(Richie's pov.)

I don't think I'd ever understood (Y/n) untill yesterday. As the helicopter lifted off with it went my heart, my whole heart. And with that went my feeling and with my feeling my will to live, because without feeling, without love, what is there? Even that twisted frickin demon clown Had a heart, nomatter how rotten and twisted. The looks on everyone's faces told me that they'd begun to give them up they'd already excepted the fact that Eddie was already a dead man let alone how they treated-. And yet I can't hate them. I think we're all in denial, as we all walk I lose sight of where we're going only able to think about when Eds had gotten thrown and-. We're all numb but the place dosen't look as shooty as it did before. "We really changed the place, didn't we". While I think we all agreed with Bill but I was angry. Ben and Stan looked it too I think they at least understood part of my rage. I can't cry, I still haven't I can't. I'm becoming just like... Except I can't I can't paste a smile over this, I couldn't this entire time, this entire morning the sun breaks through the clouds and comes up while we're walking and I just want to scream.... And now we're here, some idiots put up bars and put out a sign. But thus is marked the changing of the times... Beverly jumps first, just like old times, well almost. Before I know it we're all there, down in the water once again. Everyone is swimming around, washing themselves off and I can hardly bring myself to do it. All I can think about is them... they're gone they're gone they're gone they're gone... and it's all your fault. I take off my glasses... her blood is still on them, or maybe it's his. But I don't feel it, not really. I'm just numb. "You know what? Eddie would have hated this, guys". Ben starts his voice horse and full of emotion. "What? Cleaning ourselves in dirty water?" "Yeah," "he'd be telling us we'd get streptococcal something". "Yeah, but he would have made us laugh, though". "Oh yeah". "He'd be looking out for us, they way he always was... the way-" Bill's voice breaks "the way they always were..." "Ain't that right, Richie?" I can't take it. The dam breaks and I let out a choked sob holding my head in my hand. "Hey," I hear rustling in the water and feel hands on my back, my arms and I cry... it's all I can do. The two people I loved most in the world are gone and there's no one here telling me that I'll ever get them back. "Thank you... I don't have my glasses on, so I don't know who you people are, but thank you". That gets a laugh out of them, it's a rather wet laugh from Stan behind me but a couple laughs nonetheless and then I think I get it. "I, ligit can't find my glasses..." "you're serious?" "Glasses?" "Go that way". "Around here somewhere...?" Their voices fade away and I'm left with my thoughts. I'm brought back to this day all those years ago, the day I realized I liked her. I remember her jumping first and then flailing like a freaking psycho before Beverly showed up and then everyone was in the water thinking she was dieing. I remember her cussing, and splashing me, and swimming. She was always one heck of a swimmer. I remember learning her name and her saying mine... And then I went on and gaped at Beverly like an idoit. Gosh I really was stupid wasn't I? My mind trails back to my thoughts from earlier.... How she did it all those years, and I can finally bring myself to think it She really was the strongest of us... "She really was". I flinch in shock "oh dang I said that out loud didn't I?" "Yeah man". Stan gets a glazed look as we trudge our way back to the shore Ben handing me my glasses. "That really was some day wasn't it..." Stan remarks as I flop down at the edge of the water. "Hey, yeah you were the one that stayed behind for her Stan... what happened?" Bill remarks looking over at Stan while Ben pulls off his shirt to wring it out. Everyone looks at Stan while he breaks the silence. "Well she, understandably didn't want everyone to see her that day..." "How bad was it?" The words tumble out of me before I can think about it and everyone's eyes snap to me then back to Stan as he continues. "It... it was bad, I think I was the first one who she let know... gosh it was messed up. At the time I don't think I really understood how much of it wasn't her parents and was...." "Her..." I look down at my hands and think of that day outside of Beverly's place. "Even with everything else going on she was always there for us". "Even after the fight," Mike let's out a sad laugh. "She came all the way out to the farm just to see me". "Even after all this time...c Ben carries on for Mike, she's the reason most of us showed up and she's the one who..." Silence reigns once again as we all got up shook off the water and got ready to face whatever the frick we're doing next.

(Time skip)

Walking back into Derry after all we just went through is surreal. My thoughts are racing and then suddenly slammed to a halt with Beverly's voice. "Hey guys," we all turn and look at her holding up her hand. "Look". We all look at our hands in turn and sure enough it's gone. "Nothing lasts forever..." Oh my gosh Mike way to be ominous. And there we are, looking at the big old welcome window and if you squint hard enough it's almost as if you can still see us there bikes and all. The losers club. Takes me back to the last time... but before I could stroll to far down memory lane Bill's phone rings. We all turn as he lets out a gasp. "What is it?" "What is it Bill?" "Bill?" He look up at me with wide eyes "(Y/n)... (Y/n) and Eddie... They're alive."

(A/n) Woooooo! Look at me making everyone live! I hope you got feels also yes I will explain everything in the next few chapters... yes I keep saying it's the end and then "a few more chapters" but I swear that's literally all it is. We're so close. Anyways as always love ya'll, comment. See you in the next one!

Ok also How did ya'll like Richie's pov. Huh? Did it freak anybody out? OK, OK, I swear I'm done and gonna start writing the next chapter byeeeeee!!