Since our talk on Halloween Liam has been coming over everyday and it was just like old times. We talked, laughed and joked like we spent no time apart. He was even shocked that I brought my dream house and no one told him.

Today is a day I've been dreading, Christmas. Don't get me wrong I love Christmas, I just hate it this year because I'm hosting and cooking everything on my own for the first time ever and I'm nervous because I don't want to ruin Christmas for anyone.

Everyone started arriving at eleven am and thankfully my lovely sisters Lakelyn and Locklyn are helping me in the kitchen. As we were cooking Lake says "So you and Liam good now?" and I said "Ya but I don't know I guess I'm waiting for him to disappear again." and Lock says "He seems happier lately. Like our old Liam." looking over at Liam in my living room talking to my dad I say "Ya." and Lake says "You still love him?" nodding my head yes Lock says "Listen to your heart." and I said "That's what I'm trying to protect." and she says "He's different now. He knows what he can lose now and I don't think he would make that mistake again.".

After all morning cooking it was finally time to eat so we all sat at the table and after my dad said Grace we all dug in.

At first all you could hear was forks scrapping plates but that soon ends when Sasha Liam's nephew says "Uncle Liam did Santa bring you everything you wanted?" and we all look at Liam and he says "No but I'm sure he's still working on it. Maybe I'll get it for my birthday." and Sasha says "But that's not how santa works." and Liam says "Santa's magical you just have to believe." and Sasha nods and says "That's true uncle Liam." and starts eating again.

Later that night when everyone leaves Liam who stayed to help me clean says "You want to know what Santa didn't bring me?" and I says "What?" and he said "You as my girl." and I said "Maybe when your divorce is finalized he will." and he smiles and says "I know he will." and starts saving dishes again.