I think this chapter is a bit intense... take it as you will 👀

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"Let's go upstairs."

He grabbed Taehyung's arm which now mixed the colours of his arm with green and yellow. As they emerged into the bigger living room that was blasting music with people dancing and grinding on each other like no tomorrow. Jeongguk made his way through, bringing Taehyung with him as they made their way back near the entrance of the house.

"Where are you taking me?" Taehyung whined wiggling his hand in Jeongguk's grip but failed to have his grip loosen on his wrist.

"Where does it look like?"Jeongguk marched up the stairs and Taehyung looked at his arm that was lathered in paint.

Jeongguk opened the door to the washroom and shoved them inside locking the door behind him.

"What are we doing in the washroom?" Taehyung places his hands behind him on the sink looking at how Jeongguk rubbed hand on his temples, perfectly smearing on his forehead.

"All the bedroom doors were closed... That means they're all occupied." Taehyung then remember what Yoongi told him for the reason the doors would be full and became silent.

"You were close with Jae, did you want to hook up with him or something?" Jeongguk provokingly eyed Taehyung's bare skin and the undeniably attractive fishnet stockings he wore. "Because if you wanted a hook up..." Jeongguk trapped Taehyung against the sink as his breath fanned his sensitive skin. "All you had to do is come to me and ask."

He peppered Taehyung's neck with sloppy kisses, his hot breath had his body shudder. Taehyung's legs began to shake as the erotic feeling excited him to get what he's been wanting — his attention.

It was to an extent, how he got the attention but he knew that he must of meant something to Jeongguk.

"Jeongguk..." Taehyung voice was jagged. It was like suddenly he lost all the air in his lungs and it was being taken away every time they molded their lips together.

Jeongguk squeezed Taehyung's thighs causing him to jump up and sit himself on top of the counter of the sink. Jeongguk trapped him between his arms having them beside Taehyung's head on the mirror.

The older gripped his nails into the ledge of the sink putting his own force into the kiss.

"I can make you feel good more than he ever could." Jeongguk's hands slide back down finding its way under Taehyung's crop top, fiddling with his sensitive pink buds.

Taehyung suppressed a moan by biting down on his lip and grabbing onto the collar of Jeongguk's neon button up pulling him closer.

"Such a good slut for-" Taehyung pushed Jeongguk off of him within a second.

"I'm not a slut." Taehyung took that time to slide himself off of the sink.

"Why are you being a prude all of a sudden?" The trigger word in his mind told him he couldn't do it anymore. A complete turn off, Taehyung made Jeongguk hit his back against the wall feeling an unsettling feeling shake him from within.

That was enough to make Taehyung dash out of the washroom feeling completely disgusted as he walked out.

Taehyung's body started to feel on fire. His heart was racing beating out of his chest feeling it tighten all at once.

He was welcomed to the sound of the extremely loud music and Taehyung started walking back down the stairs.

"Where you going?!"

Jeongguk grabbed at his shoulder and Taehyung jerked it from his grip. "Let go of me, I'm leaving."
He tried to yell over the music.

It didn't take much for Jeongguk to let go, as he did right after what Taehyung yelled. He walked down the rest of the stairs taking one glance up the stairs seeing how Jeongguk just stood there before he walked off somewhere upstairs.

Of course he doesn't care, why did he think that for a small millisecond that Jeongguk would come down with him and convince him to stay.

Yoongi walked out of the room he was sleeping in and accidentally walked into someone, it was Jeongguk and he said quick sorry before seeing Taehyung near the door. From the top stairs by the railings he yelled, "Taehyung!"

He turned back before turning the handle of the door. Yoongi dashed down the stairs and looked at Taehyung. "I'm your ride home, where do you think your going?"

"I was going to sit by the fountain..." Taehyung shrugged his shoulder his eyes were staring at the ground so Yoongi felt like something was wrong.

"Do you want me to come with you? I can get Hoseok to come to?" He suggested because wasn't sure if Taehyung should be left alone.

"I'll be fine, besides Hoseok is probably having a blast partying I don't want to ruin it for him y'know?"

Yoongi nodded his head, "I guess but call me and tell me when you want to leave, if not the same time as Hoseok I'll drop you off and just come back."

"Thanks hyung." Taehyung patter his shoulder before walking out the door.

Even with the door closed, Taehyung could hear beat if the music trying to escape through the door. "Are you leaving sir?" A man asked him.

"Ah, no just getting some fresh air." He shagged the back of his hair walking up to the front of the fountain. It was spewing water as it trickled in the pond of water that was filled below. The clouds were dark covering up the stars in the sky, the moon barely visible through them. He sat there looking at the emptiness that was beyond the gate and the trees that whispered from the wind. The humid musky air, moistened his skin the breeze only of heat.

He seemed to calm his heart beats taking deep breathes the heart breaking memories of his past started to rush back to him.

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Taehyung was freshman in high school when he got his first boyfriend. He wasn't afraid of people's opinions and he sure as hell wasn't afraid of people knowing.

That's how he got together with him in the first place. His boyfriend admired Taehyung for his boldness.
One of many things he loved that led to his eventual gain in courage to ask him out.

Kim Namjoon, was one year older than Taehyung. A sophomore, in childish love and admiration for the other after they met through their mutual friend, Hoseok.

When Namjoon confessed it seemed so out of the blue to Taehyung, he never saw it coming. Being the reckless youngling he was, he accepted without a second thought. Namjoon was a good looking man with fantastic grades and who was genuinely kind to everyone.

He was the perfect gentleman to Taehyung.

At the beginning of their relationship he respected the Taehyung's wishes to minimize on physical affection. Holding hands was the most they did for the first year of their relationship and Namjoon was okay with it.

He was okay with it for three years...Taehyung was about to graduate high school and Namjoon was in first year college.

Taehyung hadn't become an influencer yet, but decided after high school he wanted to go to post secondary for cinematography.

"Happy third year anniversary!" Namjoon popped up in front of Taehyung's house and his parents from the side lines were in awe with the giant teddy bear, dozen of roses and box of chocolates that were in his hands. Taehyung had a dainty love letter in one hand and a small box in another. Shoving the box in the pocket of his sweater, he helped take some of the things from Namjoon's hands and led him to his bedroom.

"I can't believe you gave me all of this?!" He looked at all the items in surprised putting the stuffed animal on his bed and filtering through the red roses, feeling their velvety petals.

Namjoon placed the chocolates on his bedside table before sitting himself on the bed. "Anything for you." The dimples Taehyung loved were displayed as he smiled gently at Taehyung.

Taehyung sat beside him and placed his hand on top of his. "It means a lot to hear that from you." He was happy being around him, Namjoon always made him happy.

"You're perfection... I'm glad your mine." They stared into each other's eyes and Taehyung still had his letter beside him. He saw something in his eyes, so much passion and love looking into his own. It sparkled and it didn't seem like there was a second that he stopped smiling.

Taehyung slide his arms under Namjoon's squeezing him in a hug and Namjoon did the same.

But at one point Taehyung didn't feel his arms around him any more he pulled back and saw how Namjoon started to lean forward.

The moment seemed perfect, to Namjoon it was the perfect moment to make a shot to take their relationship a step forward. But Taehyung pushed him away before he could.

"Sorry, I just wasn't expecting you to try and kiss me." Taehyung looked away frazzled.

"You never expect it... When will I be able to kiss my boyfriend?" Namjoon's eyes saddened, his heart sank at another failed attempt to be close with his boyfriend. Then things went sour.

"It's been three years Taehyung, when are you going to learn to stop being such a prude!"

Taehyung's thick black bangs covered his face and he looked at the ground at his feet. He didn't know why it was taking him so long to do something as simple as a small kiss. He just couldn't do it, he was glad that Namjoon waited so long for him but in his heart he knew that he was always taking from Namjoon and never gave.

"I'm sorry."

He quietly muttered and Namjoon stood up from where he was sitting, "Tell me Kim Taehyung, how long do I have to wait for you?" Namjoon's voice broke and if only Taehyung looked at him he'd see the tears that started to stream down his face.

"I don't know." He clutched onto the white thin sheets on his bed water threatening to fall from his eyes.

"Will we ever be able to move forward?"

Taehyung stayed silent and didn't even look up when Namjoon walked out of his room. He heard chatter from downstairs but ignored it. He laid down on his bed and huddled his body close together so that he could hug his knees. He felt that Namjoon deserved more, that's why he let him go.

He was never able to be intimate with Namjoon like he wanted to. He just never felt like he could see himself and him doing those kinds of things. It was late junior year that Taehyung started to question if he really liked Namjoon. He rushed into the relationship and didn't even consider if he really felt the same way Namjoon did. It might of been the thought of being in a relationship during his high school days that made him want to understand how it the experience would be like.

But that was no way right to Namjoon, he was sorry that he didn't realize earlier.

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Taehyung swayed his hand through the water in fountain thinking how much he's change since high school.

It seems even though he was doing the things he would of never done in high school that he was still being called a prude.

Taehyung felt disgusted being called a slut, now that Taehyung didn't give to fucks about being intimate with someone, now it makes him a slut. It's never enough. Taehyung thought he'd let himself feel this way with someone but maybe he should sticker to being the same prude he was in high school.

Why was it so hard to be close with his ex, but then with Jeongguk it came so easy. The mess ups, the mishaps, to the slipped kisses and the sexual touches. He couldn't even kiss his first boyfriend, but now he's going about kissing his co-worker.

He took a deep sigh and yawned tired of just everything. He wanted to go home. "Someone told me you were outside." A voice came from the distance.

Peaking from the other side of the fountain the familiar face popped out and a shy smile left Taehyung's lips. "Hey, Jaehyun right?" He pointed his finger at him and the male nodded his head.

"A little birdie told me you would be here." He sat down beside him, "What happened between you and Gguk?"

"He just wanted to talk...About stuff..." He came up on the spot but was very bad and vague. "Why are you outside?" Taehyung asked him turning his head over.

"To talk to you." Jaehyun looked around and only heard the sound of the water and crickets. "It's much quieter here."

"Taehyung!" Someone called him and he turned around and saw Yoongi holding Hoseok on his shoulders. "Ah, that's you... We're leaving now."

"Sorry to cut the conversation short..." Taehyung faltered standing up, "But I think I'm leaving now..."

"Don't worry about it, thank you for coming." Jaehyun smiles brushing his hair back.

"Thanks for having us." Taehyung waved, striding off to his friends.

"Take care, See you soon!" Jaehyun said a little too cheerful.

"Till then."