Feb. 14, 2018

Dear Diary,

Why am I like this? Kung ano-ano na ang nangyayari sa akin. Magalitin ako. I got angry then later I feel so happy then after awhile I'm angry again. What's with me?

But then, I realize just now that I have a crush. Not only one but more than that. They are just ranked. Hahaha. Among all my crushes, I couldn't forget this one person whom I saw when I was in the park. I never get the chance to fully know him. We only talk because he was asking for direction. Then after that, he left. But here's the good thing! He accidentally dropped something, his photo! I picked it up and decided not to return it. Hehe. Later on, my mom arrive and we sat down on the bench. She asked me about the photo I'm holding. I just smiled and said nothing. Going back to the owner of the photo, I saw him again! Just this day! I travelled alone and went shopping. I saw him at the mall. I wonder where he lives. What's his age? His name? I wanna know! But I call him Mr. Vallen. Why? Valentines kasi ngayon na nakita ko na naman siya. Dati ang tawag ko ay crush lang ngayon may specific name na siya. Yey!

You know what, before meeting Mr. Vallen... I have this crush at school. I don't know why he became my crush. Well, just crush. Maybe I was just confused with my feelings. Like... he is the reason why I smile. Why I feel less stressed. That he makes my heart beat fast. This is crazy. Well, he's still in my crush list. Just that, ba't ko ba kasi naging crush yun? Anyway, why am I talking about him now?

Back to Mr. Vallen. He's so handsome! And sa picture niya na hawak ko? He's so cute! May dimple siya. Since the first time I saw him, I can't stop thinking about him! I also try looking him everywhere, thinking he would be there. Will there be a chance we'll cross paths again and know each other? I like him. Ako kaya? Gusto niya? Pero how would he like me? Isang beses lang kami nagkita and ngayon ko lang siya ulit nakita, but I wonder if nakita rin ba pala ako? I don't know but he seems looking at my direction or I'm just imagining things. He was with his friends, boys and girls. What if isa sa kasama pala niya ay girlfriend niya? Huhu. Ang sakit. May pag-asa pa kaya ako? Meron! Kung may girlfriend man siya, di pa naman sila mag-asawa. Hahaha. What is this feeling?

I WANT HIM BUT DOES HE WANT ME TOO? That's impossible. He doesn't know you, you don't know each other.

Nga pala Diary, hindi ko pa pala nakwento sayo noh... Magiging part ulit kaya ako ng SSG? Kasi, I'm a candidate in the position of Treasurer. At this age? I think I'm too young for the position. Bahala na. Mga ate at kuya naman sa higher level ang nagsuggest nun! Ayaw ko sana maging SSG officer ulit kaso mukhang kaya ko naman. Talaga? Ah bahala na. Good luck to me.

So napadami ako ng sulat ngayon. But I'm not yet done. Try ko magsulat ng poem.

It's Valentine's Day
I saw him again
Laughing with his friends
I wish to know him
But how will I?
He seems close but too far