AARON

Day.....
Sitting here in the dark empty room, I wonder if she is still thinking about me. It has been 1 year and 2 days since the day they took her away. The day she've been taken away, it was nice and warm, bird singsongs were all I could hear under the thick canopy of the fig tree. We were so happy, camping out in the forest, trying to catch butterflies as they flied by. I remember I had made a loop of daisies into a headband, the headband looked so good on her golden hair, it still make my heart skips a beat remembering it. I remember how she whispered my name like it was a sacred word. I remember the heat that was vibrating from her body when we curled up into our little sleeping bag, how it made me paralysed, and the light from billions of stars in the night sky, contouring and highlighting her sweet curves. I remember....
I choke back the words, forcing they slide uncomfortably down my throat, back to my bleeding heart. One, two, three; one, two, three. I'm teaching myself how to breath, wishing my heart can beat normally again. I'm alway like this when I am thinking about her. The hard feeling of the memories of us together, like a lump rising in my throat, like a razor scarring my already broken heart, like a poisonous snake trying to grab hold of me and I'm fighting hard to stay alive. It's all to much, I should've listened to them.

Day....
The lights, the sounds of small talks in the surrounding blurred into a black and white motion picture around me. I automatically making compliments and lines as people passing by, they are trying to impress me or take advantage of me, none of them matter. Since she've been gone, my world lost its colour, though there was not much colour to start with. But when she's not here anymore, my world bleeds its meaning and purposes, everything turns black and white. It't the noises that I hate most. The unbearable noises, like millions of bees in a beehive, it makes my head ache so much I thought there was someone in my brain shooting bullets at it. I feel as though the world is happier while our world is falling apart, like it is cheering on our tragic and so I think I should seek revenge.
I am at a New Year party of the Reestablishment, playing my role as a successful leader. No one knows anything about my secrets and past that do not sit on my flawless profile except for my privileged family. They were the ones who caused our trauma and still tell me that because they concerned about me. My plan at first was to graduate, marry the Governor's first daughter, take over the lead and then the world would be at my mercy. But one minor 'mistake' (my parents' description) changed it all, it was because she ran into my life, yes, she was literally ran into my life. I remember it clearly, as if it was only yesterday. It happened on a raining day, I was waiting for the limousine to come, because by some miracle I woke up early that day and instead of driving the Porsche. I walked to my office and didn't bring the umbrella, I woke up too early to watch the weather news. So, come back to the point, I basically was just waiting inside the cosy reception room when suddenly I heard yells, then someone bumped hard into me. Listened to the shouts that belonged to a group of security ran toward me, I held the girl tightly so she couldn't escape. I think my grip was too strong because she left out a cry. That was when I looked down. That was when my world changed. She must be the most beautiful creature I've ever seen, the ocean cannot compare to her deep blue eyes, and the Sun must be so ashamed of itself when it laid ribbons of sunlight onto her golden blond hair. I was so taken aback by her unbelievable beauty and her pale face like a deer caught in headlight. I lost grip on her wrist for a second, and the next thing I know, she was running, running away into the heavy rain.
Away from me.
I stood there under the roof, from that instant, something woke up inside my heart, my bloodstream,my brain, my body.
They kept yelling at my unmoving body "find her, make her yours!".
And I made a promise that will change my fate, forever.
I will find her.
I will fall in love with her.
[ To be continued....]