Chapter eleven

"What's wrong with you?" Sydney asked since I've been keeping to myself the past couple days. Before I got to answer all the boys came on the tour bus.

"Text me." I mouthed, she nodded telling me she understood.

My main one👭💭💛

What happened?

I kissed Bhris😶

Bhris as in who bitch? 😳

Bitch what other Bhris do you know?

"OH MY FUCKING GOD! BITCH!" She yelled dropping her phone and falling out.

I can't tell this dramatic ass bitch anything.

"Fuck she on?" Lew asked as they all surrounded her.

"Nothing, I just- wow." She muttered grabbing her phone.

I sighed laying my head down on the table, I have really lost my mind. I need to not drink any more if I was going to do stupid shit like this. 

"Simone, you good?" Lew asked and I nodded. "You wrote in ya journal?"

"Yes Lew."

"Good." He went to the back towards Stunna and Sammy.

"Wassup Sim?" Bhris asked sitting next to me.

"Hey." I said dryly moving away from him and texting Sydney to save me.

"You-"

"Simone, look what Rico said." She laughed.

I stood up to walk to her but the driver pressed the brakes hard and I fell back landing on his lap as he held me.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled getting up without looking back.

Ever since that drunken kiss, I have been avoiding him. Every where we went I stayed next to Stunna or Sydney, he would try to talk to me but thankfully somebody always interrupted.

I remembered everything from that night, although I wish I didn't. After I kissed him, he finally got me off of him and left my room leaving me on the floor without looking back.

"Gas station!" The driver announced. I grabbed Sydney hand and we ran in the gas station.

"How? When? How? Where? How? Do you have feelings? How? Was he a good a kisser? How? Do y'all have feelings for each other? HOW?!"

"That night he was putting me to bed, I kissed him. After we damn near shared saliva for like 2 minutes, he walked out."

"Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God!" She yelled gaining some people attention.

"Bitch I know, I'm a bad noodle." I pouted.

"I always thought you'll make a fun hoe, you want me to fuck Crook and we could be homie hoppers together?" She laughed.

"You're not funny." I whined stomping my feet.

"Wassup?" Bhris asked coming to us.

"Sydney look!" Lew yelled and I gave her that face telling her she better not leave me.

She left me anyway, I walked to the chip aisle pretending to be confused on what chips to get.

"You good?" He asked.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?"

"I wouldn't know since you ain't been talking to me."

"Oh for real?" I asked picking random chips.

"Why you been avoiding me man?"

"Sim they got your candy!" Sydney yelled and I smiled damn near running to her.

"Simone!" Bhris yelled my name.

"Gotta blast." I yelled running to Sydney.

"I shouldn't of saved you but I needed saving my damn self." She looked at me and I raised a eyebrow.

"Bitch spill." I said interested. She pulled down her shirt and let me see the hickie on her collar bone.

"From? You? Oh my damn!" I yelled jumping up and down.

"Bitch shut up!" She covered my mouth. "I felt so bad, I told Rico the next day." She pouted.

"You single?"

"Once Rico agreed to go with me, single isn't in our vocabulary. But he told me to give him a few days so that's what I'm doing."

"Well at least you was honest with him."

"What is lying? I'm mature enough to own up to my shit."

"I wish, I can't even have a conversation with him without the memory coming back up." I leaned my head on her shoulder.

"Y'all we gotta go." Dice said coming into the store.

I nodded my head then started walking backwards. I stopped when I was about to trip but Sydney dumb ass bumped into Lew who tripped taking us all down.

I landed on top of Bhris picturing that night since this was the same position. He looked at me and I looked back at him, he was going to say something but I jumped up.

"You see this? These the only things I have. Keep the change. Thank you." I gave the man the money then ran to the tour bus.

"When you run you look like you-"

"Shut the hell up!" I cut Stunna off.

"Well then." He sat down.

"Dice! Sit next to me, don't get up. If you have to pee, you better hold it." I told him pulling his arm.

"Something is up today." He shook his head as I leaned my head back falling asleep.

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"They turnt!!!" Sydney yelled as we rapped along with them.

"Right this crowd chill." I yelled.

"Aye man, y'all turned. Who my number one fan in here?" Sammy asked and a whole bunch of girls went crazy.

"That's wassup." Sammy laughed.

"I LOVE YOU DICE!" I yelled laughing. He looked at me and laughed.

"I love you more." He laughed.

"Damn I don't get no I love yous?" Sammy asked making me roll my eyes as girls started screaming.

"I love you string cheese!" Sydney yelled and a few people laughed.

"Fuck you." He laughed.

"Goodnight y'all. Thanks for supporting us, we love y'all." Dice smiled.

Sydney and I walked outside laughing and making videos. I was in the middle of a Snapchat video when some boy grabbed my butt.

"Excuse you, keep your damn hands to yaself." I smacked his hand.

"You knew what you was doing when you came out wearing these jeans, I'm just giving you what you asking for baby." He smiled coming closer.

"You bout to get a heel to ya damn face if you don't back up!" Sydney yelled.

"Baby I got a friend for you, how about we take this to my house?" He asked calling over his friends.

"They always said once you go black, you never go back." One of them said touching Sydney and she smacked him.

"Don't play with me. You don't know me, don't touch me. Fuck wrong with y'all?" She asked taking off her heel.

"Play hard to get, I like it." He smirked grabbing her arm.

"Imma count to five. 1, 2, 5." She didn't even finish counting before she started swinging on the white boy with her heel.

"Get off of me!" I yelled since the boy grabbed me from behind and was holding my hands down. Not missing the opportunity to rub against me.

"Yo that's Sim and Syd?" Lew asked before all the guys ran to us.

Bhris ran straight to the boy on me knocking him on his ass as Stunna did the same to another boy. Lew didn't have to do anything because the boy Sydney was hitting had a gash that was bleeding.

"Y'all bout to start staying back stage." Lew shook his head grabbing Sydney.

"It's like trouble always finds us." I pouted as we walked to the hotel since it was a block away.

"He ain't touch you right?" Bhris asked checking my face.

"No y'all came just in time."

"Stunna said he felt like something was wrong." He laughed.

"First time to ever listen to Stunna." I laughed shivering. He took off his hoodie to give it to me.

"Don't do my boy, he smart when he wanna be." He laughed making me laugh.

"Guess he never wanna be?" I laughed walking in the hotel.

"Who rooming with-"

"I got Sammy!" I quickly yelled.

"I got Dice!" Sydney hurried and stood next to him.

They looked at us weird but we got the preferred rooms. We piled into the elevator and I moved away from Bhris standing next to Stunna.

The elevator stopped on our floor and I followed Sammy to the two bed room. I placed my bag on the bed going to take a well needed shower.

"You was in there for like two hours, I had to go use Dice's." He said as I came out.

"Sammy I did something bad." I confessed playing with my fingers.

"Bad as in?"

"I kissed someone." I confessed.

"A kiss don't mean anything unless you want it to. The only one to tell if it meant something is you."

"So what if I know I don't have feelings for that person?"

"I think you do or you wouldn't be so stressed about it."

"I promise you I don't." I confirmed.

"Who you kiss anyway?" He asked laying back on the bed with his phone. Once I didn't answer he looked up. "You heard me?"

"We're friends right? So I don't want to ruin our friendship or anyone else's because of a kiss that didn't mean nothing. It wasn't suppose-"

"Bhris?" He guessed. I stopped talking to look at him biting my lip. "Guess Nailah did see what she saw." He laughed. 

"Don't do that, I feel real bad because that's your brother. I don't even like her and I feel so bad." I pouted dropping to the bed.

Sammy didn't reply but he sat next to me and just looked at me. I hid my face and looked elsewhere until he pulled me up.

"Are you mad at me?" I mumbled. He didn't answer me but he kissed me instead making my eyes widen. He pulled back and laughed.

"See? A kiss don't mean anything unless you want it to. I have love for you, at one point you was everything but when I said we were friends I meant it. Did you feel anything? That old spark?"

"No but-"

"I ain't mad at you Sim." He laughed. "I have a kid on the way and a girlfriend, like I said if we was meant to be we'll get there."

"So what I do about ya know.." I trailed off making him laugh.

"Stop being childish and running from him. A drunk kiss means sober thoughts, go talk to him."

"Okay before we go shopping-"

"Now."

"Now?"

"Now."

"Can you-"

"No."

"But I just wanted-"

"Nope."

"Stop cutting me-"

"Nah." He shook his head and we started laughing.

"Alright but if something bad happens, I'm coming to cry on ya shoulder."

"Good thing I got two." awww, that was cute. 

I put on some sweatpants and asked Lew for their room number. I went to go get Sydney because it was going to be awkward talking to Lew and Bhris.

"Bitch, I was about to whoop Dice ass in fun run." She frowned.

"You'll be back in 10 minutes."

"Where we going?" I didn't answer but we stopped at a door and I knocked. "Oh no bitch."

She tried to run but I held her and stupidly we both fell as she kept trying to crawl down the hallway. I didn't even know the door opened but we kept fighting.

"Why?" Lew asked laughing making us stop and stand up.

"Is your roomie here?" I asked. 

"Yeah he sleep though." Lew shrugged. I looked at Sydney and she sighed.

"Lew come take a walk with me." She grabbed his arm.

"Can I put a shirt on? Damn."

"No." She laughed pulling him down the hallway. She turned around and mouthed I better thank her making me laugh.

I walked into the room seeing the lights was off, I paced back and forth trying to word everything in my head. Once I thought I had everything I sat on the bed as he had his back to me.

"Lew I would box the shit out of you if you don't get off my bed." He mumbled. I didn't say anything as I continued playing with my fingers.

He turned around and we made eye contact. I saw his hazel eyes look around before he got up, he went in the bathroom then came back out two minutes later.

"Wassup Sim?" He asked leaning back on the headboard as I took off my shoes and sat cris cross on the bed.

"I've been avoiding you." I stated playing with my fingers.

"Figured that." He said blankly.

"I kissed you."

"I was there." He looked confused.

"I was avoiding you because I kissed you."

"Oh for real? I didn't notice."

"I was avoiding you because I kissed you and you left me on the floor." I mumbled.

"Because you was drunk Sim and you ain't my girl."

"Oh for real? I didn't notice." I mocked him and we both laughed. 

"Sim it's too complicated, we can't go there. The kiss didn't mean nothing on both parts, just a drunken mistake. Right?"

I couldn't help the feeling of being a little disappointed but it quickly washed off and I nodded my head. I looked at the time seeing it was 1 O' clock, I sighed getting off the bed.

"I'm going to go in my room and go to sleep." I stated putting my slides back on.

"So you just gon break my sleep and leave me?" He asked laughing.

"Pretty much." I smirked.

"How about you stay? We watch movies and talk cause I know you ain't going to sleep no time soon." He laughed.

"You right." I laughed taking my slides back off getting in the bed as he clicked on a movie.

"So tell me what's been going on these past two days?"

You wouldn't even understand the half of it..
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