These tear stained t-shirts,

Stained with the memory,

Past of taking me away,

Flying away,

Into a ball of zoning out,

Songs max volume,

Who knew loneliness ,

Had such affect,

Anxiety attack,

These walls crumbling in,

Isolation fact,

After panic attack,

No help,

No distractions,

Voice's in my head back,

Throbbing of thoughts,

Numb with alcohol,

No more parts to block out,

The memory of you,

Wondering what happened to you,

How's isolation treating you,

Why can't you leave,

Been nearly a year now,

Yet the memory of past love lingers,

Scars never leave,

New love,

Not distract just bring me back,

Why does my heart do this,

The closing in walls,

Laying on the floor,

Wishing someone told me it would be okay,

Yet phone blank,

No notifications,

Wonder what happened,

Test of friendship,

Are they loyal or not,

Is isolation taking them over to,

Did they always hate me,

Am I the annoying friend,

Guess it's time to move on,

I'm the ghost of who I use to be.