11/2/22

Lately days are easy, but nights are rough. I can't sleep. I can't stop thinking. I can't stop hurting. Everything in my body feels like it's racing.

I didn't have a good relationship with my mother. But now that she's gone I feel a different kind of insanity. We are all in this world alone. But a mother is like a root or a tether. I feel so untethered.

I start work earlier than I anticipated. I go in tomorrow. I don't even have the proper uniform. I reckon I'll just wear something I already have and hope they don't reprimand me too hard. I am just training after all.

My proper slacks come tomorrow...and I'm hesitant about buying an all black shoe before I know whether my current ones are acceptable.

Well, good luck to me I guess.