As the wedding dance got closer I grew more and more anxious- even worse, Shawn was nowhere to be seen.

"Hey, I'll go to the restroom real quick, alright baby?", I said to Jackson, kissed his cheek and got up, right when the main dish was served. I wasn't hungry- hell, I wanted to throw up.
Why did I let them talk me into this?

I sat down on the floor in front of the Party room and closed my eyes, taking deep breaths. My heart was racing and I felt like my inside was turning out. It was the morst horrible feeling ever. And time was not on my side, cause when I opened my eyes again I had two minutes left to prepare for my song.

"Oh my god", I gasped under my breath and started pacing, when familiar hands grabbed me and turned me towards him: "Hey, what are you doing?"

I was so relieved to see him, that I quickly wrapped my arms around him and pressed my face against his chest: "Shawn, where were you?", I sobbed slightly. Just his presence calmed my nerves. I felt my stomach untwist and my heart beat slowing down. I felt so much better with him being by my side.

"I'm sorry. The meeting took longer than expected. But I'm here now. I promised I'd be here. Relax." we released each other and now stared in each others eyes.

"I'm sorry. I can't do this. Look at all those people. This is madness.", I let my eyes slide over his clothes. He wore a black jeans, leather shoes, a plain black jacket with a white shirt underneath, no tie or anything. But he looked so much more elegant, than all of the other guests combined.

"Look. I perform in front of thousands of people on a regular basis. Those people in there are 200, maximum. If I can do this, then so can you!"

I started pacing again, now my hands started to sweat profusely and I felt my heart beating out of my chest again. Just mentioning this situation that I was in made me freak out.

"Nathalie stop!", I grabbed me and held me in place.

"I can't! I...", I started, but suddenly I felt him pressing his lips on mine.

It was like time was standing still. The only thing I felt, the only thing that mattered in this moment were his lips on mine.

I didn't know how to react, but I knew that I wanted this. So I closed my eyes and enjoyed his soft lips moving on mine. Butterflies started polka dancing in my stomach and all my anxiety was suddenly long forgotten. But I wanted more. I wanted him.
Before this could go any further however, he pulled away, leaving me breathless and wishing for more.

I opened my eyes and stared into his golden brown ones, glistening with hope- and something else I couldn't quite identify: "Now you go in there, and you kick some ass. Understood?"

I couldn't speak, so I just nodded. He gave me a smile, then walked past me into the party room.

I stood there for a moment, frozen, touching my lips, remembering, before turning around, walk into the room and enter the stage.

"Ladies and Gentlemen, "; I spoke into the mic, my eyes searching the crowd, until I locked them with Shawns: "The wedding dance"

https://youtu.be/sEwTe8LMCyI

When I opened my eyes again I was greeted by loud applause and a happy couple, crying tears of joy, embraced in a tight hug.
And I just smiled...
Pure happiness was what I was feeling. I finally conquered my biggest fear. I was free. And all thanks to...

Jackson approached me and hugged me tight. But my eyes met Shawns in the middle of the multitude. They were filled with pride, but also with disappointment. He smiled at me sadly, then turned around and disappeared in the crowd.
I wouldn't have loved anything more than to run after him.
Thank him.
Beg him to stay.

But I had a boyfriend.