Magnus woke up that middle of the night to an empty bed. Alexander was no where to be found. He felt cold in his loft and silenced. He sat up, rubbing his eyes and jumped out from the bed. He went out the bedroom and found Alec was sitting on the couch hugging his knees, staring at the TV but it wasn't on. "Alexander." He called softly as he sat down next to him. Alec looked at him and his eyes gazed back at the TV. He sat closed to Alec and hold his hand that was on his knees. He didn't flinched or pull back but instead he let Magnus finger tangle with his. Then he lay his head on Magnus lap. Magnus hold his body and their hand didn't separate from each other. After a while Alec lay on Magnus lap, he heard how Alec's stomach rumbling. " come on, lets get you to eat something." For first time Alec didn't protest him. Instead he nodded and let Magnus went to the kitchen to prepare him food. He came back with the porridge and soup and placed it in front of him on the coffee table. He brought the bowl closer and feed him spoon by spoon. Alec was eating it slowly and he stopped after 3 spoon. He held his mouth with his palm and look sickly. He felt like he want to vomit again. Magnus stopped feeding him and gave him a glass of water. He gulped the water down slowly. "Are you okay? Your stomach is empty thats why you felt sick." Alec didn't say anything he just looked down. "drink this." Magnus held the small bowl of soup and give to Alec and he sipped it but made a weird face after. "It's a Chinese herb to make you feel better. It taste a bit weird but you get used to it." Alec sipped a few more before give up. They spend all night on the couch and eventually Alec slept on Magnus lap till the morning.

Magnus woke up that morning with Alec on his lap and he has been sleeping on the couch all night. His neck hurts but at least Alec managed to get some sleep. He was stroking his hair and felt Alec stirring in his sleep. "Good morning angels." He whispered. Alec looked up and saw Magnus looking down on him so he sat up, rubbing his eyes and stroked his curl hair back. "What time is it?" He asked looking around the loft. "around 9:30AM. You want anything for breakfast?" Magnus looked at his phone and looked back at Alec. He shook his head signing no before he stood up and went to bedroom to relieve himself and doing his morning routine such brushing his teeth, shaved and washed his face. Later he went out and Magnus took turn. When Magnus went out he saw Alec sitting on the bed looking through the window. He turned behind his shoulder at Magnus and looked down on the floor. "Shouldn't you be at work?" He asked. Magnus sighed before he answered. "No I had it covered. I cant leave you like this." Alec stood up and stand before him. "I'm not a child Magnus, you don't need to babysit me." He rolled his eyeball and passed next to Magnus heading out the room. "Maybe but you need to stop acting like one." He turned back his heels and stares at Magnus. He gave up fighting with him and he went to the door trying to get out. But by the time he opened the door, Luke was about to knocked it and they bumped to each other. "Alec! Sorry, I was about to knocked." Luke hold out his hand to shake his but Alec is having a hard time to touch people nowadays so he let it hanging which making Luke felt awkward and pull back. Alec was about to say something but then a person appeared behind Luke and he step back into the loft hitting Magnus' body behind him. "What are you doing here?" Alec asked the person. It was Maryse and she looks sad and like she's been crying. "Alec I thought we might talk." Luke suggested before getting inside the apartment.

Listened to the song Zella day : Sacrifice while you reading this part. or opened the video I put on top. 

They all sat on the couch at the living room and Magnus was at the kitchen preparing tea for the guests. "Alexander, I'm so sorry for what happened. I wish I could do something to help." Maryse started the conversation. "You're 18 years to late mother." Alec looked at her but his gaze filled with hatred. "Alec, we are trying to help. I know things have been difficult with you but it changes now and we want to help." Luke spoke as Magnus walked in to the living room placing the tea that he made on the coffee table. "Help? Where were you when I needed you? When I was beaten every fucking single day of my life, screaming for anyone to help me! Where were you when he got drunk and hit me with his beer bottle blaming me for you! I didn't asked to be born like this." Maryse stood before Alec since Alec start to pace around the living room. Magnus grabbed his shoulder trying to calm him down. "Alec I know you are angry -" "I am not angry! I am in pain! You did this to me! You are the person who supposed to love me more than anything in this world! You did this! You ruined my life!" Maryse started to choke on her words and she wanted to say more but she's scared to make it worst. "I have never felt more alone in my life! I have been trapped in that house screaming, begging for anyone to help me but no one! No one could hear me!" Magnus hold Alec down since he started to cry even more. "We will help you Alec, we will help you but you need to keep fighting this, keep holding on." Magnus took Alec's head and stares at his eyes. "How do you expect me to moved on? How do you keep going when the worst thing happen? What do I have to changed to survive? I do whats my best to move on with my life." Alec broke from Magnus gripped and head to the kitchen. He grabbed the knife and Magnus ran towards him followed by Luke. But this time Alec didn't stopped to look at them. He grip the knife and pressed to his wrist making it bleed dripped on the floor. "Alec stopped!" Magnus shouted at him making him looked up. He has tears filled his eyes looking down at Alec. "Alec stopped hurting yourself!" Magnus wants to get closer but Luke pulled him back worrying Alec might do worst. "If I didn't hurt myself I hurt the people around me! There is nothing I can do about it. I might as well be dead, gone and everything will be better." Alec took another slit on his forearm. It felt like nothing as the knife went through his skins. Maryse couldn't believe what she saw. She never thought Alec was this broken. Magnus kneeled in front of him looking at his face. "I get it you're hurt! But what about me when your gone? What about me Alec? Have you thought about it? I love you and there is nothing in this world would changed my feelings for you. So if you can't do it for yourself, do it for me! Do for us, for our future." Alec looked at Magnus broken eyes. "There's no future for you and me." He pulled his plaster on the neck from yesterday and slit his throat in front of Magnus. "Alec! NO!" He caught Alec's body when he was about to fall on the ground pressing his neck from the bleeding. Luke handed him the towel and he saw how Alec gasping to breathe with blood coming out from his mouth and his arm. Luke pressed down his wound on the arm to stopped the bleeding while Maryse ran to call for an ambulance. Magnus looked down on Alec's eyes holding his body closed to his chest. He pressed the wound hoping to make it stopped bleeding. His purple shirt is soaked with red and he couldn't care less. "Alexander please, fight this! Fight for me! I love you, please don't leave me. I love you, I love you please! Oh god." Magnus hold Alec on the floor and he saw Alec's gaze starts to weaken. "I-I lo-l-lo-ve y-y-you" Alec trying to catch his last breath saying those words to Magnus and his eyes slowly falls with his head tilted back. "No, no, no Alexander no, wake up, please baby wake up! Wake up damn it, you can't do this to me! Wake up!" Magnus start to shout at his lifeless body. But he felt how Alec's body starts to stop breathing and turned cold. He hold it on his chest and placed his cheeks on Alec's bleeding face. "Alexander please, come back. Come back. Please. Opened your eyes please. I need you, opened your eyes please." He hold Alexander dead body rocking it front and back. Maryse falls on her knees looking at Alec died in Magnus' arm.

When the paramedic came, they pulled Alec from Magnus and they checked his pulse but one of the paramedic shake his head before he pressed his chest trying to bring him back. Magnus was leaning against the kitchen counter sitting on the floor watching all the horror in front of him. They put the machine on his chest and continued the CPR on his chest. But after 20 minutes they stopped and they announced he was dead. They called someone through their walkie talkie to bring despatch for suicidal patient who just died. Magnus saw how his kitchen floor soaked with blood under Alec's body. Maryse was screaming and Luke grabbed her hugging her body to calm her but Magnus felt like the whole world stopped moving. He felt how everyone moves really slow around him and he saw Alec's body by his legs and he kneeled in front of it. His tears flowing like rain on the window shield. He took Alec's hand and tangled their finger together. He cupped Alec's cold cheek and sobbed. He never felt this much of pain on his chest before. He felt how someone just pound it over and over again. He wanted to scream, to shout to do whatever it takes to make it stop. He wanted to turned back the time so he could save him. Never in his life he would thought Alec would actually do this to him. Alexander Lightwood, the love of his life. Died in his kitchen floor. 

I'm really sorry