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Thе thought that "I shouldn't have met you in the first placе"
I hated myself for thinking crazily like that
I'm sorry for wanting to hug you even now

-miss you-Hyunjin-

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The next morning arrived with a soft, golden light filtering through the blinds of Hana's room. The quiet hum of the neighborhood just beginning to stir created a calm and peaceful ambiance.

It was just around 8.a.m when Minho was back from his run. After a quick stop in the kitchen to grab a bottle of water, he made his way to the bathroom for a well-deserved shower. once he was ready he walked out, fed his cats and walked back into the hallway, except this time towards Hana's room. He hadn't realized how much he missed waking Hana up, seeing her first thing in the morning in that one week they dint talk to each other.

He gently knocked on her door, but as expected, there was no response since she'd be sleeping. He slowly turned the doorknob and peeked inside. The room was bathed in the warm, golden light of morning. Hana lay in bed, cocooned in her blankets, looking peaceful and serene in her sleep.

Minho stepped inside quietly, careful not to disturb the tranquil atmosphere. He approached her bedside and gently touched her shoulder. "Hana, it's time to wake up," he said softly, a hint of a smile in his voice. "I'm making you breakfast."

Hana stirred slightly, her eyelids fluttering open. She blinked sleepily, her gaze settling on Minho with a faint, groggy smile. "Minho... Good morning."

"Good morning," Minho replied, his own smile brightening as he saw her waking up.
"I thought you might like some breakfast when I woke you up."

Minho's heart warmed at the sight of Hana's sleepy smile yet excited nods. He watched as she slowly sat up, her hair tousled and her eyes still heavy with sleep.

"I'll be in the kitchen, wash up quickly." 

"How am I supposed to bath with this?"
She pointed at the gauze.

"I'll just wrap it thick and tightly with cling wrap and another layer of gauze for you, that way it wont get too wet, just be as careful as you can, you'll be fine."

"I feel stupid now, how did I not think of that?"

"Go easy on yourself, you've had so much to deal with the past few days, it's okay that you can't think straight." He smiled, but internally cringed at how her mind could so easily make her feel so worthless.

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Hana POV:

He moved over to me with a roll of cling wrap and some medical gauze. Taking my hand in his, he wrapped over the old gauze tighter and overlapped it with a layer cling wrap.

I stared at his focused expression that he always had when he was concentrated on something, one that never changed for him, it was one of those expressions that grow on you and then you never lose it.

"This should do for now," he said. "When you're back, I'll take care of it properly."

I watched him put everything back in its place, and got up to walk to my closet to get fresh clothes, grabbing a simple t-shirt and sweats.

I enter the washroom, place my clothes over the hanger and shuffling to the sink. I splashed water over my face, scrubbing across my face to wipe the sleep from my face. I looked better, like how people glow after they recover from a sickness, for some reason I felt renewed, in a way I did come back from death. 

But that was all on the outside. The mirror could only reflect so much. My head was still a storm of fragmented memories and unresolved pain. The sight of my reflection brought only a fleeting sense of solace. Beneath the surface, my thoughts were a jumbled mess, weighed down by regrets and the struggles I was still facing.

I slipped out of my clothes, dumping them in the laundry basket and with a sigh, I swung my legs into the bathtub, the porcelain cold against my skin. I turned on the water, waiting for it to warm up, watching as the steam began to rise. The warm water finally began to flow warm, and I adjusted the faucet, letting the temperature become just right. 

I dint take too long, because I dint want to be alone for too long, I dint trust myself. I got out of the shower changing into the fresh clothes and patting the temporary dressing as dry as possible.

I walk to the kitchen, welcomed with the aroma of fresh food, smelled like starch and spice.

"I'm back."

"Yes, I can see that."
He said, not sparing a look as he plated the rice and soup.

"What'd you make?"

"Rice is fresh, the soup is from leftovers."

"Smell's very appetizing, just don't put it like that."
I chuckled.
"When did you even cook this?"

"Yeah, I dint have time to cook, but Mom gave packed me food when I went over."

"You went to your parent's house? When?"

"The night we umm.. Never mind, it was the night when you were at your parents."

"Ah, right."
I said looking anywhere but him, because that was also the night we had our big fight, it was also the night before my attempt. Great job to me for bringing this up.

"Wait in your room, I'll be there in a second."

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

"You have to visit the hospital tomorrow, soon. Maybe tomorrow? If they close, they might even remove them."

"I'm dreading to take them off."

"Why's that? Your hands gonna be free."

"Stitches can leave a pretty nasty scar."

"Right, forgot about that. Don't worry about that, you'll have a badass scar."

"And if someone sees it? Screw someone, if my own parents see it?"

"I told you, I'll help you out. You don't have to be afraid of your parents, Hana."

"Easy for you to say when you don't know what they're like."

"Maybe, but if you help me understand it, i might see them from your viewpoint."

"No, no, it's okay. I dint mean to come out like that, and besides, its not significant right now."

"I know that's a lie, because I've seen you cry because of them more than I'd like, but that's fine. I promised you that I won't push you, so I'm going to wait however long it takes for you to be ready."

"Sorry if  I ruined the mood, I'd like to just pretend everything is okay for a while,"

"Since we're on the topic of apologizing, I'm sorry too, Hana."

"You? But why?"

"That night, I should have comforted you, not yelled at you. Maybe if I did that, you'd be with me the entire night, and the whole hospital thing could've been avoided."

"None of this had anything to do with anyone of you. I did this on my own terms."

"I was mean Hana, I said things I shouldn't have because I was so frustrated. A week before that I told you never talk to me again and I'd purposely avoid you- That was too far. I dint try to understand where you were coming from. I called you weak, I blamed you for not trying harder, for trying to give up. I just want you to know, I dint mean any of that, it was all in the heat of the moment, and that I'm really sorry. I care Hana, we all do. I'd hear you cry, talk, in fact just sit in silence because for all I care, you'd be safe and healthy.

"I was out of line too. Just because I yelled at you in a fit of unfiltered rage, doesn't mean I don't remember the bullshit I pulled. I'm sorry, for all that's happened these few days- no actually, ever since I've come in your life."

"Don't say that Hana. I do realize that you're saying we met by chance, we wouldn't have if it wasn't for you moving in or me becoming friends with Seungmin and Jeongin.
But I'm glad you did. So, so glad."

"Sorry," I said, but he shook his head.

He stays quiet until he finishes wrapping up the gauze.

"There, let's go have breakfast."
He said getting up from my bed and placing everything where it was.

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"Your mom's cooking is just like yours, except it's better."
I said with a playful grin.

Minho glanced up briefly, his expression neutral.
"I guess it is similar."

I noticed the lack of enthusiasm in his response but decided to let it slide.
"Well, it's comforting to have a taste of home. Thank you for bringing it."

"No problem, I'm glad you enjoyed it."
And he continued eating.

As we finished up breakfast, Minho cleared the dishes with a quiet efficiency. I could sense the sadness he was trying to mask, but he was doing his best to keep things normal. His attempts to remain upbeat, even when he didn't quite seem himself, were both touching and a bit heartbreaking.

I watched him for a moment, taking in the way his shoulders were slightly hunched, how he seemed to move a little slower than usual. It was clear that beneath his calm exterior, there was something weighing on him. I wanted to say something comforting, but I could tell he was not in the mood for deep conversation.

I stood with him in the kitchen talking about random things as the coffee brewed. Once he was done he added the creamer and we chilled in the living room on our phones.

"I'm going to go get ready, I have to be there soon."
Minho said getting up.

"What already?"
I glanced at the clock, surprised by how quickly time had flown.

"It's almost 11, Hana"
He said with a smile.

"I'm gonna be so bored alone."

"I'll come back with food to make up for it?"

"No just come home as soon as you can."
 I said, my tone earnest but light-hearted.

"Rest as much as you can, be lazy for once, but if you do get bored out of your mind, you should try to get some work done, it'll keep you distracted. But please- for your own sake, if anything, if you feel like doing anything, call me, I'll come from wherever I am."

I nodded, taking in his advice.
"Minho... It's okay, I'll keep myself occupied."

Minho gave me a final, comforting smile and with that he left.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

I lazed around in my room, flipping through random videos to pass the time, but boredom quickly set in. It was almost 4 PM, and I felt like I hadn't accomplished anything productive, well at least I played with the cats and fed but that's about it. Frustrated, I decided to pull out my laptop and check my schedule, hoping to find something that would distract me.

As I opened my laptop, the screen blinked to life, revealing my packed calendar. My eyes immediately went to the exam schedule.
"Exams from 19th October until the 30th," I muttered to myself, the weight of the upcoming workload sinking in. "Best thing ever." I rolled my eyes, feeling a mix of dread and resignation.

I glanced at the date and realized with a pang that Minho's birthday was coming up soon.
"Today is already 29rd September," I said aloud, my voice tinged with regret. It hit me that I'd be completely immersed in exams during his special day. I hated the thought of missing it, especially after everything we'd been through recently.

I thought of using the remaining of my time forming a study schedule with things that I needed to study, things I was done with and things i needed to catch up on.

I held the paper against the wall near my study table, tearing a piece of tape and sticking it there.
"I can do this, its nothing I haven't done before" I tried to convince myself, but oh god, there were too many things on my plate. 

By the time I was done with everything, it was 8pm, so I went out to feed the cats again, but they were all sleeping. I got their bowls all washed up and changed the water and refilled the food bowls with food and placed them at their small food stands that Minho had gotten them.

"Soonie, Doongie, Dori food's here"
I said rattling one of the bowls. They woke up to the sound and stretched before climbing down their resting spots. I pat all three of them on their bellies before retreating back to my room, where I pick up my phone to text.

USELESS HOES
baby🍞, puppy🐶 and medic👩🏻‍⚕️

Medic👩🏻‍⚕️:
what's up hoes

text or call me once you both are
back from work

Sent to baby🍞, puppy🐶 at 08:20pm

baby🍞:
seungmin is still busy

im done tho

Sent to Medic👩🏻‍⚕️, puppy🐶 at 08:24pm

Medic👩🏻‍⚕️:

Seungmin can read the chats later

I have a bit of a problem

Ugh i hate this so much

Sent to baby🍞, puppy🐶 at 08:25pm

baby🍞:

calm down

care to explain?

Sent to Medic👩🏻‍⚕️, puppy🐶 at 08:25pm

Medic👩🏻‍⚕️:

So basically

I have exams from 19th october

they end at 30th

Sent to baby🍞, puppy🐶 at 08:25pm

baby🍞:
let me guess

you're panicking?

Sent to Medic👩🏻‍⚕️, puppy🐶 at 08:26pm

Medic👩🏻‍⚕️:

Yes

a little but that's not the only point

they end at 30th

Sent to baby🍞, puppy🐶 at 08:26pm

baby🍞:

okay what about it

am i missing something?

Sent to Medic👩🏻‍⚕️, puppy🐶 at 08:27pm

puppy🐶:

What's happening?

why are you both blowing up my phone

oh

nvm i just read the chats

Jeongin come to the car

quick where tf are you

Sent to Medic👩🏻‍⚕️, puppy🐶 at 08:29pm

baby🍞:

im in the cafe, where else?

you told me to be there

you indecisive bitch

im coming now

Sent to Medic👩🏻‍⚕️, puppy🐶 at 08:29pm

Medic👩🏻‍⚕️:

are you both done 

call me when youre in the car

THIS IS IMPORTANT

IM SCREWED OTHERWISE

Sent to baby🍞, puppy🐶 at 08:25pm

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

"I'm going to miss his birthday,"
 I said, frustration evident in my voice.

"Oh, and Seungmin, this reminds me—it's Chan hyung's birthday in a few days."

"I almost forgot, how old is he now?"

"27?"

"Damn, that's old dude"

"You're 24 yourself, what are you on?"

"GUYS THAT'S NOT THE POINT, like i respect Chan and everything, but like MINHO."

"You didn't make a fuss about anything for my birthday. Be honest—do you hate me?"
Seungmin asked, sarcasm dripping from his voice.

"Seungmin, that's a known fact, okay moving on."

"Tell me how I can make it up to him BECAUSE I CANNOT NOT RISK my EXAMS FOR ANYONE"

"Just get him a gift, the birthday party leave it to us."
Jeongin said

"Ugh i really want to be at his birthday."

"You dint come to my birthday party last week."
Seungmin said and I could hear the pout in his voice.

"I gave you a gift, I wanted to be there for your 24th as well, I'm sorry Seungmin."
flashbacks from the dinner over the weekend came rushing to me. I wanted to be there for him.

"Okay, then there's no change, We celebrate with Minho, you get his gift."

"I'll see about that."

"I'll see about that."
Seungmin mocked.

"Seungmin let it go now"
Jeongin giggled.

"I'm not mad Hana, I wouldn't be, I understand you better than you think."
Seungmin spoke up when all there was silence from my side.

"Okay yes, yes. I'm gonna get him a gift and it'll be okay, he'll understand"

"There's just one thing I'm curious about."
Jeongin asked.
"Why is this a big deal? Minho wouldn't mind, you know that."

"I don't know, I just feel like I.... owe him? He's had to go through a lot because of me... like his life was perfect until I came along, you know? He took care of me when I was sick, he came searching for me, he takes care of the dressing's everyday. He deserves it, and i felt guilty that I'm willing to give up his special day to rot in my room to study."

"Hana, how oblivious can you be?"
Jeongin sounded frustrated.

"Oblivious?"

"He's not doing this because he's obliged to, he's doing it because he wants to. He genuinely cares about you."
I heard Jeongin sigh in the other end.

"What about it? Where are you going with this?"

"That's not for me to tell. All I'm saying is, you're overthinking everything. He understands where you're coming from, and no he won't be upset you weren't there for his birthday."

"Are you home now?"
I said ignoring each word he said because it flew right above my head.

"No, talk until we pull up in the parking"
Seungmin stopped me before I could hang up.

"Okay, it's not like I have anything better to do."

"Are you... better now? You seem happy."
Seungmin asked.

"I'm okay, as long as I'm distracted. It feels... surreal that's all."

"You don't have to create a distraction to be distracted Hana. Just call us, we'll talk to you, keep you company, keep you occupied."
He said softly.

"I'm not creating a distraction, whatever I said right now genuinely dint sit right with me. Oh right, another thing, about Minho."

"Go on."

"I think I upset him this morning over breakfast."

"Do you know why?"

"He apologized to me, something like 'I should have comforted you, not yelled at you.'"

"Why would he think that?"

"He thinks whatever happened in the past 2 days is his fault."

"Oh. I dint know that."

"That kind off put his mood off you know?"

"So the birthday is just an excuse, you want him to feel better and not blame himself?"

"That'd be a plus point."

"Sometime I really wonder how she's so smart in studies, but oblivious to everything else."
Jeongin said.

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Jeongin POV:

We hung up on Hana once we reached home, walking to the lobby. It was sure now, that Minho had some sort of feelings, however small, towards Hana.

"I'm positive there's something between them."
I said.

"Well, actually I'm not even against it. Good for her, if she does reciprocate whatever Minho has for her."
Seungmin said positively.

"Minho won't admit it either."

"He doesn't know how to, you know that."

"He's good for her."

"Yeah, right he is."

"We should get a gift for Chan hyung, don't forget to call Minho hyung."
Jeongin said, switching the topic.

"We should go searching for gifts tomorrow, I'm not free later."

"Me neither, tomorrow sounds good."

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Hana POV:

I waited for a long time. It was 11 pm. Minho still wasn't home. I wasn't worried, just curious where he would be so late at night. I lounged with Doongie on my bed, while the other 2 were outside, probably grooming or sleeping. I was beginning to feel weak and my eyelids were heavy. But I dint want to go to bed before I saw Minho return.

My lovely(eww) roommate🏠

Minho

hi my favorite person

my roomamte

roommatre*

roommate**

fuck shaky hands

Delivered: 11:01pm

MINHO

my inner bitch is going to come out

Meanhoe

hoe

DUMBASS

Delivered: 11:02pm

I HAVENT EATEN CAUSE YOURE NOT HERE

i want to eat with you

YOU HOE

WHERE TF?

IM ALONE

please come home

Delivered: 11:03pm

I'm

BOTED

BORED*

A LITTLE WORRIED

curious where you are AT 11 PM

EMPHASIS ON P.M.

EMPHASIS ON 11

Delivered: 11:06pm

who's gonna do the dressing?

Min?

are you not coming home tonight?

I fed your cats

doongie is even sleeping with me

Delivered: 11:07pm

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

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a/n: wsg... what do you think happened?