Vae and I decided to go out, Sydney was going to out with Rico so she couldn't come and Nailah was going to meet us there. I didn't wanna really go out they said I shouldn't sit in the house all depressed.

We got into the Uber pregaming as the man drove to the club/hookah lounge. He pulled up right in front as paparazzi started taking pictures. I sighed and rolled my eyes, they were every where just always popping up. Plus they always asked stupid ass questions and twisted my words.

"Simone did you and Sammy split?"

"Simone is it true you and Sammy have an hidden child?" See what I mean?

"Navaeh are you and Dice expecting babies any time soon?"

"Can we get a picture?" I stopped Vae and we posed for pictures.

"Navaeh and Simone can you give a shout out?" Taliah O from the Shaderoom asked giving us a mic.

"Why not?" I smiled grabbing on to the mic waiting for them to get the camera ready.

"Ready." The man said.

"This is Simone H."

"And I'm Navaeh H."

"And we're stepping into the Shaderoom." We said together.

"Don't be too shady bitches." Vae said as we both laughed.

"Thank you, you girls look beautiful." Taliah O. said.

"You welcome and thank you." Navaeh smiled grabbing my hand walking in.

"I'm going to get so drunk that I won't remember shit." I clapped my hands and asking the bartender for the strongest bottle they had.

"Vae! Sim!" I heard Nailah yell as she made her way to us.

"Hey Nai." I smiled.

"That bottle all to yourself?" Nai asked referring to the bottle of Jamaican White Rum.

"Yes indeed." I drunk straight from the bottle instantly regretting it. That Jamaican rum was the truth.

At least this was going to have me lit.

~

"Y'all know this my shitttt" I yelled as Conceited by Remy Ma came on, I took my cup going to the dance floor rapping along and dancing as cameras recorded me.

"See I look too good to be fuckin' you. And I look too good to be lovin' you. Y'know I look way too good to be stuck with you. I'm conceited, I got a reason."

"Yeah suhhhh." Nailah cheered laughing as I put my face in one of the cameras while rapping.

"You ready to go Sim?" Vae asked once the song was over.

"What time is it?" I asked.

"3 o' clock."

"For real? Damn." I laughed catching my balance.

"Yup it's time we go, Nailah you coming with us orr..?"

"Yeah, let's go." Nai said as they grabbed my hand and we walked outside to the see paparazzi taking pictures of us and shouted out questions left and right.

Damn don't they go to sleep?

"Navaeh is it true you and Dice are planning on kids?"

"No, Dice and I are not planning on having kids. We're just having fun for right now." Vae smiled.

"Simone are you and Sammy done?"

"How long have you and Sammy been together?"

"Simone is it true you and Sammy was only together for publicity?"

"I'm not a celebrity, what I want publicity for?" I asked laughing.

"Is it true Sammy is paying for your tuition at Southern Texas University?" I laughed again.

"Who are y'all sources? Sammy doesn't pay for shit I got. I worked damn hard for my scholarship at Texas Southern." I slurred.

"Can you confirm that you and Sammy are single?"

"I'm single but I don't know about Sammy, you'll have to ask him yourself." I tilted my head back laughing.

Why is everything so funny?

"Our uber is here, see you later guys." I blew a kiss and got in the car.

"You're going to be every where by tomorrow." Nailah said.

"How? I could only be in one place at once." I asked confused.

"Just shut up." Vae said as they laughed. I nodded laying back.

~

I sat up grabbing my head looking around. I was in my room and I still had on the dress from yesterday. I stood up slowly and stripped going to the shower letting the heat soothe me.

20 minutes later I was out, I put on a nike sports bra and lace cheeky panties. I grabbed my phone and walked down the stairs to the kitchen seeing Vae leaning against the counter while Nai stood leaning in the freezer.

"Y'all head killing y'all too?" I asked looking in the cabinets for the Motrin. My voice was raspy like I was losing it.

"Yes and we have no advils or nothing." Vae groaned.

"Make coffee, drink apple juice or eat a banana." I told them getting the brown sugar cinnamon oatmeal down.

I put it in the microwave and sat down as they ate bananas. Nailah still had her head in the refrigerator making me laugh.

"My notifications going crazy." I said looking at all the notifications that came to my phone once I turned it on.

"I saw you on baller alert and celebrity tea earlier. It was that video when you was singing conceited, they said it was shade towards Sammy." Nai laughed.

"They could say what they want, all I know is I was fucking done." I laughed coughing.

"Ew you sound nasty, you losing your voice?" Vae asked.

"Sound like it." I stood up going to the microwave to get my oatmeal.

"The reason y'all life is lit as fuck is here!" I heard Stunna yell making my groan.

"Stunna our heads hurt." Nai whined.

"What that got to do with us?!" Lew yelled even louder.

"Can y'all stop yelling?" I looked over my shoulder at them then back at my oatmeal.

"Nah cause y'all was lit as fuck huh?!" Dice raised his voice slapping Vae ass.

"Stop Dice damn."

"Nah little sis was too fucking lit right? You look too good to be fuckin' bro?" Dice asked yelling in my ear laughing.

"That wasn't even shade, that been my song since like 2008." I rolled my eyes.

"I don't believe it." Stunna said laughing.

"Room now." Sammy said coming in the kitchen walking back out.

"Who he talking to?" I scrunched up my face blowing on my oatmeal.

"Why you playing tough?" Lew asked laughing.

"Now Simone!" Sammy yelled.

"I'll be back y'all." I rolled my eyes grabbing my oatmeal and phone.

"And put on some damn clothes!" Dice said.

"This my house, I'll walk around naked in this bitch if wanted to."

I walked upstairs and sat on my bed turning on the T.V and TMZ was on and I popped up and Sammy looked towards the T.V shaking his head.

"I'm single but I don't know about Sammy, you'll have to ask him yourself." I laughed looking at myself from yesterday.

"That shit entertaining? You like that shit huh?" He asked.

"Yeah, I was fine as fuck yesterday. I should of got a lil boo or something." I smiled still looking at me.

"You not funny."

"I find myself funny." I laughed eating a spoonful of oatmeal.

"How we get like this? Where did this shit go wrong?" Sammy asked looking at me and I finally looked at him.

"Almost 2 years ago, I should of said no." I shook my head putting it down.

"You keep acting like you're innocent, I cheated just like you did."

"And I admitted to it Michael. I'm not acting like I'm nothing but after two years together we should still be in the honeymoon stage, I'm stressed and not happy. Obviously you aren't either if you continually keep cheating."

"So fuck this relationship right? You wanna act like that like that then fuck it. You could do what the fuck you fucking want like I been. I ain't want this relationship anyway, you the dumb ass that continued getting cheated on because you was too scared to be by yourself. I never cared and I still don't."

With that he left out my room leaving me with a broken heart and tears in my eyes. I was the only one to blame for falling in love with a ain't shit rapper, thinking we'll have a happily ever after. I was too naive thinking this boy would give up the fast life for me.

~

"I just thought- I don't know what I thought." I sniffed laying back down.

"Sim Sammy hurt, just talk to him without bringing up shit." Vae said rubbing my back.

"No I hate him, I hope someone kicks him." I wiped my face.

"What?" Nailah asked laughing.

"I mean Sim how did you expect him to react?" Sydney asked.

"I understand but everything he said was worse than anything he have ever done. Nobody even know the half of everything we went through, not even y'all."

"Yeah but Sim you have an emotional attraction to Quavo. You were just about to break up with Sammy but when you found out Quavo true intentions you tryna fight for him now.'

"That doesn't mean he could just end it, just like him she made a mistake too." Nailah said.

"Right that's double standard, even though she's wrong, he shouldn't just give up."

"Why shouldn't he? She was ready to give that up for Quavo. Y'all tryna make her feel better but y'all gotta be real here." Sydney shook her head.

"What you mean?"

"I mean Sammy did it, we automatically hated him but now Sim wrong, we making excuses. Sammy stepped up to the plate and right his wrongs, now it's Sim time. I can't really speak on the situation cause I never went though it or know everything as you said but this is just my opinion."

"What do you mean right my wrongs?"

"Starting with Quavo cause I wanna beat him the hell up."

"You right, Quavo foul as hell for that." Vae shook her head.

"What if Quavo and his sisters set this whole thing up? Like they planned the pregnancy and to do all this." Nailah said making me sit up.

"Once again Sim fault, you never suppose to talk about your relationship with another nigga." Syd said.

"Sydney." I rolled my eyes.

"What? The truth hurts." She looked at me and shrugged. "I was always team Sammy anyway. What the fuck is a Quavo?"

"Apparently he Sim lover." Vae said and they all busted out laughing.

"Sim was ready to bust it open like a pinata." Syd added as they continued laughing.

"Now she bout to outside of Sammy window like how you gonna up and leave me now? How you gonna act like that? How you gonna change it up, we just finished making up?" Nailah sung.

"You know I'm willin' to do anything, just to keep you in my heart. I messed around and gave up everything, I thought we'd never part." Sydney yelled holding her heart.

"No she like in my mind I'll always be his lady, in my mind I'll always be his girl." Vae sung and they busted out laughing.

"Y'all not funny." I stood up from the couch.

"She'll be back, they always come back." Nailah mumbled as they laughed.

I laid down putting Pandora on as it blared through my whole room, the song that first played made me want to cry. I sighed and hugged my pillows letting my tears soak it.

"If it ain't you, it's not worth it. No matter what I do, nothings working. Baby I know loves not perfect, even if he gives me the world, it will never be enough cause I choose youuu."

I sung loudly closing my eyes. My music stopped so I looked to see Bhris was calling, I declined it and continued singing. Lew called and I ignored that too.

"Heard you found you another but she's not me, how could you love her? We got history, we were meant to be. She can't replace what we had, based on chemistry."

Exactly three minutes passed and Bhris FaceTime'd me this time. I wiped my face, laid down on my side and put on a smile as I answered. I said hey but he just studied my face then sighed.

"Lil sis don't cry son." He said and that just made me cry more.

"What you do brah?" Lew asked coming in the camera.

"I don't know I just said don't cry and she just started crying."

"Nigga that's like telling a female to calm down, they weird." Lew smacked his teeth.

"Sis what's that song it be big girls don't cry? You can't cry cause you a big girl, aight?" Bhris said making me smile, that was cute.

"Why y'all treating her like a baby? She better start flexing on my boy. Pull out Beyonce Lemonade and start fucking shit up." Stunna yelled.

"Show that nigga he need you, you don't need him. You could do bad all by yaself." Lew added.

"That don't mean go get a new nigga either, I'll fuck you up. Hurricane Chris getting his ass whooped as soon as we touch down in Houston." Bhris said.

"I'm telling you, imma knock his teeth out. Who he thought he was disrespecting you Sim? He just fucked his life up." Stunna yelled.

"For real if his ugly ass sister wasn't carrying my niece or nephew I'll disrespect ha ass." Lew added.

"Why do you keep calling her ugly?" I laughed.

"Cause she got a ugly ass personality, I see through that nice shit."

"On granny I said that but Sammy like she nice as hell brah. Ain't nobody that damn nice, they probably planned this shit." Stunna added.

"What you mean?" Bhris asked.

"Hurricane Chris was telling them everything Sim was saying, what if she got pregnant on purpose?"

"You could tell you and Nailah brother and sister, she just said that earlier." I told him.

"That make sense though, if this true Sim you gotta beat Mahogany ass. No ifs, buts or ands about it." Lew said

"For what? Sammy like her so much, I hope she use him for everything." I rolled my eyes.

"I mean what do he got to lose now" Stunna yelled making all of us laugh.

"Sis we called to at least make you laugh, even if you and Sammy don't get back together you stuck with us." Bhris said.

"Forevvaaa." Stunna mocked Cardi B making me laugh.

"But for real we attached like glue." Lew smiled.

"On ya ass like white on rice."

"Like dirt on Sammy." Stunna said and we both laughed as a door opened then I heard Dice and Sammy.

"Be quiet real quick sis." Bhris whispered putting in his headphones.

"Man that bitch was tripping, thought I was her nigga." Sammy fussed.

"Who you talm bout?" Bhris asked.

"I know you ain't talking bout sis." Lew added.

"Y'all know I wouldn't disrespect Sim ugly ass, I was talking bout that fan. Bitch crazy."

"You fucked?" Dice asked laughing.

"Of course I did." He stopped to laugh as more tears came to my eyes, he didn't even give it four hours to go fuck somebody else. "I ain't enjoy the shit though, Sim ugly ass kept coming to my mind."

"Lemme get into Dr.Phil mode and give you advice. Ya bitch ass was crying at 4 inna morning, stop tryna act hard and put ya pride to the side before you lose her." Stunna said.

"Nah bro, she deserve better. I was thinking like if she had to get comfort from another nigga and had feelings for another nigga then the relationship wasn't going as I thought it was. I'll let her be happy."

"You might as well, you clearly not ready for a girl like Sim." Bhris said.

"What you mean by that?"

"I mean just as I said, she too mature for you. Her mindset not like these other girls, she different but you can't see that cause you stuck in your ways."

"I somewhat agree, you still in the hoe stage meanwhile you always having somebody in ya ear that you listen to." Dice said.

"Right like you listening to ya ugly ass baby moms when she don't know shit going on." Lew added.

"Lew." Dice laughed.

"I really don't like her, I don't know how many times I gotta say it. Like that bitch just ughh."

"Watch ya mouth she ain't gotta be a bitch brah."

"She a bitch to us, fuck you mean? What you got feelings?" Stunna laughed as it grew silent.

"Wait bro you dead got feelings?" Dice asked and I hung up before he could answer. I couldn't handle that right now.

I stood up wiping my face and getting dress in some black sweats, black yeezy boosts 360 and a black hoodie to describe my mood. I grabbed a water and walked out the door heading to my car without saying anything.

I started to drive, at first I was driving around just wasting gas for no reason. Noticing I was wasting gas I went to the gas station, I parked my car and got out pulling my strings on my hood.

I got some extreme sourheads then sent a picture to Stunna since that was his favorite and I wanted to make him mad. I got a berry Fanta and then walked up to the counter.

"Simone! Omg can I get a picture?" A girl squealed.

"I'm so ugly right now." I laughed.

"If your ugly then I must be scum on someone's shoe." She said making me laugh. I grabbed her phone taking multiple selfies with her.

"20 for pump 7." I said handing him $30 for my snacks and gas letting him keep the change.

"I'm sorry to bother you but Simone can I get a picture?" A girl asked making me smile.

It's like you run into everybody when you not trying to.

After taking the picture I got back in the car driving to my mother house since we were suppose to have a day of fun. I pulled over on the side of the road to take a minute, these cramps been kicking my ass all day.

Starting the car again I was tired of riding in silence so I turned on the radio singing my heart out on the highway.

"If I had you back in my world I would prove that I could be a better girl. If you let me back in I would sure nuff never let you go again."

I sung loudly, my phone started ringing I saw that it was Bhris. I ignored it turning my phone on silent then continued singing.

"Boy I need you bad as my heartbeat, bad as the air I breathe. I need you bad I can't take this pain, boy I'm bout to go insane. I need you, I need you."

I pulled up knocking on the door waiting for my beautiful mom to come to the door. Once she did she smiled and pulled me into a hug as I cried onto her shoulder.

"Let it out baby." She rubbed my back.

After crying and venting to her she gave me advice then we started watching our all time favorite movie, Clueless. It was just going off when I stood up to get a water.

"You should spend a night, I miss you." She whined making me laugh.

"Like old times."

"Just like it." I stopped walking holding on to the table.

"Mommy I feel dizzy." I said grabbing my head.

"What? Sim sit down."

"I can't... I feel dizz-" I couldn't finish my sentence because I fell face first hitting my head on the table. I heard her call my name over and over panicking before I couldn't hear anymore.

~

I woke up in pain with a IV attached to my arm and something on my finger. My head started hurting, I sat up too fast making my stomach hurt too. The pacer started beeping like crazy letting my mother know I was woke as she rushed to my side.

"Calm down Sim, lemme get the doctor." My ma said. I nodded staring at the ugly hospital gown I had on.

"Ms. Hudson I'm Dr.Sloan, how are you feeling?" The doctor said coming in along with a nurse.

"My head hurts."

"When you fell your mother said you hit the table face first, it should be okay in a few hours if not come back."

"Why did I feel dizzy before I passed out?"

"Are you okay with your mother being in the room? It's procedure to ask."

"Yes it's fine."

"Ms. Hudson you were 6 weeks pregnant, a little over a month. Your blood pressure was extremely high which comes out to stress on the body."

"Wha-were?" I asked shakily.

"Unfortunately the stress caused a miscarriage, I'm sorry for your lost."

"But how could I lose a baby I didn't even know I was having?" I asked letting the tears fall. "I drink and smoke a lot, was this my- my fault? I killed my baby?"

"Simone, you couldn't have no way of knowing. Some woman don't show symptoms of pregnancy until they hit two months, this isn't your fault." Dr. Sloan said touching my shoulder.

"So I can't carry anymore kids?" I asked wiping my face.

"I see no problem with that, when you want to get pregnant go see your OBGYN and see if everything is clear but here are pamphlets on coping with a miscarriage. You may bleed up until two weeks but any longer than that you should come in to see a doctor, I'm sorry for your lost once again."

"Thank you, do I go home? I really hate hospitals."

"Yes I'll be right back with your discharge papers."

"Here's your phone, it was blowing up." Ma said.

"How long have we been here?" I asked looking at the 106 missed calls and 233 unread messages.

"For about an hour." I nodded answering Vae 45th call.

"I know I'm sorry I left without saying anything or telling you, I had my phone on silent I didn't know-"

"Simone."

"I should be home in a few so you can yell at me for not answering. I promise I won't even get-"

"Simone?" She yelled.

"Yes?"

"There was a accident." She sniffed making my heart drop.

"Wh-what do you mean?"

"It's bad Sim, real bad."
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