Chapter 8

Time passed since John's sexuality crisis. He still didn't quite understand his feelings for Karkat but he tried his best to not let those confusing feelings for the perma-angry troll ruin their friendship. Of course, John wasn't the only one with confusing feelings for his friend.

Karkat too was getting weird mixed thoughts for his previous caliginous crush. The only difference here was that Karkat expected these feelings to pop up at one point. The cancer troll already understood how his own feelings worked, and he very well knew that pretty soon he'd end up being selfish and wanting John all to himself. He'd want John in every single quadrant and he knew he would probably never have any sort of chance with him. Karkat knew, or so he thought, John's feelings towards his quadrants. Of course Karkat had learned his lesson and wasn't about to let his fucked up feelings ruin yet another relationship.

Of course that didn't mean Karkat wouldn't go whining to Kanaya and Rose about his sick attraction to the human. Karkat was in fact, spending yet another afternoon, at least he thought it was afternoon, in the common room with Kanaya avidly listening to his words and Rose piping up every so often. Except today Rose was a bit more detached from the conversation and Karkat didn't understand why.

"I just, I don't fucking get it Kanaya! Why the fuck am I so messed up?! Why do I constantly need one person in every single quadrant?! It's stupid!" The distressed cancer troll let out a long sigh as the Jade blood spoke.

"It is just the way you are Karkat. My theory is that you care so much for that single person that you need them in every quadrant so you can show them that you care for them at all angles." The Knight of Blood shrugged and glanced over at the Seer who was sitting comfortably in a chair across from him, tapping the letter keys on her laptop's keyboard.

"Hey asshole," Karkat called out to the Seer who didn't even bother to look up. "Are my problems not significant enough to tear you away from whatever dumbfuck activity you're partaking in?" Rose chuckled and nodded, continuing to tap away at the letter keys. "What are you doing anyway?" Karkat questioned as he shifted so he sat cross legged.

"Oh, just talking to John. We're discussing the various plot twists in different Nic Cage films and how they can relate to one another and trying to discover theories that each one of his movies happened in the same universe." The troll rolled his eyes but didn't bother to pester the Seer anymore which was what she wanted. In reality she and John weren't discovering whatever lie Rose just pulled out her ass, instead she was trying to help John yet again with his sexuality crisis.

EB: i just don't know what to do!
TT: Do what you feel is right.
EB: that doesn't help me rose!!!!!!
TT: Alright, fine. Tell me the various possibilities of what could happen if you do tell Karkat about your fluctuating feelings towards him.
EB: well if I DO tell him then maybe he won't feel the same way and will just take what i said when I first rejected him and throw it back in my face or accuse me of lying and being a mega dickhead back then.
EB: OR maybe he does like me but it's still that weird hate-love thing he used to feel for me! or it could be one of the other four romances.
EB: there's also the small chance that he does like me back that way and he and i live happily ever after.
TT: Alright now tell me what might happen if you decide against telling Karkat your jumbled up emotions.
EB: i would save myself the humiliation of rejection or i would miss a great opportunity.
TT: A great opportunity, eh?
TT: Well John I believe you have found your answer.
EB: yeah maybe...
TT: Maybe?
EB: well....what if this really IS just a phase for me? maybe that's why i'm so confused. maybe i do ask karkat out and we're together and shit and one day i wake up and realize i don't like him that way and i end up breaking his heart again!
EB: i don't want to be a douchebag rose.
TT: You're already one. We all are.
EB: ugh i know.
EB: sigh
EB: besides, i'm still into chicks too.
TT: Bisexuality does exist. John. 

EB: i don't think i'm bisexual.....but that is a good theory. It helps me get one step closer to finding out whatever the fuck I am. 

EB: uuuuuughhh, why is this so hard????

TT: You are trying to figure out one piece of yourself, you honestly couldn't of expected to just say "I'm gay." or "I'm bisexual." or whatever other sexuality you could be and be done with it.

EB: no i didn't expect that but i didn't expect to spend such a long time on this.

TT: Well John, different people handle this different ways.
EB: yeah yeah

EB: i'm going to go alchemize some incredibly shitty cake to help me relax.

TT: You have fun with that and make it a chocolate.

-- tentacleTherapist[TT] ceased pestering ectoBiologist[EB] -- 

Rose closed her laptop and let out a quiet sigh. One problem was somewhat resolved, now to move on to the next. The Seer looked over at Kanaya who was mumbling some advice in a soothing tone to the small troll trying to suffocate himself on her lap. The Sylph looked over at her matesprit, not stopping her words of comfort.

Rose glanced down at her laptop then back at Kanaya and shook her head, rolling her eyes as she did so. Kanaya nodded, understanding what Rose meant. It was often tiring dealing with both John and Karkat, the two of them were constantly pestering Rose and Kanaya with their confusing feelings for one another. At times Kanaya wanted to drag the two boys down to the common room by their ears and sit them down while Rose explained to each of them the other's feelings. Sadly, if the two of them did that they would have a very upset Karkat on their hands and they'd have face John's disappointed glances as well. 

For the time being, Rose and Kanaya were perfectly fine with counselling Karkat and John individually. Hopefully their helpful words and subtle nudges would lead the two of them where exactly where they want to be, with each other. Even if  both of them were too stubborn to admit it.

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