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Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

Jeff sighed as he opened the door to the condemned house he once lived in as a child. The sight of the items that remained inside scattered array depressed him a bit. Broken glass littered the floor, holes were punched in the dry wall from what Jeff had done himself, and in the midst of it all was the love of his life, lying on the carpeted floor asleep in the pile of shattered glass.

Jeff walked over to the sleeping girl and loomed over her. Her arms were lined up with bruises, hand prints, and bite marks. Her cheeks were stained below her closed eyes and her hair was catching the shards of glass that alined the floor.

Carefully, Jeff came to his knees and slid his arms under the girl's side in attempt to lift her but as soon as he made contact with her, her eyes snapped open and the normal fight began.

~~Your P.ov~~

You felt Jeff's icy hands slip under you, causing you to immediately stir awake and look up at him. The sight of him looming over you scared you and out of immediate instinct, you began fighting, swinging your arms every way at him until you felt his cheek crack under your fist but you didn't stop this time.

Jeff dodged every swing you threw at him and grabbed your arms tightly. The two of you growled like animals as he pulled you to your feet.

You continued fighting, squirming, and thrashing around in Jeff's grip. You elbowed him in his stomach and kicked him in his leg but after the years of abusive the two of you had sustained from one another, you were unaffected by each other's hits.

"Let me go! Let me go!"you screamed in anger, clawing at Jeff's hands that were now around your waist.

"______! Calm the fuck down!"Jeff shouted right back, slamming your back against the wall and pinning you there to hold you still.

"I said let me go! Don't touch me!"you screamed again, reaching up and punching Jeff square in the face. He growled and stumbled backwards while his hands flew to his nose.

~~~Jeff's P.o.V~~~

I glared at _____ angrily as I took my hand away from my face. I looked down at it and clenched my teeth in annoyance at the sight of the blood that colored my pale hand. I then looked back at her. She was still glaring at me yet smirking at the pain she had inflicted on me.

In a swift moment that smirk was gone when my knife was at her throat yet she never showed any signs of fear or distress. She only glared up at me.

"Go ahead..do it.."she hissed. I clenched my teeth, baring them at her like the animal I am yet she still never flinched or batted an eyelash. I don't know what it is about her but every time me and ______ quarrel like this, it only ends up with her testing me and me reframing from hurting her.

I can't do it. I can't hurt ______, yet I do it all the time. We hurt each other.

I can't tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe

I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight

High off a love, drunk from my hate,

Slowly I pull the knife away from _____'s throat but never took my eyes off hers. That evil smirk came back to her lips as she pushed me away, making me stumble back.

"Coward.."she hissed, spitting on me with her eyes like the disgrace or a person I am and yet, I cannot help but love that cold and spiteful glare she gives me.

Her eyes are cold like mine. She was just like me. Neither of us give a shit about how we harm the other yet we try our best to avoid doing it. As I regained my composure, our eyes met once more, hers still cold and full of hate yet this time when she raised her hand at me, it was pull me down for one of her rough kisses.

How she teases me.

It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate

And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me

She fucking hates me and I love it.

And suddenly as if never having our moment, ______ pulls away from me, takes one look at my face and is disgusted all over again. She pushes me away and storms down the hall.

I follow close.

"What the hell is your problem?"I shout.

"You're my fucking problem Jeff! You inconsiderate asshole!"she would shout right back.

"I didn't do anything! You're having a fucking mood swing again!!"I would scream. But she would only go to the room we share as one and grab a bag. I would watch her close, shouting at her, discouraging her. Anything to keep her from leaving.

Wait! Where you going?
"I'm leaving you!"
No you ain't. Come back we're running right back.
Here we go again
It's so insane cause when it's going good, it's going great
I'm Superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snapped

"_____ stop! Where you gonna go? Your family is dead! Your friends all forgot about you and you're missing out there! You have no place to go!"I yelled from the door. _______ stopped immediately and dropped her bags.

She then -as usual- would fall to her knees and cry. No matter how many times she does it, I feel bad for her. I walk over, help her up and back inside. We wait for tomorrow together.

The next day I come home to find a man in a blue mask with _______. They weren't doing anything but chatting but what the fuck?!

"Hey!"I growled when he leaves. She turns to me.

"What?"she asks.

"WHo the fuck was that?"I ask.

"Jack."_______ answered me coldly. Before I register what's happening, I'm holding _______ by the wrist and pinning her to the wall. She's yelping in pain but I ignore it.

"If you ever bring another guy in this house, I'll kill him."I growl. _______ would look away from me and shove me away, only to stomp down the hall and lock me out of the bedroom.

I didn't mean to put my hands on her like that.

Who's that dude?
"I don't even know his name."
I laid hands on her, I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

~~Your P.o.V~~~

You laid in your sloppy bed that you and Jeff both share. Tears are coming from your eyes and sobs too loud to be silenced by fear are coming from your throat.

You knew Jeff was listening on the other side. It would only be moments before he'd beg you to let him in, apologize, and like the idiot you were, you'd forgive him and everything would start right back over again.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

It didn't used to be this way. There was a time when Jeff truly loved you. Never hurt you nor made you cry. But then..something hit the fan one day and the two of you ended up screaming at each other and going to war with one another. To this day that war still goes on and it makes you feel sick. You cant even look Jeff in the eye anymore for you hate him so much. And yet, you can't help but love him at the same time. Why?

You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe when you're with 'em
You meet and neither one of you even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah, them chills you used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick of looking at 'em

~~~Jeff's P.o.V~~

I don't know what happened. We used to be so in love but now..it's a warground. I don't know what ______ is thinking half the time, whether he loves me or despises me. Her moods change so often its hard to keep up.

I found that most of our conversations end up with us yelling, hitting, and breaking things. I never hit her badly, maybe a little punch at the arm but she's always hitting me, slapping me, kicking me spitting in my face.

She hates me.

You swore you'd never hit 'em; never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face spewing venom in your words when you spit them
You push, pull each other's hair, scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down, pin 'em

So lost in the moments when you're in them
It's the rage that took over it controls you both
So they say you're best to go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know you 'cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records playing over but you promised her
Next time you show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it window "pain"

But then..she loves me again. When I'm sitting alone on the couch, staring at the broken glass that scattered the floor, she would come in, sit beside me, perhaps lay her head on my chest and allow me to kiss her only on the cheek or forehead. I savor those moments. I am reminded of how gentle and precious she really is.

It's hard on her I know, me too. But I love her to much to destroy any peaceful moment I get with her but accusing her of starting our endless war.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

We promise each other to stop fighting. We both want an end to this war.

But then..It starts all over again.

Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love you're just as blinded

~~Your P.o.V~~

"I cant do this anymore Jeff.."you say. The dark hair boy looks up at you from his spot on the couch. He frowns, despite his carved smile, at the sight of your bags.

"_____, I told you. Where're you gonna go?"he asks.

"I don't care what you say Jeff. I don't know but..I'm going. You can't stop me this time."You say, turning to leave. Jeff hopped to his feet and followed you.

"______.._____ please don't go! There's no place for you!"he shouts.

"I know. You've shown me that Jeff."You say back softly. He reaches for your wrist but you pull away.

"_______ don't go! You do belong somewhere and it's here with me! I love you so much!"

"I don't feel it at all Jeff. Goodbye.."

Baby, please come back
It wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk

"I'll do better! Please don't go!"Jeff pleaded with you but still you shook your head. You were done.

Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed, I'll lay my fist at the drywall
Next time? There will be no next time!

~~

You left Jeff that night and it had been months since you'd seen him. Though he was right. You had no place to go. You were homeless and had gotten into drugs. Your life was a wreck and spiraling out of control.

But one day, while you were suffering from cold turkey sweats and shivering on the dark streets, a familiar white hooded man approached you. You tried to avert eye contact with him but you couldn't ignore his presence. He sat down beside you and wrapped an arm around your shoulder.

"Come home."he whispered. "I'm sorry.." You matched eyes with him. They were cold and dark from his obvious lack of sleep. He was also thin and paler than usual.

It was apparent that since you both had been apart from each other, neither of you took care of yourselves. In truth, you really did need one another and had missed each other's cold company.

"Alright.."You whisper back.

But then everything you had once left behind starts all over again. The yelling, cursing, attacking. All of it. And you couldn't escape this time.

I apologize even though I know its lies
I'm tired of the games I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
Im'a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

I'm just gonna

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

But..It wasn't like you wanted to for Jeff had come to find the source of your moodswings and randomly irritable moments.

You were pregnant..with his kid. It's only make sense you were crazy.

From that moment, Jeff promised to do better and be better. And it seemed he had, he hardly ever yelled, or got mad for that matter. But remember..Jeff is a very good liar.

Only Time will tell where this relationship will really go.

I love the way you lie