As Brendon got ready. He took a moment to look at himself. Trying to figure out ways to make himself look and feel better. He knows he looks and feels better than he did a year ago or so ago.

After him and Patrick stopped talking last night. He started thinking about how Dallon has only told him he loves him four times. Twice when he was drunk, one time Brendon had to practically had to beat it out of him and when they first when Dallon started helping him. That last one is the one that stuck with him because it was the most sincere out of them all but hasn't heard it since.

Brendon has ideas way he hasn't said it again.

Like he is married, he doesn't want people to know he's into men or hasn't come to terms with it himself. Maybe he is afraid of falling in love. Made he just doesn't love him at all and just uses him. The last one Brendon doesn't want to believe but it still floats around in his thoughts.

Brendon doesn't waste time in the halls mostly to avoid people and so they recognize him either. So he either super early to class or barely making it.

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"Hi Brendon." Tyler hoped he got that right

"Tyler, right?" Brendon says sitting up.

"Yeah, are you okay I know I met you like yesterday but you look down."

"I'm okay, just a lot-"

"Be careful with this slut, Tyler, he may stick a heroin needle in you." Two guys come up to them laughing

"Fuck off!" Brendon growls

One of the guys laugh and the other got the message pulling the other away before things just

"I'm sorry" Brendon mumbles to Tyler putting his jacket back on so people or Tyler wouldn't start looking for the needle marks or scars on his arms.

"It's okay," Tyler says now looking uneasy.

Brendon sighs putting his head down. Part of him wants to explain, the other part wants to cry. So he stayed silent.

Tyler's phone starts going off.

Dal💛

"Hey, Dal." Tyler says and Brendon's mind goes to his Dallon little did he know they are the same person.

"I'll stop by after class." Tyler says sounding confused.

"Yeah I'll see if Josh can drive me," Tyler says

"Okay, I love you too. Bye!" Tyler giggles

Brendon wanted to bang his head into the desk. Just because of jealousy alone. He wanted that I love you too. Not from Tyler of course but like how Tyler said it, causal but you can tell he meant it. He wants that with Dallon.

He wants that type of love...

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