Ever since i spilt the tea that i liked John in you know what way, all i can think about is him. Well, no shit since he's been my crush for a hot minute now and I've always thought of him possibly being with me.

But it's just plain annoyingly gay now. I think of us getting a house later in life, having a few pets with tiny cactus littered around every corner. (The ones with tiny flowers) I'd be in the kitchen making coffee for the 5th time in last hour, John would be pep talking me about how i shouldn't consume that much caffeine. And being the stubborn mule i am, I'd down that black bitter drink right infront of him making him roll his eye's and scoff.

My mind played all kinda of situations we'd end up in, but sadly my daydreaming was rudely interrupted by a hard poke into my arm.

"Ow! The fuck-"

"Hey daydreamer you back to reality yet? You've been staring at that wall for a good 5 minutes."

I felt my face flush.

"Maybe the wall was interesting.." I try to rebuttal, but come up with nothing witty to say.

"Sure. So do you wanna like, do something? Im bored as all hell. Plus watching you watch a wall is just weird after a while." John said as he put his face into his hands.

"Got any brilliant ideas?"

"We could call Peggy she always has something interesting to do." I suggest, but really i want to spend time with John alone.

"Ehhhh.. I talked to her this morning and she was busy with some sort of project. All i heard was that it included glitter and stickers. Kinda scared of what that may be."

"Wonder what it is.. Maybe we could go for a walk? Park maybe?" I start to name a few thing's but John seemed not into it.

"Im soooo bored." He groaned and proceeds to slug down to the floor.

"We could just continue to gripe about being bored." I say, and lay down on the floor with him. I give a small smile, and i swore i saw him blush.

"WhaT fUn!" He said sarcastically.

"...John i have an idea."

"That's not good."

"Rude. Also i thought that maybe we could just chill and play some music, like a party for two. We could both play our favorite songs.. And just draw or play video games.." I suggested, trailing off and kinda said it mumbly.

I wasn't sure if he'd laugh at that idea or be on board with it, since we have never really done that sort of thing before. It's not like it's bad to do that, my head was just insecure if it was a dumb idea to say. You know that feeling right? Im not crazy-

"Actually, that sounds pretty dope. We can like vibe together."

A little spark of flame erupted inside my chest, flaming with nothing but happiness. He liked the idea that i thought was dumb..

"Cool! Then let us began with doing nothing but vibing as you said!" I make some cringey finger guns and he laughs. That little flame in my chest just sparked a tad bit bigger. I can't stop the smile on my face as we both gather some comfy things like a stuffed animal or pillow, and get to chilling.

I don't know why i felt so giddy, we were going to do something so simple and probably boring to anyone, but the fact that John thought it was "dope", made me feel so warm inside.

I had my Alexa play a playlist i had for awhile, which consisted of many songs by so many artists not even i could keep up with it. But for now a lofi album was playing. It gave a comforting vibe, which helped me and John both focus on whatever small task we were doing.

He was drawing and i was to. Im not much of an artist myself but simple doodles were fun to me. He was the artist though, John showed me only a few and they were so pretty, and well colored. Birds and landscapes were his specialty right now.

We both hung around for hours. Just calmed and engrossed in our own heads. It was amazing in my opinion.. He stuck around even if he didn't have to. I never had a friend who did that with me before, it was nice.

The flame in my chest never went out, and my smile never went thin.

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It's 1:44am and i just searched my entire bed for my ear buds for like 10 mins only to realize they were literally right in front of me and i just thought they were my old crappy ones and i almost lost this entire chapter and died inside so here we are now.

I finally finished this chapter. I stg im terrible at updating, so sorry to those few peeps who read this :')

-hiL