When Seokjin was suspecting Jisoo's comeback in their lives, Yoon Min literally thought he was overreacting.

Turns out, he might be right.

Every day, she had to stuck by her side during the filming hours by the request of the director himself. Which led Jisoo to slowly torture her without anyone’s notice. It was a great chance for her. She could have the secretary play around her finger like she wanted.

Yoon Min had to stay in a corner of her every scene for advice apparently. Actually Jisoo didn’t need any advices. She was an amazing actress, no doubt. The director and the producer thought ahead and appointed her as someone who could help her out. They didn’t know the actress would use this chance to slave the secretary as in her ex-boyfriend's wife.

Jisoo would taunt and insult her indirectly; mostly in discussion of Seokjin. She liked to make her think that she knew him more than her. And deserved him. Jisoo would ask for her advice sometimes, like how to plan a schedule and talk like a secretary. But only to mock her at the end. She would say either “Oh, I get it. It’s not a job for me anyway. I don't go around seducing my boss and pretend like a perfect secretary.” or “I actually know it but just wanted to see how you teach me. You must want to get some credits by teaching me, don't you?”

Also, when they were alone, she would order the other to do her errands. At first, they were little things such as picking up her pen, getting her beverage, fixing her shoes; but soon they turned into working like her servant literally. She was dangerously two-faced; she behaved very nice and polite in front of people, but in front of Yoon Min, she was a snake, always hissing at her and glaring with her bright, mad eyes.

And Yoon Min being the tolerant one, didn’t complain and acted like her puppet. She let the actress pull her strings and use her for her satisfaction. Though at times, she thought why she was doing this and why even she was playing her servant. There was one reason she found in her head.

What if Jisoo deserved Seokjin?

“You're awfully worried over something.”

Yoon Min came back to her senses by the voice of Seokjin. She was driving him home. He must've figured her out as he was sitting beside her.

“I'm not. Don't worry.” She lied like every time and focused on the road.

“If you think I believe you when you reply like that, then you're mistaken.” He didn’t look at her.

She answered a sigh and silence after.

Seokjin glanced at her, tried reading her facial expression and it didn’t take him long to catch the matter.

“It's about Jisoo, isn't it?”

He sounded very confident. “Isn't it? I knew it! Tell me, she's misbehaving with you. She's making you work like a dog, am I right?” The way his tone raised angry, it wasn’t good.

Yoon Min calmly replied, “Jin, it's fine. You're overreacting.”

“If getting mad at that vile woman for mistreating my wife is overreacting, then yes I am. I am overreacting.” His back flopped against the car seat as he looked away through the window, trying to calm himself. How could he not realize this soon?

After a minute, he glanced at her again and asked, “I mean why do you even answer her? Why do you do her errands, bear her harsh behaviour and even keep being her advisor? You don't owe her anything.”

His words rung inside her head, demanding why she kept followed her after all. But only Yoon Min knew deeply why she wasn’t backing away or fighting back against her.

There was some sort of guilt inside her heart. These days listening to Jisoo's harsh words only made her think if she never came into Seokjin's life, their relationship could've lasted today. If he didn’t fall in love with her, he would had still loved Jisoo. They weren’t happy of course. But still, they were seen as a pillar of strong love. Both were beautiful and handsome, powerful and popular.

Yoon Min was never beautiful. She wasn’t attractive in any way or possessed any special ability. She wasn’t rich or famous or talented, nothing. Just an ordinary girl with a weak heart. Whereas Jisoo's visuals couldn’t be described in words. She was a poetry, her everything. She was the dreamy woman of any man. Any man would do anything to get someone like her.

That was why, she was feeling insecure and unsafe. She was truly lucky and blessed that Seokjin chose her over the world. But now, she had questions, why did he? What was in her that failed Jisoo's perfection? Jisoo was good and best at everything and maybe she deserved him. These days, she told her facts about him she never knew. As if she really knew him better than her. She felt like a thief, she stole someone's man when she had nothing. If she was in Jisoo's place, she would've killed her already.

These stupid thoughts and doubts were the reason why she felt like she was indebt to Jisoo. It's her heart and mind that were forcing her to feel insecure. How surety was there that Seokjin will never lose interest in her? Who said he won't give up on her one day? She wasn’t exactly a diamond, just an ugly pebble.

“If you feel bad, then I can talk to the director. I can tell him that you feel overworked and you cannot focus on your job if you keep being her advisor. It'll be a piece of cake.”

Yoon Min returned to the reality from her foolish, stupid thoughts and heard him. She couldn’t let him know what she was feeling. He'll always tell her otherwise, but the fact whether he'll lie or not will always be secret. She obviously couldn’t tell him that she thought she didn’t deserve him. He would misunderstand.

With an inhale, she finally put a fake smile and pretended normal, “It's really nothing, Jin. I like being her advisor. And she's good to me, don't worry. Besides, I get to see Kim Soo Hyun every day. I can't sacrifice that.” She added a cheesy smile.

Seokjin had to scoff at her smile, “Unbelievable. Don't forget you're married!”

She laughed at his words, finally the atmosphere in the car settled calming and peaceful.

To be extra-sure, she moved her hand where his was and placed her over his palm. Automatically their fingers intertwined strongly, hinting a smile on his lips.

“I'm really fine, okay?” It wasn’t a question, but a gentle reminder.

Seokjin breathed lightly and looked through the window, holding her hand on his lap. He knew. He knew her very well. What she was thinking about, what she was worried about, what scarred her, what was going on inside her head, everything. And it also hurt him to see she never exposed her dark sides to him. He knew she needed a talk to make her realize she wasn’t any less perfect than Jisoo. In fact, she was more perfect than her.

He knew Jisoo was taking revenge on him by turning his wife's head upside down with insecure thoughts. He was sure she was spreading her venom in her pure heart. How could he tell Yoon Min that she was the only person who ever deserved him?

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The next day, Seokjin was working in his office as usual. There was a knock on his door to which he instantly allowed permission, as he assumed it was his secretary. But he was wrong.

His eyes were focused on the screen so he missed Jisoo entering and walking inside sensually. The sound of her heels clicking alerted him because the sound was very familiar, it reminded him of his troubled relationship.

“You're always so busy.”

Seokjin shifted his gaze on her and he was surprised from the inside. He shouldn’t had allowed her to come in.

“What do you want, Jisoo?” He said coldly yet gently, eyes changing to his computer.

Her lips curved up, “I just thought we should talk more often. You haven’t taken a proper look at me since I came. Feels like you don't even know me.”

He wanted to laugh at her honestly.

“Last time I remember, we ended things nicely.”

“Not for me. I didn’t want to break up. Not even once. It was you who took all the decision.” She scoffed afterwards.

She wanted to blame everything on him again. He couldn’t let that happen. He looked at her and stood up from his chair. “If you're gonna talk about the past, then I've got no time. I need to go to a meeting.”

Saying, he walked around his desk and walked pass her. But right then, she brought up some words.

“It's funny.” Somehow, he stopped when she started talking. “We used to be ourselves right in this office a few years ago. And now--”

The sadness in her voice was difficult to judge. But it felt real to the point he didn’t leave the room yet.

“I miss that. I miss all of that. I miss us. You, me loving one another, touching and talking...” She turned around to look at him, only to be met with his back. “I really miss you.”

Seokjin sighed at the sadness of her voice. He didn’t want to hurt anyone. He was kinder and forgiving than before. He turned around slowly and came across her eyes. Those same eyes he used to try to love.

“Jisoo...it's over. It's been years. I don't know if you're being truthful right now, but if you are, then I suggest you to move on.”

“I can't!” She shouted. “Don't you see I couldn’t? I only accepted this role just to see you! I wanted to see you again. Maybe talk with you too.” Her change of mood was scary. “But you know what's frustrating?”

He should've seen this coming.

“It's when I see her. That pathetic, illiterate orphan who stole you from me! I feel like jumping into fire when I see her with you. I see you laugh, smile, happy with her, and it angers me. Her presence disgusts me!”

Jisoo finally found the chance to share her buried emotions. She finally could express what she wanted to say from a long time. And finding his silence, it made her glad.

“When I see her with you, I want to murder her. I deserved you, I am the perfect one! But that bitch took you from me. She seduced you like a sly fox and I feel so disgusted! She's a whor--”

“Enough, Kim Jisoo!” Seokjin finally raised his voice though it took time. Fortunately, she was silenced with a scared look. “I'll not tolerate it if you utter one word against Yoon Min. How dare you say those things in front of me? After all these years, you haven't changed at all. I thought you were repenting but I was so wrong. You'll never fix your vision or your heart.”

He continued, “Don't think now you being here will change my mind. You can't fool me, Jisoo. I've grown out of feelings for you and they won't ever come back.”

Being a gentleman, he wrapped up there though there were a lot of things he could've told her. He took big steps to leave the room but was stopped again by her words.

“Why? You think I can't do it? I'll change your feelings. I'll make sure you want me again.” She sounded very confident which was foolish. But what she said next was horrible. “You'll leave her for me, Jin.”

Seokjin felt electrifying thrills run through his body when he heard her call him by that name. Right then, she disgusted him. He was furious and irritated that she called him that. He turned around and pointed his finger at her. With a low, cold voice, he warned her slowly,

“Only my wife calls me Jin. No one else. Get that inside your head.”

Jisoo smirked at his vulnerability. She heard Yoon Min call him by that nickname and she wanted to try it out, see how he gets mad, tease him slowly.

Seokjin didn’t waste another minute there as he took hasty steps and left his office in a bad mood.

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(This is a personal rant. Please ignore if you want)

I've been going through a very difficult moment recently. BTS announced their hiatus 4 days before my birthday so I'm still emotionally and mentally sick, hurt, scared, broken. I'm a little different from others. I see things differently than most people. So you probably won't see the negative sides of their hiatus and their solo debuts like I do.

I'm attacked by many negative events at once right now. I can't breathe when I'm alone, I cry whenever I think of BTS, I want to die when I think about the future. I always smiled a little thinking at least BTS will always be there. As an ARMY and a person who loves Jin more than anything in this universe, I am not okay with their hiatus. People are saying this is for good and they'll come back. But...what if they don't? What if this was a goodbye?

Yes I am happy about them spending time with themselves. They deserve that. They've been hurting too. I'm happy for their solo debuts too.

But for me...as a teenager, I feel so alone and scared. I don't know what to do without them. They've been my medicine, my home, my everything for a long time. I've loved them the most for all these years. So I'm really not okay no matter how I convince myself.

Not only this hiatus, some parts of my life are falling apart; parts of my life I never thought will end up like this. So overall, I am not mentally fine at all. I try my best to laugh and smile with my friends because they won't exactly understand me and feel my point. Also I don't wanna concern them regarding my stupid life.

Also it was my birthday and this day was...ruined as well. I wish I could turn back time and fix everything.

My point of saying all this shit is, I won't give up on Love Universe no matter what. I'll not use the word “Depression” for simple matters like mine right now. I'll continue writting this and I'll finish it. I just want to ask you a request which is forgive my mistakes and be kind to me please. Please support this book because you'll be saving my soul.

Thank You to whoever who read everything. And I'm sorry for my childish behaviour.