Shawn Mendes

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"Are you ready for the concert, Brian?", I looked around the corner of the bathroom, where he stood, fixing his hair, shirtless.

Somehow I managed quite well to not get turned on by this- was that a bad thing?

"I'm almost ready.", he said.

"Hurry. We can't be late.", I wiped my sweaty hands on my dark jeans and sat on the couch again, only to immediately jump up again and start pacing.

"Are you nervous?", Brian asked me as he walked out of the bathroom, fully dressed and ready.

"A bit.", I admitted as Brian sat me down on the couch and kneeled before me, my hands in his.

"I know it's probably not my right to know, or maybe it is, because I'm your boyfriend. But... are you maybe... still in love with Shawn?"

I shook my head as I jumped up, he did as well: "No, absolutely not.", he frowned at me, but I still shook my head: "I'm not a cheater!", I said devastated and he smiled a bit to calm me down.

"I don't believe that you are. I just think that maybe you were wrong to believe that you and Shawn don't belong together. And I should've seen it sooner.", he chuckled a little.

"I'm not in love with Shawn"

"Whatever you say.", he said. And with that we didn't talk until we reached the venue.

-

"Hey guys. I'm so glad you could make it.", Shawn approached us and hugged us tight.

It was this awkward tension between Brian and I right now and Shawn was always really good at sensing when something was wrong. That's why, when he pulled away he eyed us curiously: "Is everything okay with you two?"

I didn't want to talk about it. So I said I needed some air and joined Tiffany in the outfitting room.

Shawn's point of view

"What's this all about?", I asked Brian as Nathalie left the room.

"I don't even know anymore. Don't you think it's all a little awkward. I mean, she was your girlfriend, then she randomly forgot about you- literally- and now she's dating me? Your best friend? And she doesn't even remember all of you still- a lot, yes, but not enough. That's so messed up. I mean, what if she remembers everything one night and the next morning she's in love with you again. This will just hurt our friendship.", Brian looked sad. I knew it. I knew him.

I knew I shouldn't ask, because it was none of my business. Nathalie wasn't mine anymore. But I couldn't help myself: "You are in love with her, right?"

He looked at me surprised and then sighed: "I don't know. When I look at her I still see your girl, but also someone else, someone new. Someone who might be the right one for me. But the more she remembers you, the less I see this person that interests me so much. It's like, when the real Nathalie comes through- the one from before the accident- the one I was seeing disappears.", he sat down against the wall and I sat down next to him.

"I get that feeling. For me it's the other way around. The more she remembers me the more I find myself still in love with her.", I played with the rings on my hand.

"We officially have the weirdest friendship ever.", Brian suddenly started laughing and I started as well.

"Yah. We do."

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Nathalie's point of view

"Good luck", I wished Shawn as he ran on stage and the crowd started cheering.

It was the last concert for that year. The end of the 5th year we knew each other.

I swayed to his songs, together with Tiffany and the others. Only Brian stayed farther back, watching from afar.

After a while I couldn't stand it anymore. I had to talk to him.

"Brian, what's wrong.", I said as I reached him and he sighed.

"Nathalie, I know you wouldn't admit it to yourself, but I believe- I know that there's a part of you that still loves Shawn.", I shook my head again, ready to tell him that he was wrong, but he wouldn't let me speak: "I know you can't accept that for yourself, because you are too nice to admit to yourself that you love your current boyfriends best friend. But you should. I'm not the one that you want. Maybe right now you feel like I am, but if you only remembered everything about Shawn you'd know that he is the only one for you out there."

I had a lump in my throat. Was he right? Maybe I only needed to remember all of Shawn?

But what if he was wrong? Or what if I could never remember all of him again?

But Brian knew me well. He knew what I was thinking. So he hugged me tight and whispered in my ear: "For once, don't think about it. Just do what your heart tells you to do.", with that he pulled away and left, leaving me deciding what to do next. I walked back to watch Shawn, trying to calm my thoughts and to start listening to my heart.

And in that second Shawn started talking.

Shawn's point of view

"You guys don't know this, but I've had a rough year. Standing here today is a miracle.", I pushed my hair out of my sweaty face and continued talking, letting my gaze glide over the crowd.

"My girlfriend was a victim in the terrorist attack, leaving her in a coma for 6 months and after she woke up with no memory of me.", I cleared my throat, because I felt the emotions burning hot, trying to overwhealm me.

"After that I wasn't in a great place. I drank to much and did other things I'm not proud of, especially giving in to my anxiety, almost letting it win, because I wasn't strong enough. Luckily my family and friends were, and also you guys, you helped me so much to find my way back to this stage.", the people started screaming and adrenaline rushed through my veins again, giving me strength.

"You all know how much this song means to me. This is Falling all in you."

As I played the song I looked backstage, hoping to catch a glimpse of Nathalie. She knew I wrote this song about her- or at least she once knew.

She stood in the front, smiling gently at me, but as I locked eyes with her I saw something shift in her gaze, that for a second it looked like she was crying.

Then suddenly she fainted...