Chapter 24

Ledrick

Harmony P.O.V

I shouldn’t be doing this. This should feel wrong, but god does it feel right. I hate myself for doing this. What kinda person would do something so vile? My god, I’m going to hell!

“I-I don’t think we should be doing this in here.”

Although the words came out of my mouth, I didn’t mean it. I wanted to do much more to him. God! How I wanted to do more. So, so much more.

“If you stop thinking, things would go much better.”

I chuckled. His lips moved from mine to my neck, I moaned deep in my throat. My hands came up into his hair, gripping it. He grunted from the pain, but he never stopped. My back was suddenly against the wall, with both my hands above my head, locked in place by one of his.

I bit my lips, cutting off the moan that was about to escape. His lips were back on mine and I couldn’t get enough of him. I needed to touch him, my hands demanded it, but every time I tried to move he held me a little tighter.

I was becoming desperate, I just needed to touch him. I was about to protest, but that was cut off when I felt his free hand on my thigh. I gasped then closed my eyes and moaned. My body felt like it was made for him to touch.

As he moved his hand up my thigh, I felt the fire in the pit of my stomach start to spread through my body. From my thigh to my waist, the fire grew. But when his hand cupped my breast, I felt like I was going to combust. No other guy have ever made me feel such heat before. The burning was one I never wanted to cool.

He let go of my hands and I immediately started grabbing at his shirt. I just about manage to drag it off. Both of his hands grabbed my ass, lifting me. I laced my hands around his neck and hooked my legs around his waist. He grabbed at the hem of my shirt, pulling it off and throwing it to the ground. The kiss started to get a lot more heated and I was ready for the rest of him to be touching me.

My moans were getting loud. I was glad for the music playing down in the club because not only did it covered my moaning but it was about to cover my screams. I’m not being a hoe or anything. I don’t normally do this kinda thing, but when your heart wants someone it’s hard to not go after them. Even if that person is married.

Don’t be thinking shit about me! I never planned to hook up with a married man, it just happened. But anyway, that’s a story for another book. Right now, I’m more focus on getting into Connor’s pants.

We were kissing and feeling all over each other. I pushed my hand between our bodies, trying my best to undo is buckled and not break our connected lips. It was proving difficult, but I got it done in the end. He grabbed my panties and tore them. I gasped against his lips.

“Those were my favourite.”

He chuckled. “I’ll buy you a hundred more, that way I’ll be able to tear them off a hundred more times.”

Kinky. I like it! All thought of my ruin underwear left my mind when I felt him inside of me. I grabbed his hair and pulled hard. I bit and nibbled at his lips enjoying our bodies moving together.

He broke away from the kiss. My eyes found his blue ones, I saw so much passion and lust there. He slowly glides his thumb over my swollen bottom lips. My eyes caught the glint and I froze. All my misgivings about sleeping with a married man came hovering back to the surface.

I felt sick inside. I was breaking up someone’s home. What kinda women breaks up another woman’s home? Me, that who. How did I let myself become the other woman, the mistress, the other chick on the side? How do I tell my heart and my body that this is wrong?

Everything in me was telling me to stop, but I just couldn’t. Connor had some kinda voodoo hold on me that even though I knew what I was doing was wrong, I’d prefer to be living in sin than to live without him.

Y’all might think I’m just being a home wracking hoe, but it’s more complicated than that. Connor saved my life and without him I just might not be alive today. I owe him my life, but all he asked for was my love and I gave it to him without a second thought.

I don’t know his wife, I’ve never met her. Connor never talks about her and I never asked. I try to pretend like she don’t exist, but it’s times like this that I can’t keep fooling myself.

I’m backed up against the wall, having sex with the only man that I think I’ll ever love, with a reminder of his wife sitting on his finger. My life couldn’t get any more messed up now, could it?

Just as things started to heat up there was a knock on the door. Connor groaned but left whoever was there to wait.

As soon we were finished, I started getting dress. My underwear was ruined so I left them lying on the floor. I was feeling pretty guilty, but not guilty enough to call whatever we had off.

The knocks started coming again but this time louder. Connor ignored it, his eyes were just focus on me. I tried to smile, but I just didn’t have the strength to muster up one. He took my hand into his, pulling me close to him.

“I can hear the wheels turning in your head. Just stop thinking about it and everything will be okay.”

“No, they ain’t. I don’t know what I am to you Connor. This is becoming harder and harder for me to deal with every day.”

He sighed. “You knew what you were getting into when you accepted my offer, Harmony. Everything was spelt out to you and you accepted it anyway. However, if you do choose to leave, you do so without my protection. You’d be on your own.”

I stared at him. I knew he was a cold-hearted son of a bitch when I first met him, but what he just said was another level. He’d left me to be killed if I decided to leave him. Why do I always pick up guys who only want to use me? Why can’t I be as lucky as Melody?

“How can you say that? I’ve paid my debt to you and you know it. So don’t make it out like I haven’t. You said as long as I loved you and no one else you’d protect me from those guys my ex-sold me to. And I’ve only loved you. If you don’t believe me ask those guys you're using to follow me around.”

He smirked. “They are there for your protection, nothing more.”

I rolled my eyes and snorted. Protection my black ass.

“I’m not an idiot, Connor. I know you don’t trust me, so you’re having me followed to see if I’ll slip up.”

From the look in his eyes I knew I was right. I don’t know what it is that he has against women, but he happened to think that all women are lairs and cheats.

“I ain’t gonna leave, I just think I deserve to know about your wife. I wanna know who sh—.”

“Enough!! This is the last time I’m going to say this… My wife is never be to mention again, do you understand me?”

I was shaking, I nodded my head and looked away. The tears were falling from my eyes. I hated crying, but lately crying is all I ever seem to do.

Connor turned my face to him. He used his thumb to wipe the tears away then kissed me softly on my lips. I closed my eyes letting him take over me like he always do. He pulled my body closer, smashing it to his. As he started to deepen the kiss, the door to his office busted open.

I tore my lips from his to see who it was. A beautiful blonde was standing looking at us. She looked at Connor then at me. I don’t think she liked what she saw because she started laughing.

“Really Con, couldn’t you get something a little classier? I feel offender that you would cheat on me with that. I think I deserve better.”

Oh my god! Did this bitch just called me that? Somebody better hold my weave because I’m about to slap this bitch.

I was ready to pull every last one of her blonde extension out, but Connor stopped me. He squeezed my hand and give me a hard look. I wasn’t scared of a lot of people but Connor is different. All the things I’ve seen him do, I be mad to mess with him and hope to come out alive.

“Scarlet, how nice of you to drop in. I am honoured that you left your seat beside the devil to grace me with your presence?”

Scarlet narrowed her eyes at Connor. I felt awkward being there. But those two didn’t seem to care that I was witnessing them insulting each other.

“I’d take a seat besides the devil any day than one more night in your bed. Hell! I won’t even be able to sleep with you if I wasn’t drunk.”

The muscle in Connor’s jaw contracted, his grip on my hands got tighter but I didn’t dare complain, for fear of being in his wrath also.

“I wouldn’t have to sleep with you if your father would stay out of my business. Come to think of it, I wouldn’t have married you if your entire family had just left me alone. But that all in the pass now, I have make it my life mission to bring you and your greedy family down. Even if it means that I will go down with you.”

Scarlet throw her head back and laughed. The sound lack any emotion and was very cold. An evil glint came into her eyes.

“You’re always so dramatic Con, it can be fun to watch at time, but now it just down right boring.”

She walked a little closer to Connor. Her hips moving in time with her words.

“Talk. That’s all you are and ever were. You’re not going to do anything, but try and embarrass me with your cheap whores you keeping taking to our apartment. But little do you know that you’re not the only one who gets to have a little extra marital fun.”

 Well damn! I suddenly don’t feel so bad about sleeping with a married man. These two were far beyond therapy, they needed god. I don’t know what was going on in their marriage, but I was started to feel glad that I didn’t know. I thought my life was messed up, but these two were f***ed up.

Scarlet turned and looked at me. She gave me a once over then smiled. I didn’t trust her as far as I can throw her. This bitch looked like one of them sneaky bitches. And it doesn’t pay to mess with a sneaky bitch, them bitches does play dirty.

“If I were you honey, I’d make for the hills. Connor Ledrick is not a good, he only ever brings pain and disperse to people’s lives. Woman to woman, leave while you still can.”

With that as her parting words, she turned and walked out of his office. I was standing there thinking, what the hell just happened?! I turned to ask Connor what that was all about, but from the look on his face I knew that asking was a bad idea.

A knock came again on the door and Connor swore.

“Whoever it is better have a good reason for disturbing me again.”

Mike, one of the bouncers stuck his head in the room. He looked like he was related to the incredible hulk. You’d be scared to even look at him.

“Boss, you wanted me to inform you when the cute cousin left. She just did.”

Mike delivered his message then left. I looked at Connor. Why the hell would he want to know about Deedee?

“What does he mean?”

I waited for him to answer but he just ignored me. I might not be so worried about myself, but I was not letting Deedee get messed up in my bullshit. Not if I can help it.

“Connor, why would you want to know about my cousin?”

I was determine to get answers, even if it killed me. I snatched my hand away from him.

“Answer me god damn it!!”

He smiled that sexy smile that always made me melt. But I wasn’t going to let myself be swayed by it. Not when it involved Deedee.

“I promised I’d protect you, and that protection also extends to your family. A lot of bad people wants you Harmony and they’d do anything to get to you, even harm the ones you love most.”

I was horrified. Why didn’t I think about that? I was so stupid to think London and his guys would leave me alone now that I was with Connor. All because of my stupid ex, Steve I’m in this mess. Now my family might get hurt because of it. I just ain’t gonna let that happen.

“Oh my god! I can’t go back there. I ain’t gonna put Deedee and her boyfriend’s lives at risk.”

Connor held me close to stop my shaking. I wasn’t even aware I was shaking. I felt so scared and lost.

“No need to worry your beautiful head over it, I’ve assigned a few protective details to your family. I’ll drop you back to your cousin and I’ll pick you both up for lunch tomorrow.”

Say what now? Hell no. ain’t no way I’m letting him pick me up from Deedee’s. I have no intention of letting her or anyone else find out about mine and Connor’s relationship. I know Deedee is going to be a little suspicious after I just left her and walked off with Connor, but that’s something I can easily explain. However, if he was to just show up at the house there would be a lot of questions for me to answer. Questions I wasn’t ready for just yet.