Alec finished his duty that night and walked home in the cold. He was lost in his thought he didn't even notice someone was following him. He was caught by surprised when someone grabbed his arm and turned him around. As he turned he was met with the beautiful brown eyes and glittering hair that sparkles under the moonlight.

"Magnus. What the hell? Were you following me?" He was shocked that Magnus followed him home and since he was closed to reach his house he feared that his father would see Magnus and he will hurt him too. So he pulled him away from the streets and hid behind the tree hoping no one could see them but to Magnus he find it amused and grinned smug plastered on his face. "Well you won't let me send you home and I insisted to know what happened." Alec looked around trying to see if any of the people there is recognizable but to his luck nobody is there at the moment. "What is wrong with you? How many times should I told you I fell from stairs."

Alec turned around and continued walking when Magnus cut him again. "Well I would believe it if I was that stupid. You think I'm a child?" Alec had it enough, he cant seem to shake him off. He like Magnus but he will get him hurt and that will be the last thing he wanted. "Look I don't know what is wrong with you? For the last 6 months you never spoke to me or notice my presence and why sudden interest?" Magnus looked at Alec and he saw his face is hurting. "I care about you. Who said I didn't notice you? I knew how much you worked for yourself that sometimes you forgot to eat. How you shake your head and slapped your cheek every time you walked home from work just to keep yourself awake. How you always remember everyone's order and especially mine. Your a smart guy Alec and you never know how much my life light up whenever I saw you smile at the cafe everyday. So whoever did this to you and you are either covering it up or hiding the person doesn't deserved you." Alec looked at Magnus and he couldn't help but staring. He remembered before when he started working at Clary's cafe he had 3 jobs just to balanced their bills and the rent but his body can't endure being tired of working and tired of beating. So Clary decide to pay Alec the same amount he got after doing 3 jobs but Alec at first rejected her proposal and he would rather die than to receive charity money from anyone. Clary outsmarted him and made a counter proposal so Alec being the assistant manager just to make him accept the offer so he did and he ditched his other job while focusing on the cafe.

But for the first time in his life someone said that he cares about him, truly from his heart. He knows how Magnus is actually a player and loves to party. He always hear Clary talked to Jace about Magnus hook ups. So he cant trust Magnus when he heard him said that he care. As usual he pushed him away just like he pushes everyone's who came to flirt with him. "That's nice but I don't have time for this Mags, I really need to go." He turned back and ran towards his house and he locked the door after he entered.

He felt his heart is pounding as someone was chasing him. He managed to calm himself after few minutes and he was able to think better. Magnus was actually care about him. For so long he wanted to hear someone said that to him but when someone did he ran away. Scared like a small kitten. Maybe life has taught him that love actually doesn't exist. It only happened for short time and then it will fade. He doesn't want to get hurt and he had enough physical pain, he can't tolerate emotional pain too. He went upstairs to his room and then locked it. He lay on bed thinking what happened and soon he fell asleep, dreaming of what his life should be. Perfect and happy.

Alec woke up that morning with headache and he didn't eat since yesterday evening. He took a shower and he stood in front of the mirror looking at his disgusting body. Later he took the blade again holding it in his hand gripping it hard. He know this is wrong and he wish he doesn't have to be like this. But every single time he saw himself in the mirror he couldn't help feeling disgusted and insecure. People always addicted to things that take the pain away - so he thought.

He took the blade, lifted his shirt up exposing his flat stomach and pressed it down. He hitched in pain as a line was drawn with a blood spilled after it. He wiped the blood cleaned and washed the blade. Then he went out from his room and put on his clothes. He come downstairs hoping his father is still asleep. He was right, he passed out drunk in the living room and covered with beer bottle. His dad being a cop doesn't help him with reporting for any abuse cause if he did Robert will punished him more. He couldn't leave the house and stay on his own cause he tried that once and his father caught him, dragged him back to the house and beat the shit out of him and threatened to kill any person who tried to help him.

He went out leaving his house headed to the bus station and went to the north side again. Luckily yesterday he got some tips from Clary cause he did a great job calming an angry customer so he can use the money for the bus ride. He wanted to see his mum, maybe today he will have courage to talk to her.