Melody’s P.O.V

“You’re being an ass Richie, he’s your best friend. It’s been three weeks and you two dickheads are still acting like sassies.”

I’m sitting in Richie’s room and we’re trying to watch a movie. I’ve been coming to his house every day since he left the hospital three weeks ago. Heck, I’ve even been spending some nights. Like tonight.

After I left the hospital room I ran into Richie’s mom. I didn’t feel like dealing with her mean ass, so I tried to walk pass her, but she blocked my path. I don’t know what I ever did to this woman to make her hate me. I tried to side step her, but this ancient witch was looking for a fight.

“Look lady, I don’t have time for this, I really need to pee.”

The woman looked at me like I just told her I’m going to rob a bank. I hate stuck up people, how the hell did she get a son like Richie. They are like night and day, and they clearly hate each other. Richie’s mom got pass her disgust and narrowed her eyes at me. So much hatred and evil there, it’s bone chilling. But I’m not afraid of this woman.

“Listen to me young lady, you stay the hell away from my son. I know what you want and you’re not gonna get your hands on it, if it’s the last thing I do. If anyone is going to benefit from him, it’s me his mother.”

And she thinks I’m a gold digger, when she’s trying to scam her own son. I’m bout to let this woman have it.

“Lady the only thing I want from your son is his dick, and if you’re telling me I can’t have it and you deserve it more than me, then you are one nasty ass woman.”

I laughed at the horrified look on her face as I walked off. I was half way to the toilets, because I wasn’t lying when I said I needed to pee, when I saw Max walking out of the hospital looking like he’s set for war. What was that all about?

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“I’m not being an ass I’m just defending the bro code, which he broke.”

Richie interrupted my thoughts and I snorted.

“Bro code my ass, I’m not your property, Richie.”

He got up from the bed and stood, leaving me there. He starts to pace, mumbling to himself. I have learnt that when he gets like this it means he’s upset and stupid shit is bound to come out of his mouth. At first it used to piss me off, but now I just ignore it.

“How can you say that, Mel, after the last week and a half?”

He stopped pacing and turned to look at me. His hand going over his face and then through his hair.

“What are we, Mel? And don’t say friends because I’ll be incline to think you sleep with all your guy friends.”

I jumped from the bed too, throwing my hands up and grunting.

“I don’t know what we are, Richie. Is that what you wanna hear!? I haven’t a clue what’s going on between us and quite frankly I don’t really wanna look too deep.”

He standing close to me now. “Let me get this straight, you don’t know what we are, you don’t wanna look too deep, yet you were willing to let me use your body every night for the past week and a half? Unbelievable!”

He turned his back on me. I understand why he’s acting the way he is, but I just can’t let myself feel too much for him. I put up a fight for a week and a half when he first came out of the hospital and it was easy because he was placed on bed rest. However, the moment he was given the all clear I ended up in his bed.

I kept telling myself to stay away from him, to break things off and keep my distance, but it becomes harder and harder every day to fight my feelings. But I know I have to, if not for me then for him. I will not turn into my mother!

“What’s so unbelievable about it? I’m offering you what a lot of guys would love to have, a sex with no strings attach relationship.”

I watched his face harden. I know I’m pushing him away but I feel like I have to. I just can’t let myself go too far with him, because I know we will end up hurting each other in the long run. I just don’t wanna have to deal with the shit my parents deal with every day.

“I don’t want a no strings attach relationship with you, I want all the strings to be tied on very tight. I want you Melody, all of you not just piece of you.”

I looked away from him as I spoke. I don’t want him to see how much all this is really hurting me. But most of all I don’t want to see the emotions that are in his eyes. They might just break me, and I can’t have that.

“I don’t know if I can do that, Richie. Look how I’ve already come between you and your best friend, I’m just gonna mess up yo life.”

He turned me around to face him. “That’s bull and you know it, you didn’t come between me and Max. Max ruin our friendship when he stood in my hospital room and basically told me he’s going to fight me for you.”

My eyes widen, “What! Why would Max do that, you’re his best friend?”

Come to think of it, Max has been acting strange lately. He didn’t care so much any more about rebuilding his friendship with Richie. Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m doing all the pushing and these two fools are like moving mountains.

He pulled me into his arms and I go without protest, just like I always do.

“He did it because he’s in love with you.”

I jump back, startle. Shaking my head. “No he’s ain’t, yo mind is just playing tricks on you. Sure he likes me, but that’s only as a friend, nothing more.”

Richie snorted, “Stop fooling yourself, Mel. He’s in love with you and I don’t blame him, because I know how it feel to love you and it’s the best feelings in the world.”

I can’t have him being in love with me, I just can’t. This is not the way it’s supposed to turn out. He’s not supposed to fall in love with me. This just messes things up. I need air, I need to leave and think things through. I need to be away from him, I can’t think with him standing to close.

“I-I can’t… you can’t… I need to go.”

I rushed towards the door, but his hands came around me and I melted. I closed my eyes as he turned me to face him. I feel the tears falling from my eyes and his hand gently wiping them away. My heart is hurting so much it feels like I’m dying.

“Please.”

I begged. I don’t know whether I’m begging him to let me go or let me stay. My head is confused. I opened my eyes and he’s looking at me with those emotion in his eyes. Breaking down my barriers. I am fighting, but I don’t think am bout to win.

“I can and you can. I love you Mel, say you love me too.”

His lips are close to mine but not touching, I don’t want to say it. Saying it will make it real, and I don’t want it to be real. I’m fighting, but then his lips touched mine and already I’m gasping for air.

“I love you Mel, say you love me too.”

The barriers are down, I’m broken. There’s no denying what I feel anymore.

“I love you Richie.”

His lips are on mine and I know what I have to do. I’m going to have to let him go. I will not end up like my mother!