Chapter 9 is here~ I don't own Junjou Romantica at all~ hehe wonder why Misaki is unable to move~ anyway let the chapter start!

Misaki POV

I looked into Akihiko's lavender eyes with effort, they reflected a mixture of concern and confusion as they gazed back at me. I suddenly felt a wave of pain wash over my body, it took a great deal of effort to even cry out in pain.

"Misaki! What's wrong?!"

Akihiko moved to pick me up but I ended up slipping through his arms, my silver haired lover froze and looked at his own arms in shock.

"Akihiko..I'm scared.. What's wrong with me?..."

I... Was perfectly fine not long ago.. It hurts.. It hurts so much..

I barely finished speaking when another wave of pain rushed over me, however the pain lingered and continued to torment me. I winced, it felt as if millions upon billions of microscopic needles were piercing me everywhere, inside and out. It was if I was slowly being torn apart by the unseen needles, I tried to reach out towards Akihiko. However my hand passed right through my lover once again and was met with a pulsing pain that was added my already existing pain.

"Misaki... I'll get help!"

Akihiko called as he ran out of the bedroom, I looked longingly towards the doorway that he had exited from. I felt the warm tears that had started to roll down my face, they were cause from my pain, also from seeing Akihiko's retreating form getting far away from me.

No... Akihiko.. Please don't leave me again....please don't leave me alone..I don't want to be left alone..

I was scared and utterly confused, I had no idea what was causing my pain. I whimpered to myself, I felt totally lost, even though I was on top of me and Akihiko's bed. I somehow felt foreign, my already blurry vision was slowly waning into more clearness then back to my blurry sight in rhythm with my constant heartbeat.

I gasped when I felt the bed move slightly, I weakly looked up into sorrowful lavender and shining silver, I could tell that I was probably looking at my lover Akihiko.

"Misaki.. I'm sorry... I can't pick up phones, others can't see me.. And I can't even carry you..."

Akihiko's voice betrayed that he was probably on the verge of tears, I winced then made myself smile towards Akihiko. I wanted to cheer him up, he had always been overprotective of me so I knew for sure that his heart was in pain.

Akihiko.. Please I don't want you to suffer as well.. I love you.. And I know that you love me, I know it's hard but please... I want you to be happy Akihiko.

"Aki-Akihiko.. I'll be fine..it just hurts a lot that's all.."

It took a great deal of effort to speak, however I didn't care. I did not want to make Akihiko any more worried about me than he already was, even of it meant lying to the one I loved.

"Misaki..I'm so useless! I should be able to carry you to the hospital.. Yet I can't..even though you need me.. I just can't.."

I felt something warm begin drip onto my hands I looked down at them with my pulsing vision confused, it seemed as if it was Akihiko's tears. I felt sadness wash over me, it mingled with my pain as I thought about how I'm making the one I love more than anything cry.

I reached up towards Akihiko weakly, hoping that somehow I would be able to touch him, to sooth his tears away and make him smile. I gasped in pain as I felt my hand go through Akihiko, the it jolted through my bones like I had been shocked with electricity.

Why? Why does Akihiko's touch hurt so much?.. Why can I no longer touch his physical form.. Is he going to fade away and leave me alone once again?

No, I don't want that to happen at all, I want Akihiko to stay with me.

I heard the sound of Akihiko moving away from me, I felt panic seize me.

No.. Don't leave..

I whimpered and forced myself to move closer towards Akihiko who seemed to be retreating away from me. I looked in his direction, I could feel my own tears falling down my face, I sniffed as I tried to hold back the tears. However the effort was useless as the tears continued to fall down my face.

"Akihiko... Why?.. Please don't leave me.."

I could hear my heartbeat in my ears it had a steady yet slow rhythm, it seemed strange. It sounded different from what I was used to.

"Misaki.. I don't want to harm you.."

I laughed slightly despite the pain that it brought upon me, it couldn't believe that Akihiko thought that he was hurting me.

Well... When I touch him I feel pain, however I don't care.. As long as I'm with Akihiko, I don't care about any pain. All that matters is for me to be with him.

"Akihiko, the only pain you're able to cause me is to my heart, when you leave my side I'm empty and lost. I've already told you this before, I need you Akihiko so please, don't leave me..again"

I heard my lavender eyed lover sigh sadly, I blinked a few times and my vision focused properly upon him for a few seconds before returning to my blurry gaze. The look on Akihiko's face made me want to burst into tears, he had looked so lost and helpless, a look that didn't suit him at all.

"Misaki.. Your pain.. I may be the cause of it.."

What?.. You're the cause of my pain? But how? All you'veever done was be so kind towards me...

Akihiko POV

My Misaki's words had surprised me, he was moving well not to long ago so his sudden immobility concerned me greatly. My Misaki's usually bright emerald eyes were slightly clouded, my Misaki suddenly cried out in pain, making me jump slightly.

"Misaki! What's wrong?!"

I went to go pick up my precious Misaki but my limbs just passed through him with no resistance. I froze and looked at my arms in shock, it was only a minutes go that I was able to hold him.

Why can't I pick up Misaki?.. I've been able to do it with no trouble at all before..why?..

"Akihiko..I'm scared.. What's wrong with me?..."

Misaki...why are you in so much pain... I don't like seeing you like this..

My Misaki's voice was filled with so much pain that it broke my heart just to see him like this. My Misaki suddenly winced and curled up slightly as if it was an impulse, his clouded emerald eyes were flickering between countless levels of pain. I had to hold back a whimper as I watched my Misaki suffer from his pain, I didn't like this, I wanted my Misaki to be okay. He weakly reached over in an attempt to touch me, however his hand easily passed through me as easily as I had slipped through him, the result seemed to be that another wave of pain had taken hold of my Misaki.

Misaki! Why... The pain that has a hold on you.. I want to ease it away yet..

"Misaki... I'll get help!"

I ran out of the bedroom, I didn't want to leave my Misaki all alone and in pain, however I needed to get my Misaki help quickly. I couldn't stand seeing my lovely Misaki in pain any longer, I just wanted him to be happy and healthy.

Misaki I'll be back soon, I'm just going to get some help for you, please... Try to endure your pain..

I ran towards the phone, I cursed when my hands just slipped through it with ease just like last time. I looked around desperately, trying to find something, anything that would help my Misaki. I went to go outside until I remembered that only Misaki could see me, I felt so utterly useless. The one I loved more than anything in existence was suffering, yet I was unable to ease his pain.

This is just too cruel... My Misaki is in pain, I'm by his side... Yet, I can only watch..

I went back to where I left Misaki on our bed, I knew that the precious boy waiting there would be unable to travel on his own. I wiped away the wetness that was in my eyes and sat beside my Misaki, I was filled with the guilt of being an unreliable lover.

My Misaki gasped in surprise when I sat by him, I frowned guessing that he probably couldn't see very clearly.

"Misaki.. I'm sorry... I can't pick up phones, others can't see me.. And I can't even carry you..."

I want to help... I would give anything to help you.. It's not fair, Misaki..

I heard my voice crack however I didn't care, my Misaki winced then smiled at me. I couldn't believe that my Misaki was trying to cheer me up even though he was the one who was in pain.

Misaki.. How can you make yourself smile for me?... You're in so much pain..oh Misaki you're just.. Too kind for your own good..

"Aki-Akihiko.. I'll be fine..it just hurts a lot that's all.."

It seemed as if it took so much effort for my Misaki to even speak, it hurt. My Misaki was putting me before himself like always, I wanted my Misaki to focus on himself. I wanted my lovely Misaki to think about his own needs instead of mine, he was still alive, yet I wasn't.

I'm so sorry Misaki.. So very sorry... I want to make you happy, not be cheered up..

"Misaki..I'm so useless! I should be able to carry you to the hospital.. Yet I can't..even though you need me.. I just can't.."

I could tell that I had already started to cry, I didn't care about letting Misaki see my tears. He was the only one that was allowed to see me in this state, even if he couldn't see me perfectly.

I noticed my Misaki reach towards me weakly once again, I hoped with all of my being that he would succeed so I could take care of my hurting Misaki. However to my shock he gasped in pain as soon as his hand passed through me as if he was attacked with something.

Wait.. He's been feeling pain whenever we've tried to make contact... Is the cause of his pain me?... Have I been hurting my sweet Misaki?!

I.. Don't want that..

I moved away from Misaki, afraid of causing more harm to my love.

I'm so sorry...

I heard my Misaki whimper, I resisted the urge to go try to hold and comfort him. My Misaki tried to move closer towards me but I moved away as he tried to close the distance. It hurt so much when I saw tears spilling from those emerald eyes that I loved so much.

Misaki...

"Akihiko... Why?.. Please don't leave me.."

I was shocked when my Misaki asked me to not leave him, I hadn't been planning on leaving, I just wanted to not harm him.

Were you worried about how I left when I died? That won't happen Misaki..

"Misaki.. I don't want to harm you.."

My Misaki laughed slightly even though it seemed to cause him great pain in doing so.

Misaki, I hate seeing your face covered in pain, I want you to happy but in no pain.. I'll stay with you still. Nothing would make me leave you again.

"Akihiko, the only pain you're able to cause me is to my heart, when you leave my side I'm empty and lost. I've already told you this before, I need you Akihiko so please, don't leave me..again"

I sighed sadly, I felt so helpless in helping my Misaki. If I were to be close to him he'll be in pain but if I were to be far he would also be in pain.

"Misaki.. Your pain.. I may be the cause of it.."

Misaki I love you... I'm so sorry for hurting you..

Me: that's the end of chapter 9~

Misaki: .... Akihiko....

Akihiko: Misaki hold on please.. I'm sorry..

Misaki: ....

Me: hope ya liked the chappy~