I didn't call Mackenzie or even text her because I had to come up with what to say. Truthfully, I wish I could just lie to her about everything but she's so damn difficult.

This morning, I moved as slow as I could, I'm just not feeling school today at all. I wore khaki cargo pants, a light blue button down shirt, navy bow tie, and boat dock shoes. I'm really trying to look the best I can today to distract her from what I'm saying. I mean, Ken isn't uptight with stuff, but she's not the most calm with me. Her and I kinda just have that kind of relationship, we yell and curse at each other, and I just hope it turns into us having sex.

School today is very slow and boring, yet when it hit 12:00 for lunch, I knew it was going to end. Around 12:30 I went upstairs to the cafeteria, finding Mackenzie, I sat down directly in front of her. First, she looked but didn't say anything to me.

"Come on baby, don't ignore me." I tried touching her hand at which she pulled away.

"Hey Shay!" She waved at some girl at a nearby table.

"Babe, don't do that shit. I'm really trying to talk to you."

"Ryan, I said don't talk to me unless you figure who that bitch is. Since you act like you don't know her ass." Ken packed her things and left the cafeteria. Like always, I ran after her.

"I found out who she is!" I yelled down the stairwell.

Mackenzie stopped immediately and looked up at me. I ran down the stairs until I made it in front of her.

"So....you really didn't know her?" She asked looking up at me with puppy dog eyes.

I could see in her eyes she was sorry about not believing me. I wish all this drama would just go away but I know it's not. I just don't want anymore negativity brought into our relationship, we should only be thinking about each other, not people in the past.

"We should go to the library to talk." I grabbed her hand and lead her through the school. I wanted to go somewhere calm, hopefully she won't spaz if people are around.

We walked into the library, of course it was extremely quiet. Many students were studying or typing. From the entrance, I could see an empty table sitting in the corner. Taking no extra time, I made my way to the table and pulled out Ken's chair. Sitting down across from her, I took a few deep breaths.

"Who was she? It was a prank from your friend or something?" Mackenzie asked with joy in her voice, she held my hands and kissed the back of them.

"It was someone from the past...."

"Oh.." She replied dropping my hands and putting hers under the table. Weirdly, my hands felt cold without her touch.

"You know someone by the name of Lauren?"

"No, I don't. Why should I?" I could tell she was beginning to get angry.

"Lauren Moore?"

"No, I don't know who the fuck that is Ryan."

"Baby, just listen to me for a second. You know her, if you don't know her personally, then you've seen her before."

"Ryan, I'm telling you I don't know this bitch. You obviously do tho, she's your girlfriend." Ken tried her best to whisper but it didn't work, she was still speaking loudly.

"Let me show you a picture of her." I pulled out my phone and opened Instagram.

"Sure, you want me to see a picture of your girlfriend. I don't know what you're interested in, but I'm not talking to you when you have a girlfriend." She went to stand up and leave, at which I stopped her.

"Can you please just listen to my Kenzie? I don't go with her and we were never in a relationship." She took a deep breath before sitting down.

"I'll listen, but don't touch me."

"Ok, I won't touch you."

"What does she look like?"

Unlocking my phone again, I pressed a picture of Lauren that was clear, hopefully Ken would recognize her. She looked at the picture and her eyes widened, shit....I lowkey was hoping she didn't know her.

"Lauren....."

"Yeah, so you know her?"

"Of course I know her."

"Can you explain how? I mean...I know how but we're you guys friends?"

"Yeah, we were friends until she moved away. I met her through Chris, since I was his girlfriend I went around his family a lot, and Lauren was our age. So, we all hung out together and stuff since she was his cousin."

"Wow.." I mumbled, I shook my head and covered my face. I really don't know how she's going to react.

"What? How do you know her?"

"Ugh well, I met Chris and them through Derrick, so we all would hang out."

"And?" Shit...

"Well...Chris had a party one time and that's how I met Lauren. We were all smoking and stuff and you know how stuff happens.."

"I know how stuff happens? What happened?"

"Before you and I even started talking, Lauren and I were cool and we had sex that night." Mackenzie didn't do anything but look at me.

"Wow....it was before me so I can't say much."

"Yeah." I replied, rubbing the nap of my neck.

"You guys only had sex one time right?" Shit, why does she always have so many questions, everything could have been over by now.

"Not exactly, we messed around a few more times after that, it wasn't anything serious tho. We just had sex and that was it."

"Ha.." She chucked then shook her head, yet I knew it wasn't funny to her at all.

"I-it was really short lived, nothing serious. We got bored with each other...you know?"

"Actually I don't know but...you used protection every time right?" Ken moved forward, making sure I heard every word.

"Ummmm....for the most part." I nodded my head and tried my best to make it sound casual.

"Ha..for the most part? Ha..are you fuckin serious?"

"Babe, it was before you and I even started. We were high, only a few times but we stopped after...ya know..."

"After what? What happened?" I could tell she was panicking, we didn't catch an STD or anything.

"It wasn't an STD or anything...just a baby.." I tried my best to make it sound small.

"A BABY?!" She screamed, everyone in the library looked at us and the librarian rushed to our table.

"Excuse me, this is a library and you can't speak loudly." This old bitty was angry.

"We're sorry for the outburst, it won't happen again."

"It better not.." She said pointing her finger at us. We watched as she walked away, then I went back to Ken.

"No wonder I haven't seen her in ages...you got her pregnant and she moved away."

"Ken, that's not what happened.."

"Then what happened? You're not exactly telling me anything, you came inside of her. Like my gosh."

"Ok Mackenzie, do you understand this shit was before you. For a second can you not overreact to something and actually listen to what the fuck I have to say?"

"I'm sorry I wasn't prepared for something like that, I guess I'll listen then."

"Ok, then be fuckin quiet."

"Ok, nigga."

"Shit, like I said. We both were high and when you're high sometimes you can't exactly hold it in as long as you can when you're not high. Both of us were stupid and didn't pick up a condom then I just came inside of her."

"Did she have the child?" I could tell it was hurting her a little asking this question.

"Because she didn't know right away and was completely stupid, Lauren kept partying, drinking and smoking. Then once she found out she didn't really care, she wanted to kill the baby but her parents wouldn't conceit to it because she was still a minor. Umm..after that she went into labor but because of her drinking and stuff the baby died that night."

"Oh...I'm sorry baby, Chris never told me." She reached out and grabbed my hands holding them.

"Yeah well, we all never spoke about again after that. Lauren moved away because of her dad's job, I stopped thinking about it because it just pissed me off she was so fucking careless about everything. My parents were happy I didn't have a kid and.....yeah."

"Shit...no one ever told me. I do remember there being a time where I didn't see her, but no one said anything about it."

"Yeah...that's why I'm confused about her calling me her boyfriend and calling me all together. She blamed me for everything, when I felt like it was both of our faults. We shouldn't have been so careless."

"Well....maybe she wants to get back with you after all this time.." Mackenzie still held my hands but looked down, not making eye contact with me.

"I never wanted to date her to begin with, and after all of that, I'm really not interested in dealing with her. You're the only one I want." I brought her face to mine and kissed her lips.

"You're the only one I want too."

"NO KISSING IN THE LIBRARY!" The librarian yelled at us, causing again everyone to look our way.

"We should go to class." I said to Mackenzie, we got up, kissed, then went our separate ways.

Though I told Mackenzie everything was ok and everything was great. I was worried about if Lauren really was coming back, and wanted something. Everything I told Mackenzie was true, aside from the fact that my parents paid almost everyone in Lauren's family off not to bring any of this up again. Yet....I really don't understand why she's back.