the two most important people in my life to get along with each other?" He asked me and gave me those dang puppy eyes of his again.

I hated when he gave me that look and he knew that all too well. He always knew how to convince me, every single time. Just that face expression and the pleading was already enough for me to do something utterly stupid like I was about to do right now.

"No.. Okay okay, fine, I'll go!" I said after guilt was eating at me.

"Really?!" He yelled in surprise.

"Yeah, but if she says one stupid thing, which she always does cause she's stupid, I will leave" I said.

"Hey don't talk about her like that" He gave me a warning look.

"Sorry.." I muttered and rolled my eyes.

"Thank you a lot Semmy.. It really means a lot to me that you go. I will bring you tonight okay?" He said once we pulled up at the school parking lot and we both got out of the car.

"Yeah yeah, it's alright" I told him with a genuine smile.

And I meant what I said, seeing River happy was a real must have to me. Whenever he had that dazzling smile on his face, my world stopped spinning. Every moving thing around me went into slow motion and I forgot the definition of time.

"I will see you later okay?" River softly squeezed my shoulder and looked at me.

Our lockers were on the opposite sides of the building and we didn't have any classes together in our first period.

Well, at least I can day dream about him and his abs?

"Yeah of course, see you at our break" I smiled and walked towards my locker that was covered by many different stickers so it wouldn't look boring like all the other plain blue lockers.

After I got the books that I needed, I was about to close my locker, but instead someone else slammed my locker shut for me.

Of. Freaking. Course.

"Hey Carson, how is our little cock sucker here doing?" Mitchell sneered at me.

I looked to my side and glared at him. I bit my lip hard so I wouldn't say something back at him.

"Have you lost your tongue? Probably did too many blowjobs huh?" He smirked and pushed me by my shoulder then, making me take a step back so I wouldn't trip.

That's where I started to get more pissed and once I gained my balance I didn't even try to stay quiet.

"If you have a problem with me, write the problem on a piece of paper, fold it, and shove it up your ass." I snapped back at him.

I was so done with Mitchell, he and his dogs always picked on me for no solid reason. I couldn't just stand there and say nothing this time. There wasn't anyone in this part of the hallway anymore so I knew I was already screwed anyways.

Mitchell laughed along with his two friends Rick and Liam which made me frown, but all of a sudden they came closer to me. My back reached the locker and that's when I realized that they cornered me.

"You think you're funny huh?" He smirked once he stood very close in front of me, knowing I couldn't get away from him.

"N-"

His fist suddenly met my nose, cauzing me to fall to the ground since I didn't expect that to happen so soon.

But then again, they always beat me whenever they wanted.

I couldn't breath nor respond anymore, because once I layed on the ground all three of them kicked my sides.

I tried to turn on my stomach, but all of it happened way too fast for me. My sight became pitch black and I think I even saw stars.

Eventually my nose was bleeding, my body hurts and my head pounded like crazy. I couldn't react nor think normally, all I could think about was protecting myself as much as I can.

After a while they stood up straight, leaving me there to bleed, but not before Mitchell whispered something in my ear.

"The next time you decide to use your big filthy mouth, I will kill your little gay ass"