Chapter four.

"So how this suppose to work?" Lew asked.

"Why are y'all doing this?" I asked confused.

"We're trying to understand you." Bhris looked at me.

"But what is cutting y'all selves helping?"

"We're trying to feel the pain, I googled how to deal with your kind and it says try to understand or put yourself in their shoes so I'm trying." Lew said.

"My kind?" I raised a eyebrow.

"Y'know.." Bhris looked around then got closer. "Cutters."

"Y'all are so stupid." I laughed.

"Stop playing and tell us how to do this."

"Think about something sad, like something you could cry over." I gave in since they wasn't giving up.

"RICCCKKKYYY!" Bhris yelled scaring both of us.

"What the fuck bro?" Lew asked hitting him.

"She said something sad. Ricky was my boy, he ain't deserve to get shot. Man he was gon make it out the hood."

"Bhristopher please tell me you're not talking about Boyz in the Hood." I looked at him.

"Aight I got it, imma think about the time I thought I had aids. Shit made me cry every night." Lew said frowning.

"You're dirty." I laughed looking at the two idiots. "Why are you cryinggg?"

"His death just gets to me." Bhris wiped his face.

"So damn ugly." I looked at Lew face and started jumping up and down laughing.

"Aight what next?"

"I don't think y'all should cut y'all selves, this isn't going to help."

"Shut up Sim what next?" Bhris asked.

"Run the razor down but don't do it that way because you can't hit a vain, make a small cut."

"Alright, you ready?" Lew asked Bhris.

"Let's get this shit."

"Y'all are so-" I got cut off by Lew smacking the shit out of me.

"Sim you do this? This shit fucking burn, what the fuck brah? Brah this burnnn!" Lew yelled holding his arm.

"You had to smack her? Her head almost rolled off her shoulders." Bhris laughed.

"I'm sorry but this shit hurt like hell, you good?" He asked.

"No you busted my lip dumb ass, I told you not to do it." I glared at him.

"It caught me off guard, I kinda understand now though. You focus on the pain you caused yourself so you don't have to think about the emotional pain other people caused."

"That's deep bro." Bhris nodded then laughed. "What else google said?"

"They said to get her back happy, we could try shit that made her happy or laugh. What's make you happy?"

"Singing." I laughed.

"You tryna have the karaoke moment? I'm bout to destroy y'all." Lew said as he ran out the bathroom.

I followed him downstairs as he pulled up YouTube music, he told us to close our eyes so we won't see his song.

"Hello? It's me." He sung with the remote in his hand.

"Lew oh my god." I laughed.

"HELLLLOO FROM THE OTHER SIDE." He clutched his heart and bent down.

"What the fuck is dying in here?" Stunna yelled coming in with Sammy and Dice.

"Aye bro don't do me, I sound like lil Aug." He said and we all busted out laughing.

"You sound worst than Dice rapping." Stunna laughed.

"Why you always gotta do me? I don't say shit to ya fat lip ass."

"Yeah they fat cause I eat pussy." Stunna yelled and we all stopped to look at him.

"Wayment." I muttered.

"Pineapples." Sammy laughed.

"Y'all messing up our karaoke night." Bhris rolled his eyes.

"Nah I'm next." Stunna stood.

"Y'all didn't sign the permission slip to come along." Lew glared.

"As in words of Queen Bey, boy bye." Dice waved him off.

"Broooo." I laughed looking at him.

"All you ladies pop ya pussy like this, shake ya body don't stop don't miss. Just do it do it." Stunna interrupted our argument by singing to do the instrumental.

"Son no." We laughed.

"Do it now, lick it good. Suck this dick just like you should. My neck, my dick, lick my balls and my tip." He sung dancing.

"Please stop." Dice laughed.

"Y'all ready?" Nailah asked as her, Sydney and Vae came out.

"We singing." Stunna glared at her.

"You could sing in the uber dumb bitch, come on before we be late." Syd said.

"I don't wanna go, we went there last week." Sammy said.

"I hate when y'all wanna change plans last minute." Vae rolled her eyes.

"Y'all can go, we don't want to. We good with staying in with Sim for the night." Dice said and I laughed at their faces.

"Whatever." They muttered walking out.

"My turn." Sammy bawney ass jumped up.

"Please don't sing, you worse than Sim." Dice said.

"I could sing, the fuck?" He said. "Sim close ya eyes."

"Y'all annoying. For real." I smiled closing my eyes

"Oh hell." Bhris started laughing and I wanted to open my eyes but Lew covered them.

"Shake it fast, watch ya self. Shake it fast, show me what ya working with." Sammy was now shirtless and he was standing in front of me pointing.

"Son oh my God." I laughed. Once he started rapping I was crying.

"I thought I told y'all dudes before y'all dudes can't mess wit me. Now, this ain't for no small booties, no sir, cause that won't pass but if you feel you got the biggest one then, momma, come shake it fast."

"He so fucking skinny, bawney ass bitch." Stunna yelled as we all laughed watching Sammy dance.

"I did that. Right y'all?" He asked once the song went off.

"Yeah, I was like woah he's shaking it fast." Lew answered dryly pointing at him and I died.

"Do better." Sammy laughed handing me our mic AKA the remote.

I typed my song and waited for it to come on getting into position. This use to be my song when I was little and I never knew what it meant until I grew up. Fergie nasty.

"I drive these brothers crazy, I do it on the daily. They treat me really nicely, they be me all the ices. Dolce & Gabana, Fendi and that Donna."

I stood in front of Sammy then jumped on his lap straddling his waist while playfully humping him as he laughed. I bent back letting my head hang off the couch then lifted my legs up flipping myself and landing in my split.

"What you gon do with all that ass, all that ass inside them jeans?" Stunna yelled making me laugh as I got up.

"Imma m-m-make you scream, make you scream." I said bending down in front of him then standing back up laughing.

I moved on to Dice going behind the chair running my hands down his chest as he laughed. The chorus part came on and I went in front of Lew grabbing his knees opening them then squatted down in the middle. I stood back up seductively laughing.

"Tryna feel my hump, hump looking at my lump, lump. You can look but you can't touch it. If you touch it, imma start some drama, you don't want no drama." I sung getting up.

I sat in Bhris lap sideways and leaned back lifting up one of my legs then I kissed him on his cheek getting off him. I finished my song then ended in my stripper pose.

"Sim win, hands down." Stunna yelled as they all laughed and clapped.

"Speech, speech." Lew chanted.

"Oh my God, this win wasn't expected. I have to thank my best brothers Lew and Bhris. My lovelies Stun and Dice I wouldn't be anywhere without y'all." I cried wiping my face.

"Yeah bitch." Stunna cheered.

"But now... Back to the bitch who had so much to say earlier, Sammy what's good?!" I pointed at him and we all started laughing.

"Why y'all standing there like that? And how long was y'all there?" Bhris asked making me look up to see Mahogany, Maya, Nailah, Vae and Syd.

"Sim we could talk to you?" Vae asked making me raise a eyebrow.

"No." All the boys said in unison.

"Hell no." Stunna yelled.

"Y'all annoying." I laughed going to the kitchen. "Wassup? Y'all got my money?"

"I'll have it tomorrow." Sydney said and I nodded.

"Good, aight. What y'all wanna talk about? If it ain't about bills, we ain't got shit to discuss B."

"Actually Sim I don't like that shit you pulled in the living room." Nailah glared at me.

"What?"

"With them lap dances and touching on them." Vae answered my confusion.

"It wasn't that serious, why do you think Sammy didn't say anything? We were playing, you act like I rode their dicks in the sunset."

"You might as well sitting in their laps and shit, like bitch what the fuck you mean?" Nailah asked.

"Tell me how you really feel." I laughed.

"Sim I understand you don't see them like that but out of respect for their relationship you shouldn't be grinding on them and shit." Maya added.

"But when we was doing this around two months ago why y'all wasn't saying then? Damn y'all bitches always been fake?" I laughed.

"I don't care what you talking about, I said what I had to. I don't want you on my nigga fuck you talm bout?" Nailah asked.

"The only person who should feel a type a way is Mahogany cause I actually want her nigga." I laughed.

I crack myself up.

"I told y'all I get it but am I going to stop having fun because of y'all? Nah. I made sure not to touch none of their dicks or twerk on them, it was fun. Take a chill pill and relax."

"Yes you is the fuck wrong with you? Sim I fucks with you why you tryna start? Stick to sucking Sammy dick." Nailah said.

"I should take ya nigga for that comment." I laughed clapping my hands.

"Nailah chilllll!" Sydney yelled as they held her back.

"You wanna fight me? Did I say anything or feel a type of way when you sat on Sammy lap? Or when you gave Quavo a lap dance because you wanted to make Crook mad?" I laughed. "Bhris not even ya nigga."

"I don't care Simone."

"Still love you though, much love." I blew a kiss and walked out.

"You good?" Lew asked.

"Perfect. Who next?" I smiled.

~

"Where your journal? Did you write in it yesterday?" Lew asked.

Yesterday Lew and Bhris bought me a little journal so I could write my daily thoughts, apparently Lew got this idea off of Google.

"Yes I wrote in it, no you can't read it." I snatched it.

"Alright, get Sim happy part 2. Put this on." Bhris handed me some shorts and a grey sweater that said twerk it.

"My booty is going to swallow these shorts."

"That's the point." Both of them said smirking making me laugh.

"Okay weirdos."

I went in the bathroom to change into the crop sweater with the shorts and knee high socks. I looked cute so I took a few pictures then walked out to see them reading my journal.

"Y'all some dickheads."

"You was suppose to be the look out dumb ass." Lew smacked his teeth.

"Nigga there she go. Look out activated."

"Okay what now?" I asked.

"Put these on." Lew pulled a bag from under my bag and I jumped up and down.

"You bought my balenciaga runs!" I cheered rushing to them.

"Yeah them ugly ass shoes was almost $700." Bhris rolled his eyes.

"They look perfect on my feet." I smiled.

"Now let's go."

"Wait, I'm not going outside with my ass hanging out these shorts." I gasped.

"When hoes try to have morals but it's a little too late." Lew said and we all busted out laughing.

"Wrap this flannel shirt around ya waist then." Bhris laughed.

I did as said and we walked to Bhris car as he pulled out getting on the freeway. I wasn't going to ask where we was going because they wouldn't tell me anyway. We pulled up to some building, it looked like a dance studio. We walked in and I saw a bunch of females walking in thot attire, I laughed catching on.

We're at a twerking class.

"Really?" I laughed.

"You like shaking ya ass, it's over 50 bitches in here shaking ass. Its a win/ win situation for all of us." Lew said as Bhris and him grasped hand.

"Simone right?" The instructor asked coming to us.

"Yes." I smiled shaking her hand.

"You can watch the routine and join in whenever you feel comfortable." she said and I nodded. I gave Bhris his flannel shirt and sat down watching them do the routine. I stood up mocking their dances until I got it down packed and joined it.

"You got it?" she asked.

"Yeah." I nodded.

"Let's test it. Music." she yelled as Travis Porter x Bring it Back came on.

"Yes Simone! You're a natural, I don't know many with big butts that know how to move em."

"Years of practice." I laughed.

We spent a hour freestyling and learning different things from each other. By the end of the class I was laughing and smiling from ear to ear. For once I haven't fake smiled.

"You have to come again." A girl from the class that I clicked with said.

"Yeah, I gave you my number. Just text me." I smiled.

"Bet."

"Picture this. Me and you while I'm rubbing up all on you and then laying the pipe but you can't come over without bringing friends for the bros." Lew said talking to some white girls.

"Little bro be getting bitches." I laughed.

"Don't gass him." Bhris laughed.

We all walked out to the car then turning on the radio singing along to the songs, laughing. We were coming from Chick-Fil-A when I saw I was on theshaderoom in my thot attire making me laugh.

"Baby don't test me, you know I'll do it. You want me to say ya name? Okay."

"KARRUCHE!" We all yelled laughing.

Although their methods was stupid, they were really helping me become happy. I haven't had this much fun in a while.

They was helping me find myself again.
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Sorry for the the wait😎 but as promised lmao even with difficulties.

The next chapter might be private, idk wattpad weird asf G. So if you can't see it, I guess you have to follow me.

Sammy👅

Dice😍

Bhris💍💛 This my daddy😩

Lew😝

Stunna😛I love this picture of him yo😍

All of them⛽ Gang gang.

Excuse any mistakes.